To Have But Not To Hold

What I will be like in 25 years at the age of 46

2009-10-11T20:47:00.001-07:00

Dated: 12102009

Attitude:
I am Strong-Willed, Positive and Honest. I will balance rationality and emotionality. I must learn to influence people in a good way. I will speak and carry myself with Confidence always. I am a perceptive, easy going, and sincere person who longs for the world to be a better place.

Career:
I want to stamp my mark in the Business world. I want to be an outstanding researcher and certified doctor who contributed significantly to the Bioscience area of Research and save many lives.

Education:
I want to be an Expert in the field of Bioscience, in particular Medicinal Science and Pathology. I want to be a skilled public speaker.

Family:
I want to be a good parent. I know what is my priority and Family will always come before work no matter how successful I am.

Finance:
100,000 a month, 1.2 million a year. I want to build a steady financial portfolio and retire at the age of 50

Physicals:
I want to be healthy and have a lean and fit body even as I get older. I want to maintain a good body posture and enjoy my sports.

Pleasures:
See the World with my own money. Spend times with my loved ones.

Public Service:
To make the world a better place by contributing significantly to the scientific society to improve the quality of life of people.

Day 103: Go Celtics

2008-06-06T10:02:00.000-07:00

Oh man... My life is so immersed in Basketball right now. I have that desire to play though I dun have the strength anymore. I'm totally soaked into the Celtics Lakers NBA finals and was overjoyed at the way the Celtics Won It.

KG gave an MVP performance. He is one of the best Big Man Shooters in the league and in NBA history. He should play more aggressively under the Basket though. That will make Him Unstoppable.

Paul Pierce owned the third quarter. He was injured halfway but oh how he came back from the Injury to score and 7 Points. He scored 15 in the Third quarter and carried the team on the Back. Hero man.

Allen had 19 points. He made a highlight reel Three pointer which was absolutly amazing. Cross the Guy and burnt him at the three point line. Wonderful. I hope he has a good series.

I love the way the Celtics are playing. Kobe is Unstoppable but basketball is a Team Game.

Go Celtics!

Day 101, Day 102: Lakers Vs Celtics. How Cool is that?!?!?!

2008-06-05T06:45:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happened for the past two days. I've been just totally immersed in Basketball. Beginning to find my passion in the game, slowly slowly becoming a better player.

NBA have been fantastic! Celtics, Lakers Final. Woah!

Wanted to drink today... But na I better come back to sleep.

Not in the Mood to tYPe. Praise God. Bless everyone.

Day 100: A Century of Blogs

2008-06-03T05:52:00.000-07:00

Woke up today. Nothing much, when I reach office, no one was there I was the first. That was ridiculous. I reached at 8.55am.

So it turns out the Boss will be back from the long holiday she had in Japan and she will be coming into the office tomorrow. Everyone was late for the last time.

I will be giving my two weeks notice tomorrow. God. Hope that everything turns out fine.

Nothing much happen at work today. We just had a really good lunch at Chai Chan Ting. Damn Nice. I order the Cheese baked rice with Chicken Chop and a Lemon Honey Green Tea. Worth every Single cents.

After work went to Vivocity to look for a water Bottle. I combed through Adidas, Puma and Nike before I finally choose a Yellow Nike One for $19.90.

Came back home. Going to rest early tonight. Im still blocked on MSN by somebody... Haiz... -_-'

God will make a Way lar dun worry.

Praise GOd!

Day 98, Day 99: Disappointing

2008-06-02T08:46:00.000-07:00

Woke up today, had a good rest. Stayed at home and surfed the Net. When to the Book Exhibition at Suntec. Turned out to be pretty sucked.

I was supposed to shop for some Medical Books. When I went into the Exibition, there were barely even books around! The hall was damn big but filled with useless stuff. There were many stands where people can go and apply for subscription to Magazine, there was one big stage and many seats, there was a Cosplay exhibition and a Sze Chuan Earthquake exibition. All these filled 1/3 of the place.

Another 1/3 of the place was filled with Stalls selling Education toys for Toddles, Books for Toddlers, Useless things for Kids up till Primary three. There was so many Kids things it drove me Nuts.

K the Next 1/3 of the place was Books. 3/5 of the 1/3 of the place were filled with Chinese books. 2/5 was filled with English Books. Of the 2/5 that was filled with English Books, 1/2 of them were Fiction and Half was non Fiction. I only wanted Medical Books so Fiction was out.

Of the 1/2 of the Fiction books, 80% of the books was on Lifestyle shit like Diet and Hobbies like Drawing... 15% of the Books were dictionaries. 3% of the books was pure Crap. K... In the end there was 3 Medical Books. One a Medical Dictionary, One a Text Book and One a Medical book for the Pregnant. Hardly a choice issit?

I left lor.

Monday went to work. Was in Tip Top condition. Hit all my target by almost twice as much. Then went to Bras Pasar there to find the rest of the Books. There was no Books. The Shops were closed. Arghh!!!

Had A qUArrel with Bernie. I asked her if she like Irresponsible people. She say she doesnt. Then I mentioned about her not doing a proper handover of her work to Angela. Then she say I too much. Then I said I never say she was Irresponsible. I merely asked if she liked Irresponsible people. Then I got Blocked.

Eh... Wanna get angry over this kind of Shit please la... Grow Up? I was freaking covering your back all the while you were working here, taking shit from all my Collegues and friends just to protect you and you know nothing about it so its crap you give me this kind of treatment ok.

Ok... Gotta sleep now. Its late.

God Bless Everyone pleaseeeee...... Praise You!

Day 97: I love the Game

2008-05-31T11:27:00.000-07:00

Woke up today early, went to Clarke Quay for work. It was fantastic because the work wasnt too tough like the two previous weeks and I enjoyed my time there with the other Ah bangs In the shop. They were working on the furniture and the signboards and we had a good time laughing when we see Chio Bu walking past and they will go like WA CHIO BU! EH DUN WALK SO FAST LEH! In Malay. Haha... Damn Funni larrr

Everyone keep on asking me weather Im the son of the Shop Uncle... -_-' Look alike Meh?

Got the $80. Then went to Jurong there to play basketball. At first we played at Teo's house. I felt on top of my game today. Even though I did not shoot so good, all the other areas of my game is magnificent. "I felt". I passed good, Defend Good, Was calm on the ball, Make Good decisions and generally did not give my opponents any Respect. Felt damn Great.

We had this game where me and Dan was teamed with two other freaking Noobs, One was from China. We played 3 guys and this Girl. The three Guys seemed to be not bad players and the girl was from Rp Reigning Champion team. I thought we were done for since we had those two loopholes, almost every shot attempt was targeted towards them. The Opposing players attacked the weakest link. We were down fast and the score was 9-4 in a race to 11. They were at 9 points.

Me and Dan decided to step up and take control of the game. I decided right there and then I will not show any respect to my Opponent. I will mark him and I will make sure he will not get past me and he will not shoot past me without feeling the greatest pressure. Dan also decided to step up and dominated the Paint area getting the rebounds and being a huge threat. He also demonstrated some great shooting and everyone keep guarding and focusing on him, not giving him the chance to shoot the ball out. I think it worked quite well. Almost all of the play of the opposing team start from a drive-fake-pass-pass-pass-Attempt. After the score was at 9-4. I went to guard the guy that Drive. Giving all the pressure. He cant shoot, he cant drive because I was determine not to let him get pass me. Whenever he stops the ball, I will step and and pressure his Pass. I think this stop their Drive-fake-pass Momemtum.

We chased and Chased and the score was at 10-10. But we could not finish the game. Should have run that play Dan and Shawn developed. I scored 5 of the 10 shots, Dan scored 4, all beauty *(Thats why they think he is a huge threat) and one of the China noob guy score the remaining one. One of my shot was a three pointer, 1 was a hard drive to the basketball and an acrobatic layup after getting fouled. One was a left hander layup, Two of them were from a Mid Range Jumpshot around the baseline.

Damn cool game though we lost. We would have won if we had Yong Lee. Another one of our guys.

PrAisE God!

Day 95, Day 96: Nothing Much

2008-05-30T09:36:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happened these two days. Got my pay which was cool. Lets hope the next few days would be exciting ones.

Play basketball today but halfway through it started to rain. Everyone went home but I continued shooting till 10. I love playing in the rain. Have loved it ever since young. Though its not healthy I felt good and cool and though the court was quite slippery, that did not stop me from driving to the basket, executing Lay up and jump shot and imagine I was some sort of NBA star.

There is a book fair recently. Hope to visit that place and get some nice Medicine Books. After Tomorrow night, i will start to tune my body to be fit for NS.

Praise God!

*I think I will find a Japanese Girlfriend. They sound damn cute on the phone and made my whole day. .

Day 94: Work now, Play later.

2008-05-28T09:09:00.001-07:00

Woke up today. Feeling not so good. Damn tired. But still dragged myself to work.

Able to hit my target by 12pm. So decided to have a bit of sleep. Slept for one hour, then had lunch for another hour. So I slacked off for like 2 hours. Thats really bad.

Then realise that I got like 20% call rate. That sucks to the core. Angela had to cheat to help me. I feel way bad.

Came back and play some basketball with my brother. Its nice to have him there. Would have been nicer if he stayed on the court for longer periods.

Praise God. Heal my tired body. Bless my Soul. Give me Strength. I believe in you.

PrAIse You.

Day 93: I believe my Hard Work will Pay Off

2008-05-27T10:59:00.000-07:00

Woke up today, went to work, was not late.

Rest and relax at the beginning of the day. I was behind on my target by a lot. It was not till the last three hour of work that I decided to buck up and work my ass off that I was able to hit my target by the time work ends.

Spoke with Su Ann. She walked pass me three times today. I asked her about Penang. She told me that I have got to visit Batu Ferringhi. The nicest beach in Penang. What I heard from the travel blog is that it is a boring place. But for her sake, Maybe I'll just go take a look. Then we spoke about the Notes that she was suppose to pass to me. She told me she has the soft copy for her work and some hard copy books for Enterprise. I told her I want them. She said she does not want to carry the stuff all the way from KL on the 5 to 6 of July. And then I got Brave.

I didnt know what hit me. I told her. Why not you dun go back on the 5th or 6th of July. Go in on the 13th or 14th June. Because Im going on a Backpacking trip too and you can show me around town then. I'll help you to carry the books! Too bad she wasnt free.

So another thing about Su Ann. Her birthday is 11th July. Same date I get Enlisted. And her father birthday is two days before. And she just wore a ring which she didnt use to wear a few weeks back and she started wearing High heels. Hmm... Interesting.

So anyway after work went to have dinner with Theresa, Angela, her sister and the Mother and Rapfael. We had Marche and I had the Pig Knuckle which tasted not bad. I also had Calamari. Dinner cost me about $20. Then the rest of them decided to go home while I had a beer with Theresa. We spoke about everything and nothing, about Bernie and office and her studies. Nice having a friend like that, you can have a beer with anytime of the day, you can just sit and chill and talk and talk and talk till you forget what time it is. Im glad I met Theresa. Another friend just like Daniel.

So Praise God for all the blessings that he have imparted to me. Thank you lord Father and Abba!

Day 92: Work like Siao

2008-05-26T10:13:00.000-07:00

Woke up today in the morning was not late for work.

OT till 10.45pm and earned quite a lot of money. This can help me to lessen my financial load during the trip. Spoke to a girl Yanling who was the third last to leave the entire office. Quite a nice cute girl. I was second last to leave the office.

Called CMPB today to settle exit permit stuff. Turns out Im free to travel as long as I report to the enlistment on time. Then took a leave on the 13th, planning to leave on 12th Night 9pm by Coach to Penang. Leave till 20th friday. Having 21st and 22nd as cushion should be pretty comfortable.

Going to sleep now less I cannot take it tomorrow.

PriAsE gOd for Everything!

Day 91: R and R.

2008-05-25T08:43:00.000-07:00

Woke up late today. Did not go to church once again.

Got that much needed rest. Came online and did some more research this time on Penang.

Planned a bit with my brother. Much of the stuff are planned out. Idea is to take a coach to Penang and stay there for a bit. Probably visiting Georgetown and the nearby attraction. Then take a ferry from there to Kuah, the ferry terminal of Langkawi. Then if we still have cash to burn we'll take a bus to Krabi Thailand making a stop along the way at Satun. Damn cool larrr...

Ate dinner with father and Brother. Ate one a half Chicken.

Watch the earthquake show with my brother... Damn sad. God bless the people there plss.....

Praise God. Let his love shine on the people in China!

Day 90: No one to Answered... Who wanna go Backpacking or Touring From Penang to Langkawi to Krabi?!!

2008-05-24T10:17:00.000-07:00

So woke up today... Early... Went to work at the medical hall for $10 an hour for 8 hours. Not bad, quite awesome.

But work was hard and tough. So much dust and all...

Ah well... So it is another $80 in the bag. Maybe I'll get to spend them when I go Holidaying in Malaysia.

Whoever is reading this. Are you interested in Coming? Just drop me a comment... I'll be pleased to go with ya!

Praise God!

Day 89: I need to Buck up at work. Who wants to join me Backpacking in Penang and Langkawi?

2008-05-23T07:50:00.001-07:00

Woke up early today, went to work and time passed pretty quickly. Didnt hit my target for the whole day. I was one short per hour. Its ok. We have our off days right?

So I came to work and I learnt that it will be Bernie Last day at the office from 9 to 6. That sucks. Well at least Theresa stayed so its not too bad.

We ate Marche today. I had the French Onion soup. Totally different from the Mushroom. This one seemed more Chinese. Then had the Original Rosti Spammed with Sour Cream and the Fresh Calamari spam with mayo which was Damn Awesome! Bill came to around $20 plus. I should have ordered that $12 beer. Taste great, I would take that over Heineken anytime!

So came home early after work. It was my stepdad birthday. We got him a bottle of wine and a Pen. Issac and his wife came so did their two children and the maid. Julian came with his Wife Priscilla, My bro steven came with Zhao Xin, there was Daddy and Mom. Everyone seemed to come with a pair. Me? I came with God. Oh yea! His my Daddy!

So it was a nice night with nice cake and SUPER GREAT FOOD! Which my mom prepared.

I was considering a Holiday in Malaysia. Something of an adventure, just exploring around with a limited budget and saving. Take public transport and stuff. I just realise that ALL MY FRIENDS ARE SO DADDY MOMMY GIRL AND BOY DE LARRRR!!!! None of them are allowed to go overseas on their own? What the hell... Like I have less then 5 friends which can go explore with me. One of them already have a trip to Hong Kong and Korea. Another One is going into army in first week of June, One more only allowed to go Hong Kong and Taiwan I dun wan... Malaysia Cheaper and more thrilling larrr... Then another two are freaking Broke! BROKE! Jia lat lar...

Sian... What to do? As usual lo. Leave it to God. Whoever reading this blogs that wants to go? Please Drop me a Comment? Lets make friends eh?

Day 88: Huat ah!

2008-05-22T09:14:00.001-07:00

Woke up today and around noon as I took half day paid leave because I needed more sleep. Went to work at 2 and was not late as usual. During my four hours there, hit about 10 names per hour. Not bad!

Then i decided to work overtime. Worked till 9.30pm and excluding dinner time hour I earned $11 for two hours of work. Pathetic.

Ate Subway though, One Foot Long Cold Cut Trio. Excellent! It already caused $11 dollars already that meal.

Came back home and did the usual. Going to sleep at 12:20am.

Praise God!

Day 87: Learn to Control pls

2008-05-21T10:33:00.000-07:00

Woke up today, was not late for work, everything was fine till after work. I went out to play ball with the other guys, Daniel, Yi Chuan, Yong Lee and Teo and the other guys. We played all the way till 11 then went to have a rest. Rest and eat till 12 and reach home past midnight feeling damn Shag. How am I going to work tomorrow? I need Sleep! So I asked for a Half day paid leave. Going to work in the afternoon till evening.

Then its back home for shooting practice again and ball again on Friday. I just love this Game. My shots have been getting more and more consistent. I feel more and more confident of making shots and I have never felt better playing Basketball.

Praise God.

May I have a great rest today.

Day 86: Mr Nice Shot and a Grumpy

2008-05-20T04:24:00.000-07:00

Woke up today feeling fine. No pain anywhere, I felt refreshed and ready to go. Talk about a new beginning!

Went out onto the train, got to office like 20 mins early then usual. Reach office and started work. Then I realise something Helen is on leave today! Woot! No pressure baby. Just enjoy the work today. Before entering the office, had a little chat with Theresa. I think she's really cool. Really BROTHER those kind.

Ah well slacked off for the first part of the day. Hit like only a few DE for the first four hours. But luckily I got to call india and although talking to the people there can suck you dry, I was able to not only hit my target and hit the rest of the target that I missed too. So it kinda worked my way and praise God for that.

Even had time to look into what is Neurocysticerosis and the Function of Phelgm and stuff. Also get to stay online. Yong Lee told me about a possible work opportunity. He says something about being a camp facilitator and guiding people. Which later turns out to be a bad choice and he didnt like it one bit so with no company, I might as well not go too. Although I think it cant be that bad and I would probably enjoy my time with the kids.

Then I left the office immediately at 6pm having hit the target. Everyone ask me why I leave so early... Ah well... I was actually going to.... PLAY Basketball!

Woot I had a great time. Shooting shots after shots which seemed to go in one after another. Hong Siong Accompanied me while I shot and we had some drill runs and he gave me some pointers. I am going to improve my game by leaps and dominate the court! With God on my side surely I can do it.

Came back and found that Brother did like over 360 Date Entry today. What a freaking great job. Hmm... Maybe he had some help. I dunno. Anyway he seems a little grumpy about some stuff... I mean... Things are supposed to be done that way so no point saying how diffcult and Stuff. People pays good money for this Shit and it needs to be done clean and proper and swee swee for other people one ma... Right? Anyway... Im gonna send him some help tomorrow. At least I'll have him off my back then...

People doing work harder but earning like twice lower then him, have to make calls after calls and face all the crap from the other person on the other line. Go play basketball so tired already, still have to do the dishes and do already still have to hear him complain about some problem that if actually if you just take a small amount of time searching can be solved easily. Dunno what to say man really...

Haiya... Praise God la. I let him solved this problem for me. Muack! I still love him and everyone!

Day 84, Day 85: A New Beginning

2008-05-19T07:26:00.000-07:00

Woke up today. Have been sleeping alot for the past few days, I think Im prepared to go ahead and face tomorrow. Bring it on World!

My physical condition aint good. Too much late night and unhealthy food. Has to rectify that.

Haven been going to Church for the past few weeks. Gotta rectify that too.

Emotionally unstable for the past few weeks. I dunno why but the break came at a good time and I have thought things out. Im good now.

On the plus side, I manage to catch up with some old friends... Friends whom I deemed as too far away and whom our lives are too different. They messaged me and wanted me to go play ball with them. Way Cool! Finally hanging out with the real dudes again.

Praise God for everything. Im 20 now. Time to step up and Own. Its a new beginning. =)

Day 83: Being Like House

2008-05-17T10:05:00.000-07:00

Yea I made up my mind that I am going to start thinking like House. Making Decisions based on Rationality and Logic instead of getting my emotions in the way of my judgement. I do not want to be Totally like House in the sense that he has crappy relationship with people and he is a mean bastard but I want to know how he think and look and solve problems. How he is able to see into people and know what they are thinking or feeling. Its a great show. =)!

If I was like House things would not have been so difficult. I would not have tried so hard to keep my friends in the Company. House dun give a shit and if I think like him, I shouldnt either. House would have identified that because he was getting too emotionally involved with his collegues, he should get rid of them. I wont get rid of them. I will however, do my best not to get too involved in this. I got them here, they have to prove that they are worthy of being here at their own efforts.

Yea... Like I said... More Rest... More Sleep.

House dont believe in God. I do. And I am destined to Reign in my life and I am going to do it like House does and I am going to believe in Jesus and all things good that he will impart to me.

Praise God.

Day 81, Day 82: Im trying to hard. Things are supposed to be easy.

2008-05-16T08:57:00.000-07:00

Ok... So these two days I was troubled. Why? Because My collegues feel that I am helping a girl who doesnt even make an effort to stay in the company in the first place.

Know what? I leave it all in God's Hands. His Victory is Effortless. I should not be trying so hard by my own efforts to make things right. He will do it for me. Why am I so EMO lately. Crap.

pRaiSe God! All I pray over the next few days is Good Sleep and Great Rest. Jesus I trust you in. I trust that you are The Rest.

PrAIse God!

Day 80: How to prevent my Two Dear Friends from getting the SAcK

2008-05-14T06:47:00.000-07:00

So had some problem at work today. What do you do when you come to the office one day and you heard from one of the reliable inside sources that one of your friend from another department is going to be sacked sometime within the week and another of your friend if she does not perform is going to be sacked next week?

Rule of the game:
Both of them Must Keep their Jobs and you have got to help them. *Because they are such Dear Friends

Thought about how to solve this problem the whole day... So just only met my target with 8 names per hour for 8 hours.

Here's my answer: Give the friend an opportunity to continue work at my department. Tell it to her discretly in the form of the friend who is dangerously close to being sacked. Tell the one who is dangerously close to being sack to bucked up and secretly help her out in the middle of the night when no one is in the office to improve her call rate. Problem solved. All keep their jobs, a little more effort on my part but Im happy. Cause those two Dear Friends Keeps me going and gives me the motivation to work everyday.

If they are reading this... Please dun feel pissed. I have never thought of helping you all because Im kind and helpful. I bring it upon myself to keep the both of you in the company for purely selfish reason because you two make life here much more interesting and I enjoy working more with the two of you around. Cheers! =0)

But of course... All praise to God my Father. =)

Day 79: On with the Work.

2008-05-13T07:59:00.000-07:00

Woke up early, was not late today. Felt on form. Manage to hit 9 names per hours and 11 names per hour for the first four hours. Later on in the day, not so good. Hit 8 or 9 names per hours for the next 4 hours calling India.

Felt damn sian.

Things went wrong man... So wrong I cant say it in the blog. I'll just leave that to GOD. I trust in him to solve it and lead me on the right path.

Praise God.

Day 78: Happy Birthday To Me. =)

2008-05-12T10:55:00.000-07:00

Woke up early, ate a nice big bowl of Mian Sian cooked by my mom and went to work. I was like 15 mins late and the boss was not pissed with me caused its my birthday. Hurray!

Mom gave me Ang Bao too. Think there's a 50 inside. Haven opened it yet.

Went to work. Hit 9 names per hours for the first 4 hours and 11 names per hours for the next 4. Thats off the roof! Rock on! Went to Banquet for Lunch, ate Ban Mian and enjoyed the company of the people Im with. God, thank you for all of them. Seriously they are such nice people...

Then come dinner. Turns out that it was not a one on one dinner thank god if not its going to be so boring. Instead Bernie, Theresa and Stefanie, the three damn good friends ate with me. I though they were great company, nice funny people and the sort where you can just sit and talk till dawn. I never had this kinds of friends, not since I stopped hanging out with Daniel and company. I really missed going out with those dudes but it seems like our lives are just too far apart now to come back together and hang. They got their own commitement and I have a great life writtten on the palms of Gods hand to live.

We went to eat Riverside Indonesian Restaruant. The Dinner cost $50 for 6 nice dishes including Sting Ray and Sotong and free flow rice. You know how freaking expensive rice is and how many people are starving and they are giving out free flow rice? Thats like damn amazing...

Then they wanted to go grab a drink, some Magariata something which I have no idea about. Ended up abandoning the idea cause they are broke. So we ended up buying Ice cream for Stef and bernie and me and Theresa had a 500ml beer. Heinekan for me and asaki for her I think. Then we went to sit by the river opposite the Bunjee jump, watching those people scream like freaks and the night life just across the river. It was a wonderful experience.

Made me realise how little I know Singapore. I keep telling myself that I want to go overseas because Singapore is boring, but the thing is with a nice group of friends like the sort where you can chat till dawn, any place in Singapore is a heavenly place. Even though like half the time I dunno what they are talking about cause its all about past memories, I just like to sit around and listen to them speak and laugh, and laugh along with them. Its Blissful. And its nice to have their company especially on my birthday. Having celebrated with my families and my collegues, I could not ask for more. And the Lord gave me in Abundance.

Took a 190 bus home to Choa Chu Kang then a cab back. I settled some phone stuff and my brother gave me a gift. It was a Passion of the Christ poster. Freaking nice and the most awesome present I received. The card was second and the Money by my mom was third and the nice shirt was fourth and the Watch was fifth. =) I think the poster exudes some power and I feel happy when I look at it and it fills me. Thanks Bro! Love e Present the most!

Alright. Its late. Im going to bed. See ya!

All praise to God.

Day 77: Sunday.

2008-05-11T07:59:00.000-07:00

Woke up late today. Did not go to the big new creation service at Singapore Indoor Stadium. I slept in late instead and woke up at 2.30pm. Needed that rest after a tiring week last week and an exhausting Friday and Saturday.

Woke up, went online and settled some stuff, then went on to go do my favourite THANG! Watch House! I freaking love that show. House Rocks. I think trying to be Objective is the hardest thing in the world to do and House Epitomises Objectivity to the Maximum though his a mean son of a bitch. Amit a Smart one. I love how they speaks and the one line spatters between him and cuddy and the rest of the gang. They make conversation seemed like an Art. I love it. Gonna try to my best to give smart ass replies next time.

Then went over to Bukit Panjang for a dinner with my father, supposed to celebrate my birthday with him. We had Curry Fish Head for dinner and a few other dishes. Dinner was good though I did not have much appetite. We then went over to Bukit Panjang Plaza and my father bought me a phone for my birthday. It was a F200 Samsung MP3 phone without a camera which is perfect for my army days.

Presents so far...: A Levi Shirt, a Watch and a Phone. Freaking Not Bad! This is the first time I like receive so many things like before my birthday. =)

Came home, watch Flight of the Phoenix type the blog and looked for NBA updates. Orlando battling it out with Pistons current match at 1-3. Celtics playing the Cavaliers currently tied at 2-1. Lakers demolishing the Jazz currently at 2-0 or 3-0 cant remember and the San Antonio spurs against a mouth watering New Orleans Hornets. What a surprise for New Orleans. They held their own against the Champs. Amazing!

By the way... Go Celtics!

Praise God. Oh God... may you help me tomorrow night. I need it. Thank you. I leave things in your hands.

Day 76: I Survived Bioharzard level 300 with a Mask

2008-05-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

Woke up quite early today. Had to go to work helping someone pack and move their things. Its a Medicine hall located at Clarke Quay, took a cab there which cost $15 bucks. Pay was suppose to be $10 per hour for 8 hours. Lunch included. Done deal!

Came earlier then the starting time 10. Decided to try to walk and find the Sketches restaruant at Robertson Walk but just cant seemed to find it anywhere. Then gave up and proceeded to the Medicine Hall for my work. Started with packing things into box, helping the Uncle to paste and stick the box together. Then moved on to helping me to throw out all the useless old stuff from Decades ago. Then was lunch time which Uncle treat me to Char Chai Peng. Not bad larr....

Then after lunch it was rest for a bit then came the tough part. I had to clean containers after containers of Medicine stored 60 years ago piled with layers and layers of Dust such that silver fishes can be seen in the midst of all the dust and Spiders and Small insects are crawling about all over the places. I had to brush away the dust and use a tower and a pail of water to slowly wipe all the containers till they are clean. I think I must have moved through 50 Containers. I had to wear a mask to prevent contamination. Thank god my hands dun have cuts if not I would have gotten an Infection from all that dust confirm + chop.

Then he paid me the $80 bucks he promised and off I am. I was suppose to meet my mother, Dad and my brother. They wanted to bring me to a nice place to eat dinner and celebrate Mother's Day and My Birthday together. But before doing that I decided to really check out where Sketches is so that I wont get lost on Monday. Thank God I did because I Spent one hour and 15 mins walking around before I find that place. Unbelivable.

That place looks quite cool. Got a card from them.

Then off in a cab I was to Junction 8 for dinner. There this Long Queue Dim Sum restaruant at the basement at the new block. It was LONG QUEUE de lorrr!!! When we reached the place the waiting number was 160 and we were like 194. Got 30 more seats in front of us!

But it was an unbelivable dinner. The food was great and I had a great time eating the stuff there. The Xiao Long Bao was Shiok de! First time I actually tasted the soup in the Xiao Long Bao and it was amazing! And we had many other delicious food there too. The dinner amounted to over $100 for 4 person which I think is quite reasonable. Now one more thing to add to my arsenal of good places to eat!

Before dinner we bought mom two carnations and a small box of Dark Almond Chocolates. It is a modest gift but the look on her face was priceless. We know she loves us and God Bless Her!

Great Dinner, Cash in my pockets, a date on my birthday, a Good job and a great Future. What more can I ask for? Thank you God for all the things that you have bestowed upon me. I love you. I place my Life in your hands. Thank you for dying on the cross so that we will be cleared of sins and be righteous. You are my great God.

All praise to you and you alone.

Day 75: Im not Alone. Love ya people!!

2008-05-09T10:55:00.000-07:00

Woke up early today... Was slightly late, manage to hit my target for both list I was doing. One list was Australia, One was India. Forgot to add in Time sheet though. We ate Lunch at the foodcourt at Vivocity. Me and Bernie ate Thai Food. She didnt believe that the stall auntie was thai so i made a bet with her. Turns out i was right so... She had to make Milo for me in the afternoon. And she made me speak whatever little Thai I know to that Auntie.

So turns out that it was the 2nd time in her life she made Milo for someone. Both times it was me! Hoho... And it sucks. She added whatever she could find into that Milo, Coffee, Tea, Milo powder and all the sweet stuff. She probably did that on Purpose. The Milo Sucks cause it was so sweet... But seriously man, I drank e whole thing Praise God! She Doesnt give a shit though. pRobablY.

Then it was 5 and we decided to order Golden Pillow to eat since none of the people in the Office has tried it before. It was something new and I thought it would be nice to let them try something fresh and different. We ordered at 5.30 and the food only came at 7.30. Most people stayed pass that time including Bernie and Theresa. We had a great time eating. Those people also had a small party thingy for me... They bought me a Bakerzin cake and two gifts. One was a Levi Shirt, I kinda like it and the other was a watch which was just as well, maybe its gods way of saying that I should stop wearing the one I got together with Eugenia just before we broke up. Dinner was awesome and the company was really really great.

Then I went out with the Loser Gang. It was freaking Awesome outing, Its great catching up with the rest of the guys. Talkin to Zhao, Eric, Shawn, Sam Kuang and Loo. Catching up on their lives and latest squeeze, talking about their work and pay and the latest gossip and movies and disturbing news. Felt like old days again.

Then watch Iron Man. Totally COOL show.

Then came home. Going out with Bernie on Monday night to Robertson Quay Sketches to have dinner. Maybe I bring her along to all the nice places I've been meaning to try before she leaves the country.

And I came home to find brother helping me with my work... Oh how touched and blessed I felt.

Oh God! How great you have blessed my Life.

I put my life in your hands. Thank you for all the Angels you sent me.

Day 73, Day 74: Tired... But Do I have a Date? Hmm...

2008-05-08T09:33:00.000-07:00

Woke up early and was not late for the past two days. I stayed back at the office late, till 8.45 on Wednesday and till 10 on Thursday. I want to earn more money because there are some things I want to do.

I want to go travel before National Service. I want to get a good gift which I already have in mind for a dear friend who is going to Australia to study next month. I want to hit my personal Target of 2K Cash pay. I want to be the best person. But you know what? I place all these in God's hand. He has made all things possible and effortless for me. I love him and all that he has done for me. With him around, all things are possible.

Do I love God? Yes I do. As Christ is so are all the other people I know. Since I love God and as God is, so are the others, I love them too. Do I Love Bernie? Oh yes I do. Do I Love Eugenia, of course. Do I Love Sarah Michelle Gellar Hell yea! Do I love all my friends and family and dog and all the lovely people that are beside me encouraging and spurring me on, all those angels whom God sent to keep me going and to make me realize that Eugenia isnt everything. Oh yes I love you all. I love my Brother. You people dunno what a stable emotional support he has been for me.

All praise to God. Oh yea... I asked Bernie out for Dinner on Monday and she agreed. Not that I am like interested in her, just find her great company. I dun mind her friends coming too. They're great people... =) Now now where shall I bring her?? Alcave Mansion or Sketches or Dempsey Hill PS Cafe or Sky Dining or Old Vienna or... Anyone reading this Blog... Where should I bring her? Hee hee...

Day 72: God sent me a Human MP3

2008-05-06T08:17:00.000-07:00

Woke up early, was not late... Blah blah blah

Hit my target for the day because I was given such a simple list to work on. Praise God!

Came home from work. Obviously God knows that my MP4 has no more batt. On the way home on the train there was this Indian man singing some Tamil song loudly in the train. It may be stupid for him to do that but I think it certainly brought much smiles and laughter to the others in the train. His singing sucks but at least there was some entertainment right? Thanks Father for the entertainment!

God Bless my Tomorrow. All praise to him! =)

Day 71: Back to Work

2008-05-05T07:29:00.000-07:00

Woke up today and things were as usual. Went to work and was not late. Called and call and manage to hit my target by 6pm. Then stayed till 8pm to work somemore and earn extra pay. Came home, bathe and rested.

I feel my interest for medicine coming back slowly. From watching House to thinking about how to cure sickness and disease, I am slowly rekindling my fire for Medicine. From Marfan Syndrome to Heart Mumurs to stomach pain. Bring it on.

I want to be a Doctor. And I want to be Rich and Drives and Smart. I know God, my father in heaven will make it happen. =)

Praise God!

Day 69, Day 70: Oh Yes, I Confirmed I have Definitly Gotten Over You.

2008-05-04T07:44:00.000-07:00

Woke up on Sat feeling funny. Got some Newspaper cut, stick to House MD the rest of the day, Played basketball at night.

Woke up today early at 9.45am. Woke up had breakfast and went to the House of the Lord. Today in the Church was a blessed pastor which came all the way from Adelaide Australia to preach with us. He is Pastor Ashley Evans and OH what a sermon he preach and what words he reveal and how powerful those words were. I am now ready to Break through in Jesus name.

He mentioned about Authority and Intimidation. Those were powerful words. The First part was about Authority and how when Jesus died on the cross, we were given all the Authority to rule and that with Authority, we can influence people, our close friends, our enemies and even strangers. What sets Jesus apart was his Authority. When he spoked he exudes Authority. Not only is he the Authority, he can give authority like he gave to his disciples when he wanted them to spread the message of God and heal people. As he can give to others so did he give to you when he died on the cross to rid us of our sins such that we are righteous in God's eye and we are nearer to him and such that we have his Authority to break through not only what the devil has for us but for our own lifes too.

Then he spoke about embracing this Authority and how the devil works to banish this Authority from you. There are two ways he can do it. He can make your Authority appear less then it is or make you believe that there is no Authority at all. He spoke about how Initimidation often results in Compromise. He mentioned something about the people in the Bible when One King is going to take over a city and the people cowered and forced into the corner said to let them go and they shall be his Servants and with which he said that if they are willing to give him their Right eye then he will spare their lives. Thats compromise. But they know now that as they give their right eyes, they are not able to attack and strike out for themselves because people back them use their left shield to protect their cover their head (Including left eye) and use their right swords to lash out. So when they lost their right eye they are left with no more vision to hit back at the enemy. Not only that they also lost their ability to defend. Why is that since they are still able to hold up their shield. Because they can see what they are defending with. They have to lower their shield to see the enemy and that is why the enemy had an opportunity to strike out and hit them little by little.

There is also something Significant with the right eye, that is the ability to judge time, speed and distance. If you lose an eye, your ability to judge these things are affecting. Same thing when you lose your visions, you lose God's timing and things and wonders for you. This is how important your eye is and how it can help to see and identify God's timing for you.

Well well... Im getting excited typing all these... Then he spoke about how the devil can make you believe that you have no authority or you have no rights to take these authority and break through in your life. He gave a simple metaphor.

There was once a man that was taking a walk in a forest. There was tents put up and little children running around and a campfire right in the middle. He then noticed a huge elephant with chains held onto a small log. He was mad, this was dangerous. This Elephant could easily break the chains and trample around killing everyone. He approached the master of the beast and confronted him. The master said "No way he wont do that. I have chained him to that log since he was a baby and when he was little, he tried hard to break the log but failed everytime. Now, he no longers tries to get away and thats how Im certain he wont break the chains."

This analogy is like us. When we were just starting out, we didnt have Christ in our lives. We were little and we tried all ways by our own efforts to break free and hit breakthroughs. When we believed in Christ, though we have inherited his goodness, though we have inherited his power and his will and his words, we still are held onto the chains of the past. We are the grown Elephants my beloved, we can breakthrough and Jesus gave us the power to do so two thousands years ago when he died for our sins.

Thank you so Much God. All praise to you.

NBA Playoffs 1st round:

Atlanta forced a Game 7 at the Celtics. (3-3)
Magics Trashed the Raptors. (4-1)
Suns Lost Terrible to the Spures (1-4)
Detroits beat the 76ers (4-2)
Cavaliers beat the Wizards (4-2)
Jazz knocked out the Rockets (4-2)
The Nuggets got Swept by the Lakers (0-4)
Hornets beat the Mavericks (4-1)

I predicted: Celtics, Magic, Suns, Detroits, Cavaliers, Jazz, Nuggets and Hornets to the next round. (Correct prediction are the ones in Red, Celtics in Game 7 with Atlanta)

Go Celtics!

Day 67, Day 68: Basketball. I Love this Game

2008-05-02T11:29:00.001-07:00

Nothing much over the weekend... Mainly three things I did.

1: Basketball
2: House MD
3: Work from Office.

I just love the game of Basketball. Why do I like this Game so much? You know why? Cause in the Game of Basketball, Skills matters but that aint much. How well you control the ball matters but that aint much. How accurate you are with your shot matters too but that aint much either. In the game of Basketball, he who wants it most gets it. If you lose, it simply means you dun wan to win it as badly as the other party. Thats it. Thats the Game of Basketball and it makes sense. You want it, you get it. On the other hand, no matter how hard you want a person, the person is still not yours if you dun win her heart. Even if you tried your best.

Why do I love this game? Cause its Physical. Its not about individual, its about teamwork. Its about cooperation and understanding between people. Its about working together and each time it succeeds, you ask yourself why things like that never happens in real life. Its about hardwork and when I put in the efforts and reap in the rewards, nothing else matters. When you are on that court, facing the other guy one on one with no one else to help you and give you aid, you forget about pain and fatigue, you forget all about your weakness and tiredness, you forget about your abilities, you forget about how great a foe you got, YOU ONLY WANT TO GET PASS AND BEAT THE GUY IN FRONT OF YOU. Total Concentration.

Why it feels so good? Because it lets me forget about my personal life. I forgot about Eugenia and our breakup. I forgot all the pain Im feeling. Even if I do, I am channeling all my furastration and helplessness into strength to beat the other guy. You forget about the game where you played badly, you forget about the miserable life you are living or the boring afternoon spent at home. You forget about the part where Eugenia tells you... I Just dun love you Anymore. You forget about that last hug with her in the room, the kind of hug where you know its the last one with her again. You forget about going to her place and taking back your clothes. You forget about how adorable she looks wearing your shirt, wearing your basketball pants. You forget about all the good times you have for 3 YEARS which makes the breakup so hard to take. You forget about your hopes for the Future. You forget about trying to win her back. You forget about her being with another guy. WITH TWO OTHER GUYS after you broke. You Forget that she found another guy 1 week after you broke off. You forget that she never regrets a decision she makes. You forget about all the pains and criticisms that you have received having a girlfriend that is two years older. YOU FORGET THAT YOU LOVE EUGENIA MORE THEN ANYTHING ELSE IN THIS WORLD AND SHE DUN LOVE YOU ANYMORE.

You have no time to self doubt. You know that each time you doubt yourself would be a huge mistake and you lose a point. You have no time to hesitate. You know that each time you hesitate would be one chance for the opponent to give you added pressure. You got no time to think of mistakes. You know that each mistakes you make could be your last and cost you the game. You have no time to think of lost. Thats because you know that each though of lost brings you deeper into depression and you know that Depression is what comes after the game and you dun want that kind of depression and YOU BETTER MAKE SURE YOU GIVE IN YOUR ALL AND EVEYTHING SO THAT YOU DUN LOSE THE GAME LIKE YOU LOST THE GIRL OF YOUR LIFE.

Total Bliss.

That's why I love this Game.

Day 66: PayCheck

2008-04-30T09:37:00.000-07:00

Woke up, went to work, got there 10 mins early, had a nice chat with Bernie and everything was just great. She is such great company for me.

But why do I have no feelings for her? My feelings for her are normal. I feel that she is a great girl with an awesome personality and looks really cute. I thought that she was the most decent girl in Rp the moment I saw her when I was still studying at Republic Poly, but somehow, the feeling of me to her is nothing like that of me to Eugenia. I do think that she makes really super duper great Company though.

Managed to hit my target today, I made sure of it. Got my paycheck. It was more then I expected. I got $1196. Gonna give 60 to my mom, 60 to my dad and 30 to my brother. Then going to treat the rest of the guys in my department to a meal, give some to God's Ministry, save the rest.

Got my NS letter today. Will be enlisting around July.

God bless all the people I know. Bless Eugenia and Ben, Bless my brother and Zhaoxin, Bless Bernie for being such wonderful company, Bless my mom, stepdad and Father may they have peace and smooths days ahead. Bless all my department friends, Bless all my Rp friends especially the Loser Gang! Bless my dearest and closest Sista Carolyn may she do well her in Job. Bless Serena with a good trip to Ipoh. Bless whoever is reading this blog today. Know that God loves you and he got a plan for you and he will run to you in the days of his Coming and you shall be saved!

Played basketball today. Feel quite tired though the exercise was good for me.

This were my prediction for the NBA playoffs First round Matchup (Ones in Red are Accurate predictions):

Celtics to sweep the Hawks in 5 games 4-1
Magic to bring down the Raptors in 7 games4-3
Suns to edge the spurs 4-3
Pistons to win it 4-1 over 76ers
Calivers to clinch it over the Wizards 4-2
Jazz to outclass the Rockets 4-1
Nuggets to win by the tiniest margin at the Lakers 4-3
And finally the Hornets to defeat the Mavericks 4-3.

This were the results After Thursday's Action:

Celtics lost to the Hawks 92-97 (2-2)
Magic won at the Raptors 102-92 (4-1)
Suns lost at the Spurs 87-92 (1-4)
76ers Lost at Detroits 81-98 (2-3)
Calivers Won at the Wizards 100-97 (3-1)
Jazz lost big at the Rockets 69-95 (3-2)
Nuggets got outclassed by the Lakers 101-107 (0-4)
Hornets won the Mavericks 99-94 (4-1)

Go NUGGETS and CELTICS!!!!

Day 65: Let the Book go and Bless Many

2008-04-29T08:08:00.000-07:00

Woke up today. Got to the MRT station 10 mins late but arrived 10 mins early. Amazing.

Bernie came to work on her own. I hope she becomes more independant and make more friends. It would Sucked for her to have only me as a friend in the Company so I try to as much as possible let her interact with the other guys by well... Staying a little further away from her of course. Shes a nice girl.

Oh God why do you so bless me. I only asked for a nice girl for Company and you sent not only a cute girl to company me in the office for the next 1 month, she got to be Single (Which I do not know all the way till yesterday only) and a Catholic (Who believes in Christ). What do you have for me next eh? Haha... I know its good. =)

I gave away Pastor's Prince Book Destined to Reign to a fellow friend. I have started reading the book and it has changed me so much I decided to give it to the person who needs it most and that was my Brother. I wrote a small message and stick a small envelope inside such that the next person may place his or her blessing on to the next person. My brother did the same and I hope that the next person and the next would do the same too. May the book go on to bless many and fall into the right Hands. God knows. All praise to Him.

I did not hit my target so had to stay back at the office till 8pm. Things were quite peaceful and I left with the target hit but had to sacrifice quite a bit of Sleep.

Cant wait for tomorrow. Wait for tomorrow for the NBA results. =)

Day 64: God blessed me with THE Great Company

2008-04-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

Woke up today... wore a shirt and jeans that kinda became the center of attention. Everyone ask me why I dress so nice today... Hmm...

I realized that God Bless me with Great Company today. I just cant believe the Grace of God. He always exceeds my expectation. Bernie officially started work today. She was awesome and the guys quickly took to her. I am very Glad that my friends likes her and the feeling was Mutual. From what I heard, she had a tough time for her last two jobs and she was feeling kinda apprehensive about the guys. Praise God that they got together along well.

My job was fun with her around. At least there's someone to talk with that shares something with me that extends more then just to my job. We spoke to each other everytime the boss is not around. Spoke about school, spoke about everything under the Sun. We even had lunch together. Halfway through lunch, she ask me if I thought she was together with Alan. I told her I thought she was together with Nicholas and she said that no, she was single. Praise God? Hee hee...

Thank you God for the Company. Made me so happy...

Came home and have even better company with my Brother. Spoke with him a little and as usual, he gave me good advice.

Took care of my Utopia account... Wrote on the blog... Lord bless me with even greater things and may I be a Blessing to Others like him unto me! Praise God!

This were my prediction for the NBA playoffs First round Matchup (Ones in Red are Accurate predictions):

Celtics to sweep the Hawks in 5 games 4-1
Magic to bring down the Raptors in 7 games4-3
Suns to edge the spurs 4-3
Pistons to win it 4-1 over 76ers
Calivers to clinch it over the Wizards 4-2
Jazz to outclass the Rockets 4-1
Nuggets to win by the tiniest margin at the Lakers 4-3
And finally the Hornets to defeat the Mavericks 4-3.

This were the results After Thursday's Action:

Celtics lost to the Hawks 93-102 (2-1)
Magic won at the Raptors 106-94 (3-1)
Suns Finally beat the Spurs 105-86 (1-3)
76ers Lost at Detroits 84-93 (2-2)
Calivers Won at the Wizards 100-97 (3-1)
Jazz won the Rockets 86-82 (3-1)
Nuggets got outclassed by the Lakers 84-102 (0-3)
Hornets won the Mavericks 97-84 (3-1)

Go NUGGETS and CELTICS!!!!

Day 62, Day 63: God Thank you for the Worship with Darlene!

2008-04-27T07:52:00.000-07:00

Woke up early Sat morning, went to training with the guys.

What we did: Run up 3 sets of a 25 storey HDB flat in a given time.
Failed that time so did 50 push up when we were done.
25 Team lay up Left and right
20 Team Jump Shot Left and Right
4 different kind of Team play run, 20 completed shot each.
4 different kind of a slightly more complicated Team play run.
Each ball that did not go in amounts to 3 push up to be done immediately.

Yea we were shacked. Came home catch some Taiwan drama and went downstairs for training 2nd round.

Did not perform quite as well but I think I still managed to put in a consistent performance in terms of shooting, team play and passing.

Went to eat with the guys. Hong Siong told me all about Wu Shu and the Praying Mantis Fist and how to use it. I was Amazed.

Woke up today at 7.30am. Took the MRT and guess who I saw when i stepped into the Church? I saw Darlene Zschech. She was our worship leader this Sunday! I cant believe it. She sang one of my favourite songs Shout to the Lord and I always see her on Youtube and it was just a great pleasant surprise to have her in our Church Praise God!

Pastor Prince gave a strong powerful message today. As usual his message of God fill me up with great pride at my father who can do all things. May he give a blessed week for all my friends, the church and all my family members. May they prosper and glorify God!

This were my prediction for the NBA playoffs First round Matchup (Ones in Red are Accurate predictions):

Celtics to sweep the Hawks in 5 games 4-1
Magic to bring down the Raptors in 7 games4-3
Suns to edge the spurs 4-3
Pistons to win it 4-1 over 76ers
Calivers to clinch it over the Wizards 4-2
Jazz to outclass the Rockets 4-1
Nuggets to win by the tiniest margin at the Lakers 4-3
And finally the Hornets to defeat the Mavericks 4-3.

This were the results After Thursday's Action:

Celtics lost to the Hawks 93-102 (2-1)
Magic won at the Raptors 106-94 (3-1)
Suns lost in to the Spurs 115-99 (0-3)
76ers beat Detroits 95-75 (2-1)
Calivers lost at the Wizards 72-108 (2-1)
Jazz won the Rockets 86-82 (3-1)
Nuggets got outclassed by the Lakers 84-102 (0-3)
Hornets lost to the Mavericks 97-87 (2-1)

Go NUGGETS and CELTICS!!!!

Day 61: Unstoppable in Jesus Name

2008-04-25T09:06:00.000-07:00

Woke up today went to work as usual, did not hit my target. I had to stay over for about an hour. Went and took the MRT with Angela and the Mom who works in the same company as us.

Well... went downstairs to play basketball again. I had a bit of doubt weather I can keep up my performance like last night but I forgot all about it once I started playing. I carried the team on my back, won points after points after points with my Great shooting. All praise to God for it!

Ok so its the 61st day. Here are some question to answer... :

Have you gotten over Eugenia?
No. I still miss her.

Would you want to get back with her and why?
No. I will be going to National Service soon. I wont have the time to give her the attention that she needs. I also think that she should enjoy her youth. Now should be the time of her life! Let her do what she likes, the Lord has a plan for me and its good.

If a New Nice Girl comes along, would you go for her?
No. But I would make good friends with her. Like I said, National Service is coming. Its no fair for the other party.

Who will you choose? Jesus or The Love of your life?
Jesus. He is the Unending Love of my life. Through him all Loves Comes. =)

Do you think it is possible to get back together with Eugenia again?
Do you know who my Father is? Anything is possible for him.

Alright... Timely reflections... Anyway... Read on. :P

This were my prediction for the NBA playoffs First round Matchup (Ones in Red are Accurate predictions):

Celtics to sweep the Hawks in 5 games 4-1
Magic to bring down the Raptors in 7 games4-3
Suns to edge the spurs 4-3
Pistons to win it 4-1 over 76ers
Calivers to clinch it over the Wizards 4-2
Jazz to outclass the Rockets 4-1
Nuggets to win by the tiniest margin at the Lakers 4-3
And finally the Hornets to defeat the Mavericks 4-3.

This were the results After Thursday's Action:

Celtics trashed Hawks 96-77 (2-0)
Magic Lost to the Raptors 94-108 (2-1)
Suns lost in to the Spurs 102-96 (0-2)
Detroits Kick the living Shit out of the 76ers 105-88 (1-1)
Calivers lost at the Wizards 72-108 (2-1)
Jazz lost to the Rockets 94-92 (2-1)
Nuggets got outclassed by the Lakers 107-122 (0-2)
Hornets defeated the Mavericks 127-103 (2-0)

Go NUGGETS and CELTICS!!!!

Day 60: There is a price for Redemption. And it has been Paid.

2008-04-24T05:46:00.000-07:00

Woke up today... Things went on as usual.

Manage to hit my target for the first 4 hours of work. However, because I had to call Turkey and Ukraine who dont speak a single bit of English, I was left to hit 4 hours of quota in 2 hours time. Meaning for that two hour, I had to hit 16 complete records per hour. I chase and chase that target and when there was still half an hour to go, I was down by 11 completed records. Miracle came when I got 8 Complete record in a Single call and 3 the following record which means I managed to still keep and maintain my quota. Praise God.

Spoke to Su Ann today. Turns out she took 31 minutes to run 5.6km in the Morgan Chase Corporate Run. Not Bad! Admirable!

The office staff gave Helen a present today. It was a very NICE tissue box, sixty over dollars with flowers and teddy bears. Hope she likes it.

Basketball yesterday was unbelivable. It was my best game so far. Praise God for those unstoppable Shots. Felt like an NBA star. :P

Anyway here are the NBA 1st round Matchup after Wednesday's Action.

This were my prediction for the NBA playoffs First round Matchup (Ones in Red are Accurate predictions):

Celtics to sweep the Hawks in 5 games 4-1
Magic to bring down the Raptors in 7 games4-3
Suns to edge the spurs 4-3
Pistons to win it 4-1 over 76ers
Calivers to clinch it over the Wizards 4-2
Jazz to outclass the Rockets 4-1
Nuggets to win by the tiniest margin at the Lakers 4-3
And finally the Hornets to defeat the Mavericks 4-3.

This were the results After Wednesday's Action:

Celtics trashed Hawks 96-77 (2-0)
Magic beat Raptors 104-103 (2-0)
Suns lost in to the Spurs 102-96 (0-2)
Detroits Kick the living Shit out of the 76ers 105-88 (1-1)
Calivers won at the Wizards 116-86 (2-0)
Jazz beat the Rockets 90-84 (2-0)
Nuggets got outclassed by the Lakers 107-122 (0-2)
Hornets defeated the Mavericks 127-103 (2-0)

Go NUGGETS and CELTICS!!!!

Day 59: Records broken. The work of the lord. =)

2008-04-23T04:37:00.000-07:00

Woke up today as usual to work...

Finshed all my work and broke my record for the most completed record over a day. I hit 12 complete records per hour for the first 3 hours and 9 completed record per hour for the next 5 hours. All praise to God.

Came home, preparing to get some workout by playing Basketball.

Anyway here are the NBA 2nd round after Tuesday Action.

This were my prediction for the NBA playoffs First round Matchup (Ones in Red are Accurate predictions):

Celtics to sweep the Hawks in 5 games 4-1
Magic to bring down the Raptors in 7 games
4-3Suns to edge the spurs 4-3
Pistons to win it 4-1 over 76ers
Calivers to clinch it over the Wizards 4-2
Jazz to outclass the Rockets 4-1
Nuggets to win by the tiniest margin at the Lakers 4-3
And finally the Hornets to defeat the Mavericks 4-3.

This were the results After Tuesday's Action:

Celtics trashed Hawks 104-81 (1-0)
Magic beat Raptors 104-103 (2-0)
Suns lost in to the Spurs 102-96 (0-2)
Detroits lose to 76ers 90-86 (0-1)
Calivers won at the Wizards 116-86 (2-0)
Jazz beat the Rockets 90-84 (2-0)
Nuggets got outclassed by the Lakers 128-114 (0-1)
Hornets defeated the Mavericks 127-103 (2-0)

Go NUGGETS and CELTICS!!!!

Day 58: Keep Moving

2008-04-22T04:41:00.000-07:00

Woke up today at 7.10a.m. Bathe, when to work and was just on time. Made calls into Hong Kong... The people there was really rude, cant blame them look at their Hectic Schedule! Did not have any problem with work today. Manage to hit the target quite easily.

Left immediate when the clock struck 6pm. Came home, Did my stuff online and going to start on the work I brought back from home.

Thank the Lord for the smooth day. He seemed to have healed me in the night while I slept. I felt much better today. Anyway... Following up on NBA!

This were my prediction for the NBA playoffs First round Matchup (Ones in Red are Accurate predictions):

Celtics to sweep the Hawks in 5 games 4-1
Magic to bring down the Raptors in 7 games 4-3
Suns to edge the spurs 4-3
Pistons to win it 4-1 over 76ers
Calivers to clinch it over the Wizards 4-2
Jazz to outclass the Rockets 4-1
Nuggets to win by the tiniest margin at the Lakers 4-3
And finally the Hornets to defeat the Mavericks 4-3.

This were the results After Monday's Action:

Celtics trashed Hawks 104-81 (1-0)
Magic beat Raptors 114-100 (1-0)
Suns lost in double overtime to the Spurs 117-115 (0-1)
Detroits lose to 76ers 90-86 (0-1)
Calivers won at the Wizards 116-86 (2-0)
Jazz beat the Rockets 90-84 (2-0)
Nuggets got outclassed by the Lakers 128-114 (0-1)
Hornets defeated the Mavericks 104-92 (1-0)

Go NUGGETS and CELTICS!!!!

Day 57: I am healed by his Stripes

2008-04-21T05:57:00.000-07:00

Woke up today and reached office slightly earlier then usual. Woke up feeling slightly sick but I kept telling myself that I am not sick and I shall not condemn myself to this sickness that the Devil cannot touch me and my faith is in the Lord to heal me and give me strength and to restore my health.

Went to office, Bernie came to the office for an interview today. Gave her some advice last night and praise God she passed the interview with flying colors today. Angela told me that she was very Good for the first interview and that she can start anytime. The rest of the guys told me she is one cute chick. Well... Course she is! My friend leh! Siao siao! =)

Came home and had agood dinner with brother. We ate chicken curry and the most delicious fish. Mom had cooking classes so she left early.

Going to rest early today. May the lord shower his healing and blessing on me while I sleep.

All praise to God.

This were my prediction for the NBA playoffs First round Matchup (Ones in Red are Accurate predictions):

Celtics to sweep the Hawks in 5 games 4-1
Magic to bring down the Raptors in 7 games 4-3
Suns to edge the spurs 4-3
Pistons to win it 4-1 over 76ers
Calivers to clinch it 4-2
Jazz to outclass the Rockets 4-1
Nuggets to win by the tiniest margin at the Lakers 4-3
And finally the Hornets to defeat the Mavericks 4-3.

This were the results of the first game:
Celtics trashed Hawks 104-81 (1-0)
Magic beat Raptors 114-100 (1-0)
Suns lost in double overtime to the Spurs 117-115 (0-1)
Detroits lose to 76ers 90-86 (0-1)
Calivers won at the Wizards 93-86 (1-0)
Jazz beat the Rockets 93-82 (1-0)
Nuggets got outclassed by the Lakers 128-114 (0-1)
Hornets defeated the Mavericks 104-92 (1-0)

Go NUGGETS and CELTICS!!!!

Day 56: The Lord works by Seedtime and Harvest

2008-04-20T07:59:00.000-07:00

Woke up early in the morning today. Physically my body was very weak and wanted that rest. I had a game of basketball the night before and I was drained and devoided of energy. Mentally though I was just Hungry. :P I had no problem waking up, taking a bath and taking the Train to my beloved New Creation Church to hear what the Father has to say to me through Pastor Joseph Prince.

I did not attend Church service the week before, hence I did not know that they gave everyone a letter. This letter is some sort of a donation, named the Miracle Seed. The money given will be used to build One North, our New Church near Buona Vista MRT. For those of you who does not know this... One North = House of my Father! =)

Pastor Prince spoke to us today about how the Father works in our life. He works by Seedtime and Harvest. We sow a Seed today, we receive a Harvest by him. He told us that His Harvest is plentiful and full of riches and we are his Heir. Whatever we give to our father in Heaven, he will bless us back, restores us back in greater abundance then before. We will end up in better conditions then before. There are many ways to give to the Father. We can serve him in the Church Ministries, we can offer him Gold and Silver if we are of a willing heart. We can Offer him ourselves, our souls and our life to him and he will take them. In whichever ways we give to him, he will restores it back to us as to what we gave him and remember... In Greater Abundance. If we offer him our Gold, he will restores the Gold to us. If we offer him our youths by serving, he will renew our youths like the Eagles! Give him your Mirror girls, and he will take care of your face, your Body. Isnt Our God Great?!

Think about how the father runs towards the Us, Sinners and embrace us and shower us with his grace that we may be made Righteous. Now think about how the father will run towards his own Son. His Beloved. Know that As Chirst is, So are we!

In the Bible whenever God restores, he always restores in abundace. When he had to feed a crowd, he not only fills them, but there will still be seven Basketful of food at the end. When he helps his disciples to Fish, the Net broke and almost sink because of the Great Harvest.

Well I did not have that Miracle Seed letter, but I just felt that I have to give today. I requested a letter from one of the leaders and went to a nearby ATM to withdraw some Money. I gave ALL that I can give. I didnt felt like its a pity or a waste. In fact, I thank God for giving me this Opportunity to give to him, to aid in building One North, for giving me the Chance to Sow my Seed such that I may receive in Greater Abundance.

I went home, spend some time with my father, watched The Passion of Christ the Movie and listened to Pastor Prince CD on the DVD player. Then went back home. As I have a bit of runny nose all the way throughout the day, kept sneezing... I made a prayer to God as I bathe. I told him that may the Water from the hose be like his waterfall of blessing, cleasing me, clearing away all my sickness, disease and health, all my condemnation and accusation, all my sins and wrong doing. Let me be clean and be Glorious to other such that I may reflect the Glory of God unto them.

Then I got a revelation! Haha... It was amazing, just came to my head. The idea initially manifested as a Contradiction. Firstly I heard from Pastor's CD that our God is the God of the NOW. He told us that as Jesus was crucified, there were two theives by his Side. So that we may not be robbed left and right. Hee hee... And he told us that one thieve was plauge by his Past, his Accusation and condemnation has run deep that he did not receive and believe Christ as his Savior. One thieve told him something like this "Lord, remember me when you step into your Kingdom" and the Lord says to him. "Amen, for today you shall be with me in Paradise." The thieve was the thieve of the future but our God is God of the Now. No need to wait till I step into the Kingdom. You shall be with me in Paradise Now! Today! Isnt it wonderful...

Then again Now and Seedtime and harvest does not actually go hand in hand. Seedtime and Harvest seems to indicate some sort of time difference, that after you sow then you get the harvest other some time. But our God is the God of the Now! So my revelation came like this...

Then I remembered the verses in the bible which says something like... "For his harvest shall be so bountiful that the Sower shall meet the Reaper." Yes! His riches for us shall be in such great abundance that once you sow, you shall Reap! You dun have to wait. Yes it is true! Our God is the God of the Now and the great thing is he also works by Seedtime and Harvest which means that if your willing to give, he is also willing to give you back in greater Abundance and in Immediate effect! The God of the Now.

Also, our God is outside time. He is the one who created Time. He is outside time. He controls time. Seedtime and Harvest might indicate some sort of time difference to Us but not to Him. He is the Good, The true and Living God and if he wants things done Now, time cant stop him can it? Oh yes... Hallelujah! Praise the Lord.

Oh those of you who say... Why do you expect your father to give to me? Who am I? Am I worthy? Oh I say to you that Yes I am worthy for I have accepted Christ into my life and my all my sins are past away and I am a New Creation and not only am I a New Creation, As Christ is so am I in this world and I am deserving of what my father gives to me by his Grace! Amen! By the way try telling this to a farmer... "Eh... I know why you sow your seed ah.... You expect Harvest right? How dare you..." :P

Well Father please bless everyone around me. Bless Eugenia and Ben may they have a happy relationship together. Bless my brother and Zhao Xin may their Love be everlasting. Father Bless my parents and my friends and my beloved Scratch. May they see your glory and come onto you. May you shower them with Love and tender mercy. We'll never know how much it cost to see our sins up on that cross father but one thing can be for sure, when Jesus accomplished his Finished work, our sins past present and future are all gone. When Jesus took his seat on the right hand of God, we are given the power to reign a live without fear, without condemnation and accusation and without the oppresion of the Devil. When Jesus sealed the New Covenant with his own Blood, we are all given the opportunity to live a life in the Grace of Jesus Christ that we may not be bound by the Law for the Strength of Sin is the Law but by Truth and Grace which can and Only come by Jesus Christ.

Father bless me with a great week ahead. I look forward to Reaping my harvest! =) All praise to you Father!

*Im so gonna have a great week.

Day 55: Was Blind but now I see

2008-04-19T09:43:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 1.30pm today. Had a little lunch and sat at my desk working on my list which I brought home to work. It'll earn me about 30 bucks. Spoke to Bernie and told her about the details for work. Spoke to Sophia who asked me questions about how to work on professional profiling, went through my Utopia and took care of my province, waiting for evening to work out by playing basketball.

Cant wait for Sunday. To go to the House of the Lord and hear his message for me.

Came home, had a good dinner and went online. Caught all the previews for NBA playoffs Highlights. My predictions are this... Celtics to sweep the Hawks in 5 games, Magic to bring down the Raptors in 7 games, Suns to edge the spurs 4-3, Pistons to win it 4-1, Calivers to clinch it 4-2, Jazz to outclass the Rockets 4-1, Nuggets to win by the tiniest margin at the Lakers 4-3 and finally the Hornets to defeat the Mavericks 4-3. =)

God bless me with a good night sleep. I may only catch about 6 hours of sleep but my believe is that even an hour sleep in the presence of the Lord my father will fill me all the energy I need for the rest of the day. Jesus I put my life in your Hand. May your grace consume me and Bring me a Life of Glory in your name.

All praise to God.

Day 54: All Praise to God and He Alone. =)

2008-04-18T09:27:00.000-07:00

Ok so I just found out that my April 6 Blog entry won an award for Best Christian blog of the week. Check out this Website.

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Here is that entry...

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Day 42: Good things happen when you are in Christ

Woke up at around 7 today. Felt quite good. Took my time to get out of bed and did not feel as tired as the day before. Grab two bread and got on my way to The Rock Auditorium, The house of the Lord, My heart beat with excitement and hugry for the Word.

Reach there at 8.40a.m. The place was already packed. Had a little chat with the lady outside the Auditorium and she mentioned that the place is already packed even at 6.30a.m in the morning. I do not know if she is exaggerating but I'll try to make it earlier in the future.

The word was great. Coming to the house of the Lord, of the Church of Grace filled my empty heart and body with energy and longing. Longing for the Lord. Longing to see the Lord. Pastor spoke today about remembering the Mountain and the Valley and that at the end of the day, when the cloud of God and goodness has lifted, the voice has become silenced and the Light has become dimmer, Jesus is still standing beside us. Just Jesus alone, Not Moses or Elijah though they were great men of God. But it is Jesus.

No relationship can work without Jesus at the center of it. To all you blessed souls out there taking the time out to read this blog, whom are deeply in love with your partner, I have this to say. Do not try, I repeat do not try to make your other partner satisfy ONLY WHAT GOD CAN DO FOR YOU.

A relationship cannot work without Jesus at the center. Jesus is the Superglue Amen!? Good things happen when you are in christ. I went home and hang out a bit with my brother when I receive a call from my Beloved Eugenia. Its been a while since I heard her voice but her voice filled my heart with happiness. I just cannot believe that she called me up and chat. The feeling I felt then was just incredible.

We spoke about what happen in our lives lately, I heard about her and Maverick. I was right, they were an Item and God bless them. She told me about their problems and their Fights and how there are other guys also having a liking for Her. I mean... Of course they have a liking for her! Are you kidding. She is so Adorable and Cute! There is no one like her. She is a bubbly cup of Goodness! She is Sarah in the bible. She is a Daughter of God. She is perfection for as Jesus is, so is she in this world. Why is she Surprise everyone loves her? I think those who do not find her special is blinded. Hee hee...

She told me she did not feel needed. Baby in the future if you do not feel needed. Come talk to me. I need you. =)

She told me she wanted to visit the church. Amen to that! It shows that the hunger to know God, to Love God is still there! Oh yes! Its not gone. The devil has not has the Opportunity to work his disease, his oppression, his condemnation and his accusation on her. Why? Because she is a believer and she is the righteousness of God through Christ. Nothing can touch her. She will reap the bountiful resources of the lord and be shone on with the brillance of Christ. Turn her at all angle and she will be perfect, just like Jesus.

Oh yes. All praise to the Lord. Jesus I live for you. Let my actions be your glory. Your love for me is undying, never ending. I know now that at the center of every relationship, there must be You. You are Holy Just and Good My lord. You are the high priest that will reign forever in my heart.

All Praise to the Lord!

End of Blog Entry.

Well... first of all when I started this blog, it was never my intention to make it a Christian Blog. Its just that at the end of the breakup with Eugenia, Suddenly at my lowest, when I needed answers, The word of God came and impacted me beyond believe. It was the Brilliance of Christ and his glory, washing over me and filling me with pride. So much pride that I have to share it with others. We are all God's Beloved and may each of us be a blessing to every one else. As he is so Am I in this world. Is Jesus a great savior to us? Is he a great blessing to us and to others? Has he been a good God, a good leader, a good high priest to us? Is he Holy, just and Good? AS HE IS, SO AM I IN THIS WORLD! Hallelujah!

This entry was never read by Eugenia though. Thats alright. I know that it is all within God's plan and that his plan for me is filled with THE GREAT! Our father in Heaven loves us so much that he gave his only son so that our sins are washed, such that we may be cleansed. If he loves us this much, why would he gives suffering and hunger and sickness to us? Why would he have a path of desolation and condemnation for us? No he wont. His plan for us is Rich and prosperous. He has a great plan for us. We will have the most riches, the most beautiful and devoted lover, the most loyal friends and the best things in life. If your down, know that whatever God restores, he always restores in greater Abundance! 7 times more! Receive Christ and know that as you receive him, you are Destined to reign, to live a life without fear, without depression and accusation. Knowing that the Devil has no power over you.

Oh praise God for all he has done. I give up O Abba. I give up my life to you. I know that I will not be able to achieve great things on my own father. Only with you and only through you can I receive all the Goodness and blessings. Only through you am I able to live my life the way YOU planned it. Only with you with me in the Valley O father may I be Destined to Reign. Father I love you. Bless Eugenia and Ben her new squeeze, may you show them that Jesus finished work is the only superglue in any relationship. Bless all my friends with a smooth day tomorrow, may they be a blessings unto others. Father heal my body. Restore it back 7 times and renew my youth such that I may be like the Eagles. Bless all my loved ones and all your beloved. Bless Scratch with endless happiness. O father how I missed him, hugging him, playing with him and just sitting down watching TV with him resting by my sides, stroking his fur and kissing his Forehead. Oh father you must bless him with all the Goodness and may Eugenia love for Scratch be everlasting just like Jesus love is for us. Bless my brother and his Girlfriend. May their love be forever and father bless me with a Companion, someone to share your wonderful works with, someone I can spend my time and my life with, Somone who will love me as much as they love you father. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Day 53: Praises and Worship

2008-04-17T06:45:00.000-07:00

Woke up at around 7 today, the train was mad but god bless me, I was not late.

Came in, set my target and began working towards it. Before the end of the day, my target was set and done. Remember coming out of the toilet and spoke with Su Ann a little, also greeted Christine, this sweet wonderful women with a swear word. Its a little thing we share between the two of us. :P

Came home, rested and spend a bit of time online. God bless my tomorrow.

"The value of a dollar is just a dollar when you have a lot of money but the value of a dollar becomes more than a dollar when you are left with just that dollar =) " - Steven Lim Chee Yong My dear Brother.

Day 52: I see Grace - *In the Har Gao

2008-04-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

Woke up early in the morning... Ate breakfast and left the house. Reached the Mrt station at 8 and I cant believe I was late for 10 mins for work. There were so many people at that timing that I actually missed 3 trains. -_-' SMRT AH!!! WHAT YOU DOING!!!

Came to work, started calling all the countries. It was quite fun and I enjoy what I was doing. During the day, Helen the boss called our department from the pantry because one of the staff has brought back a huge bag full of har gao *Prawn Dumpling and our department KOP it before anyone sees it. Woot we had a Mouthful!

Before Lunch I did not manage to hit my target by a mile. And I realised that I cannot stay late after work because of the basketball game so I put in more effort. By Gods Grace and only by his grace was I able to hit my target at the end of the day. Praise the Lord!

Came back home, play basketball. I was off form today so I concentrated on my basics, link up and team play. Did pretty well with Hong Siong. I only need to create that bit of space for him to get us the points.

Came back home. Target is to sleep by 11. Cya Tomorrow! =)

Day 51: Trust in the Lord

2008-04-15T06:32:00.000-07:00

Woke up today. WAS not late for work. Had a good breakfast.

Came to the office everything was as usual, I finished up 9/10 of my work and took a new list which was fun. There are more then 70 countries on that list. Called Norway today. Reaffirmed that Norway people are very nice people. I'm gonna visit that wonderful place one day.

Ate Char Chai Peng today. Rafphael was too tired so he rested while I da bao back for him. He told me he was heavy laden with stress and that Angela was angry with him for making many mistakes at work. I let him hear the Song Give Thanks and after lunch, Angela talked to him and everything became like old times again. Hallelujah good things happen when one is in Christ!

Came back home, ate a wonderful dinner... Codfish was delicious...

Managed my Utopia account... Going to sleep early. Brother having a test tomorrow. God bless him!

All PrAise to God. I remember that he will restore my life 7 times better. I put my Trust in HIM.

Day 50: God will restore 7 fold more Quality!

2008-04-14T06:08:00.000-07:00

Woke up today, feeling very shack and unmotivated. Ate some fruits and milk mixed together. Prayed over food and felt very down.

Walked to the Bukit Gombak MRT and started listening to worship song. The song right there was Mighty to Save! And as I walk and listen, singing along with the Music, I started praying silently to myself. I said "Oh God... Im am tired lord, physically and emotionally. Father fill me with energy and mental health and make me well just like Jesus! FAther shower me with favours and tender mercies and bless me with all the goodness in your Kingdom. As he is so Am I. Is jesus Tired? Is jesus sick? NO! He is brilliant from all angles! As he is so am I in this world. As I began to think about this more and more, I started feeling more and more energentic.

Came home, had a good dinner and listen to Pastor Prince service CD. What inspiration at the word of God.

God bless me with a good day tomorrow! Fill me with Goodness!

Day 48, Day 49: Weekend weekend

2008-04-13T08:40:00.000-07:00

Got the opportunity to wake up late this weekend. Played an amazing game of basketball at Ngee Ann poly on Sat and went to eat with the rest of the guys at bukit Panjang. Met one of the ex-dunearnite, this Cute girl call Celine whom I have seen before in school when I was still studying there. She is now the girlfriend of one of my basketball buddy, Xiao Hei. God bless him.

Play badminton with my father and brother today. Not that great a workout but my body is exhausted with the basketball the day before. Then we ate a bit of Durian, I gave father some money and we watch Death note earlier in the Afternoon, rented the show. In the Evening, we caught Death Note 2 and it was quite a nice show. Got me thinking. L rocks.

Did not go to Church today. We went to clean the grave of my grandmother instead. When I was holding the I prayed to God. I missed his presence and I'll be sure to go and hear his message next week!

All praise to God whom has given me new live.

Its the new and living way! =)

Day 47: God Bless Tern Poh with a Smooth Operation PLEASE!!!!

2008-04-11T10:11:00.000-07:00

Woke up, was not late as usual.

Heard from my friend that another Dear friend of mine, Tern Poh is going to have a Jaw Operations within the next few day. It is impairing his Speech and he had got to get the problem Solved. God bless him with a smooth Operation. When God works his Magic, he restores 10 fold back and Im sure and positive that at the end of the Operation, We will see a more confident Tern Poh.

Met Sam Loo before work starts, brought him to the office and introduced him to the other Temps and some of the people in the office. Then he saw Eileen and Audrey and he was assigned work. I think he did ok, yet he still insisted on bringing some back home to do. -_-'

Ate Saeki Sushi with the rest of the office guys. Beng Siong and Rapfael was there along with Serena, Angela, Alex, Felicia and Sam Loo. The Chawanmushi and the Wasabi were fantastic! I ate much Wasabi... They are Great!

Finished work, came back and spoke about jamming on the train home with Sam. He plays the Organ (Keyboard).

Ah well... we still need a Guitarist!

Played a great game of basketball. Tired but fun. Praise Lord.

Day 46: Planetshakers

2008-04-10T09:48:00.000-07:00

Woke up at around 7 plus today. Washed up and left the house with new songs of Worship I downloaded the night before. Praise lOrd! Was not late as usual.

Went to the office and did Data Entry till 4. Then from 4 Onwards I started calling Europe. Praise God calling others is really fun and it really builds communication skills.

Had Lasi Lemak today. Not too bad, value for money!

After work met Eugenia at the Harbourfront MRT, left work immediately at 6 and reach at around 10 minute past 6. We were suppose to go to the PlanetShakers concert at Expo Max Pavillion for a Night of Worship. Oh how we underestimated that name. It was a night of worship indeed!

The hall was not fill till there were no seats. We reached at just nice 7.30pm and went it and there was ample seats there. Sat down and before long, the Emcee introduce the band Planetshakers onto the Stage and the party began. I do not recognise all the songs but that makes it all the more beautiful as I was expose to more wonderful songs of praise. The atmosphere was fantastic especially when they dim the lights and every starts jumping and raising their hands with wide smiles on their face praising God to the tune of Mighty To Save. The kind of atmosphere that there was no embarrassment, no shame no nothing, and everybody around you are just rejoicing at the good news of God. That you feel no shame jumping with joy, Raising your hand to the Highest and singing out to your heart content.

I think she enjoyed herself. I sent her home, we took the Mrt to Pasir Ris and bus 88 to her house. She stopped 2 stops before and in the end we had to take another bus 325 to her house. All along the way she was playing with her HP and calling her favourite guy Ben and I was listening to my Hp. Thats ok. My job is done, my Jesus stripes My dearest Girl was healed and she enjoyed her time there. Praise God.

May Jesus continue to shower all his love and mercy and favors on her and all the people I know. Bless my brother and his Girlfriend. Bless Eugenia and her new guy Ben, Bless Mom and Daddy and Pa and Bernie and Sandra from Norway and All my work friends, Rapfael, Beng Sion, Jasmine the new temp, Bless Felicia, Christina, Serena, Angela and Alex, Bless Sebestian to have a safe reservice, Eric, Zhao, Shawn and Sam Loo and Sam Kuang and Wen Jie and Weiyang. Bless Audrey and Eileen, Bless my favourite Sister Carolyn, bless her with peace and keep her ever bubbly. Bless Ya Hui and Serene Yeo and Tay, Bless Andrea and the 3 malay girls, Yani, Nurul and Liyana and bless Azhar. Bless my enemies whom the Lord shall place at my feet, Bless Su Ann the amazing girl from Office, Bless Christina the Vietnam girl sitting opposite her, Bless Stella this totally Cool women, boss of Beng Siong. Bless Siew Ping for her kindness and concern, Bless Valerie for her Slang, Bless All my Teachers, Miss Hon, Sanual and bless all my juniors and Friends. Bless Daniel and Yonglee and Yichuan and Vinson and Tien Loong. I may not have been with them for a long time and God bless them with a smooth Future. Bless Nick with a great relationship with his new girlfriend. Bless Everyone I know lord and may the blessings on them reflect onto Others. Father Heaven and Earth may fade away but your words will remain forever. The bible says that we are made righteous when Jesus died on the cross for us and our Sins, past future and present are all forgiven but the blood of the Lord. His finised work and his having taken his rightful seat at the right hand of God so that now as God see him, he see us. Thank you for such a wonderful evening.

Lord All of my days, I want to praise the wonders of your mighty love.

All praise to God, My savior, My Lord My Abba! =)

Day 45: God will make a Way.

2008-04-09T06:45:00.000-07:00

Woke up as usual and went to work as usual. Was not late as Usual. :P

Had quite a good time. As I stayed at work late to do the data entry the day before, today's job was more fun. I called and called many people from many countries and have fun chatting and joking with them. Had the chance in the evening to call Sandra from Norway again. Oh praise God she was as fun loving and as cheerful as before. Her voice made my day. =)

Spoke with Su Ann, this Amazing girl sitting nearby. Found out a couple things about her. She eats oatmeal in the morning everyday. She is a Malaysian. She goes to Monash University Malaysia. She graduated with a Degree (Bachelor) in Biomedical Science. She earns about a little over 2K. Over 2k is a She wears Contact lens which means she is a little short sighted which means she has glasses but does not wear them. My guess is she is probably 24 reaching 25 years. Thats all. =)

Did some OT for an hour. Still considering weather to take the offer for the permanent job. God has indeed blessed me with this promotion. Hmm...

God will make a Way
When there seems to be no way
He works in way we cannot see
He will make a way for me

He will be our God
Hold me closely to his sides
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

Praise the lord!

Day 44: Day of Promotion?

2008-04-08T07:09:00.000-07:00

Woke up today, ate breakfast and went to work. Was not late as usual.

Work work work. Helen called me up and told me if I want to sign a contract to become one of the permanent staff there. With a contract, I will be offered 1 day paid leave per month after the first month and will have a pay rise to about 1.4K cash. After deduction of CPF, I should still make about 1.1K. Seems pretty good! Praise the Lord for his plentiful harvest! The contract will be done next monday and I have the time in between to make up my mind.

Spoke to Eileen quite a bit today. She keeps popping by my table to chat about god. Her Hunger for knowledge and passion when she speaks about him can be felt and it is very contagious! Haha! She is quite a warrior of God. She told me about how she served in one of the toddlers ministry and managing the kids. She ask me if I have considered joining. Come to think of it, it might be a good way to meet more people, have some fun and serve God! Hmm... I think I will probably take it up. To volunteer in Church one of these days.

Was suppose to meet up with Eugenia today. I though we will have dinner together but there are some last minute changes. In the end I ate myself below my House. Turned out to be a great dinner too! She told me that the original plan was that a group of her collegue are going to Vivo City to have dinner and I can join them. I was initially not very comfortable but she insisted it was alright.

In the end the dinner was cancelled. She said that there are only two person going now, Ben and her. Ben is this guy whom she has a liking for and she says that he is a very sincere and caring person. Well God bless her and this new guy. God bless Maverick and hope he gets over her Quick. God Bless me much!

Anyway I asked her if she still wants me to be there. I know she is embarassed and she let it be know to me at the tiniest hint. Well, its hard to miss. I know I should not Intrude.

Pains me everytime to see her with other guys.

But God has a plan. My trust is in Him.

Praise the Lord.

Day 43: Right Believing Leads to Right Living

2008-04-07T06:53:00.001-07:00

Jesus made my day!

Woke up at 7.18a.m, ate breakfast and went to work. Step into the train station and went upstairs. The train still had 4 min so I enjoyed my music while waiting patiently. The train from the red line came into the station and the announcement rang. It says that the train service on the red line has stop. Everyone from that train got out. Within seconds, another announcement came through. It says that the train from Gombak will be delayed for an Hour... What the Hell? Where got people Suicide so early in the Morning!

Went out of the station, called my brother to warn him about the delay and a few other friends. Met one of my basketball friend and his Wife. The three of us were stuck and confirmed late for work. We decided to wait it out at the nearby coffee shop. He and his wife had breakfast while I ate had a drink. After a while, we went back and the Situation has got better.

Nonetheless, I was late for an hour but praise the Lord, I did not get scolded.

My dearest Eugenia and I exchanged messages during work and for a moment, I felt like things were back to once it was again. My feelings for her has not faded a bit. I still missed her. But now, I have the lord with me and he is with me every step of the way even though the valley is deep and dark. He is always with me and as long as he is with me, I hold no fear in my life. I am free to live a victorious life and I hope to share this with her.

Lord bless my dearest Eugenia with happiness and affirmation with everything that she do. Bless her lord, that the affirmation is not of her own but from Jesus. May she not be Sin Conscious but be Christ Conscious! May she be rid of all disease and tiredness and bathe in your waterfall of blessing. May she be washed clean of all condemation, all accusation and all destruction. Father bless her and I know with your blessing, the devil is Disarmed! No longer can he use the Law against her. The strength of sin is the Law! The law was given to Christ but Truth and Grace came by Jesus! May My ABBA bless her with riches and prosperity and love and kindess and show her the true meaning of Amazing Grace father! Praise Lord!

Well well... By the grace of God I met Eileen, My boss whom I have heard many times on the office phone but never met in person. Praise the Lord she is also from New Creation Church! And AMEN to her when she heard me say the word New creation in the Lift. God bless her! Oh oh oh... I'm looking forward to Tuesday and Thursday. Going to attend the Planet Shakers Service with WGLP on Thursday evening and passing her some things tomorrow night. See! Whatever God restores, he Restores it 10 FOLD. His resources are so Bountiful that the reaper and the sower can meet and say HI!

All praise to God.

"Right Believing leads to Right Living" - Pastor Joseph Prince

Day 42: Good things happen when you are in Christ

2008-04-06T08:27:00.000-07:00

Woke up at around 7 today. Felt quite good. Took my time to get out of bed and did not feel as tired as the day before. Grab two bread and got on my way to The Rock Auditorium, The house of the Lord, My heart beat with excitement and hugry for the Word.

Reach there at 8.40a.m. The place was already packed. Had a little chat with the lady outside the Auditorium and she mentioned that the place is already packed even at 6.30a.m in the morning. I do not know if she is exaggerating but I'll try to make it earlier in the future.

The word was great. Coming to the house of the Lord, of the Church of Grace filled my empty heart and body with energy and longing. Longing for the Lord. Longing to see the Lord. Pastor spoke today about remembering the Mountain and the Valley and that at the end of the day, when the cloud of God and goodness has lifted, the voice has become silenced and the Light has become dimmer, Jesus is still standing beside us. Just Jesus alone, Not Moses or Elijah though they were great men of God. But it is Jesus.

No relationship can work without Jesus at the center of it. To all you blessed souls out there taking the time out to read this blog, whom are deeply in love with your partner, I have this to say. Do not try, I repeat do not try to make your other partner satisfy ONLY WHAT GOD CAN DO FOR YOU. A relationship cannot work without Jesus at the center. Jesus is the Superglue Amen!?

Good things happen when you are in christ. I went home and hang out a bit with my brother when I receive a call from my Beloved Eugenia. Its been a while since I heard her voice but her voice filled my heart with happiness. I just cannot believe that she called me up and chat. The feeling I felt then was just incredible.

We spoke about what happen in our lives lately, I head about her and Maverick. I was right, they were an Item and God bless them. She told me about their problems and their Fights and how there are other guys also having a liking for Her. I mean... Of course they have a liking for her! Are you kidding. She is so Adorable and Cute! There is no one like her. She is a bubbly cup of Goodness! She is Sarah in the bible. She is a Daughter of God. She is perfection for as Jesus is, so is she in this world. Why is she Surprise everyone loves her? I think those who do not find her special is blinded. Hee hee...

She told me she did not feel needed. Baby in the future if you do not feel needed. Come talk to me. I need you. =)

She told me she wanted to visit the church. Amen to that! It shows that the hunger to know God, to Love God is still there! Oh yes! Its not gone. The devil has not has the Opportunity to work his disease, his oppression, his condemnation and his accusation on her. Why? Because she is a believer and she is the righteousness of God through Christ. Nothing can touch her. She will reap the bountiful resources of the lord and be shone on with the brillance of Christ. Turn her at all angle and she will be perfect, just like Jesus.

Oh yes. All praise to the Lord. Jesus I live for you. Let my actions be your glory. Your love for me is undying, never ending. I know now that at the center of every relationship, there must be You. You are Holy Just and Good My lord. You are the high priest that will reign forever in my heart.

All Praise to the Lord!

Day 41: Running on Divine Strength

2008-04-05T08:47:00.000-07:00

Woke up at noon 1p.m today. Nothing much, came online, check up on my province and took a rest.

Played basketball in the evening. The game was not too bad, made some nice shots, made significant contribution going after all the loose balls and working on my positioning and stance. Think I will get better.

Going to the House of the Lord tomorrow. My heart is filled with happiness.

Being tired lately. My body is simply running on Divine Strength with which I know there is no boundaries and no tiredness. God bless.

All praise to God.

Day 40: Its All Him

2008-04-04T10:15:00.000-07:00

Woke up and was not late as usual. Came to office way early, had a nice Shit, went back to my seat and started calling. Things went nicely and I hit all the targets.

Was invited to a Marche Lunch with the people from the rest of the Department. The people present was Christina (One of the temps "She's really very cute"), Felicia, Sebestian, Angela, Serena, Rapfael, Alex and Me. We went off at 12 and came back at 2.30p.m. By that time I was way back on my quota so I had to work extra hard for the rest of the day.

My MP3 companied me to the work place. Praise be to God. Listening to songs that Worship him made the morning all the more beautiful.

Finished work, came downstairs and played some basketball. It was as usual a good workout but I was not on form recently. I think its about time I stop caring about how well Im doing but put that trust in the hands of the lord. Right?

Hee hee... All praise to him. My lord my Saviour. Bless my Dearest Eugenia with good health and no stress. Redeem her from Sickness and destruction and shower her with loving kindness and tender Mercies. May she Shine in your Presence O'lord.

All praise to God.

Day 39: Work work and an MP3

2008-04-03T07:28:00.000-07:00

Woke up today and went to work on time. Had a great breakfast cooked by mom.

As usual, moved through the list. During the later part of the day, I got another list which was rather different as compated to the one I am doing. I have to spot check what another temp has done during the december period. There was much mistake. I redid some of them.

Ate Lasi Lemak... Not bad la...

Came back from Lunch and received my first pay check for 4 days of work. $224. Ok. Buy MP3 time. Got a Creative Zen MP4 for $148. Then give my mom $10 bucks, my father $10 bucks and my brother $5... Going to spend another $30 on a basketball and save the rest of the pay I get this month. Yea.

Praise the Lord. Bless me with a fabulous day tomorrow O'lord. In Jesus name. Amen!

Day 36, Day 37, Day 38: Test of Faith

2008-04-02T06:50:00.000-07:00

Had a Chalet outing with some friends so did not have the time to write in this past few days. Went to work carrying my Chalet stuff and was not late as usual. The fun began after work.

Finished at around 6.15p.m. and took a bus number 10 to Tampinese MRT. The trip took about one and a half hour, close to two. Beng Siong, one of the new temps took the Bus with me and we had quite a good Chat, talking about work and about our past relationship. He seemed to have it worst then me. He broke up with his girlfriend of 6 years and the relationship ended while it was still in the Army. 6 Years! Haha... Also found out that he was half Thai too. His Mom was Thai. I guess I can start to polish my Thai now!

Reached the place at around close to 10p.m. Met Zhao along the way and we walked to the Cheers at Changi Village. Bought 2 wire mesh, a bag of Charcoal, some bread and some batteries of my torchlight. Walk all the way into Changi Chalet F, the chalet right beside Old Changi Hospital.

The barbecue has already started and we met all our friends there. Besides Zhao and Me, there were Shawn, Eric, Samuel Kuang and Loo, Weiyang, Wen Jie, Serene Tay, Serene Yeo, Hui Ling, Ya Hui, Andrea, the three malay girls Yani, Nulru and Liyana. Did not see Azhara though. I did a lot of eating, little bit of cooking. Felt like slacking quite a bit. The food was not bad, edible and some of chicken steak were cook quite nicely. Then we started Toasting BREAD and it turned out to be really good. We bought Garlic spread and the combination was delicious.

Slacked for a little while inside the Chalet after the Barbecue, got bored and decided to take a little walk at the Abandoned Old Changi Hospital with the other guys. Old Changi Hospital is Singapore's most Famous/popular Haunted spot with history all the way back to the Japanese oocupation where many died in the hospital and even more died murdered and slaughtered on the beach. Our chalet was right between the Hospital and the beach... -_-'

The few who ventured there at around Midnight was Eric, Wen Jie, Shawn, Sam Kuang, Me and Weiyang. Kudos to Eric who faced his Fears in the face of Peer Pressure! You Rock!

Each of us was armed with something... 5 Torchlight and a bottle of water (Great weapon). We took the long steps up. It is hard to describe. Will paste the pictures and videos we took there in when I have the time. The walk was fantastic. The place was pitch black at night and the light we had was like Redundant though it does helped a lot. The glass was full of glasses and if we do not look carefully, we might just fall into the drains. The walls was fileld with filthy Grafitties. There were tribute to Satan and hell, evil things were drawn onto the walls. There were what looked like blood on the walls of the Hospital. It was rather scary. We walked through the first storey and had quite an Eyeful. To be Honest I thought I will pissed in my pants. But as I walked up and I remember Pastor's Prince words, I did not quite feel as scared as I should be. I keep telling myself... Is Christ afraid of Ghost, of course not. As he is so am I. Hence I should not be afraid of the supernatural. Pastor Prince also said if any son of God (Us) walks into the place of the Unholy, the Entire place will be filled with the light of the Holy because the Son of God has entered it. These words calms my heart down.

Well had a good walk and as we walk pass the carpark I think we kind of Stumble across a mass orgi in a car... Haha... There was 4 malays, 2 guys two girls in the car doing funny things... Ah well! Too bad it was quite dark!

Came back to the chalet and played a prank to the remaining guys and girls. All those who went met those who didnt go with a very quiet expression. When asked what happened, we all replied "Dun talk about it... Never mind dun ask..." Haha... I think we got em... :P

Played around a bit, slacked a bit... then went out for another walk to Changi Village, hoping to carch a glimspe of some Ba Pok.

Saw some of em... But lets not talk about them. Could not even see them clearly.

Strolled all the way to Changi beach and I climbed up a tree. I cant believe I did that. Then took pictures, climbed back down and continue our walk. Then we stumble upon this really tranquil beach. It was so quiet I can hear a pin drop and there was no waves. The water was still all around us and the night was illuminated by the moonlight. Stepping close to the waters and looking out to such a calm sea, one cannot feel but marvel at the Emo feeling slowly creeping into our hearts. I thought of Eugenia. Oh God I missed her...

Came home, bathe, relax and slept. I snored... And played some part to the disturbance of the sleep of the other guys. Woke up, ate breakfast of Tuna and watch the Tyra banks and Allen Degeneras show with my classmate. The show was quite entertaining and it was good clean fun.

Then the guys this time Zhao, Weiyang, Me and Sam Kuang when up to the hospital again and this time, we explored all 4 blocks of the hospital from the first floor all the way to the rooftop. Took some videos and pictures which I will upload when I have the time. Took a picture of an air battle between a Hawk and two crows in which the crows won at the roof top it was incredible! What a Walk! Good things happen when you are in Christ Amen!

Then own time own target. While the rest played Dota as they brought their laptop, I decided to use this time to grab some sleep. I slept all the way till 6.

We then came together and played heart attack and murderer. Murderer was quite Fun. Shawn was quite the Sly killer but he was also the person most people suspect because people realize how sly he was after a few game. Serene Tay and Zhao was the silent Killer. Too bad when I realized that both of them were the murderer, I was killed before I can point them out. -_-' That sucks! Haha... Then it was my turn to play murderer. My strategy was simply to make Shawn and Serene the most suspicious person. The people I killed were all easy angles for them or people they have been accused by... Anway... Got caught by the police, Eric and he guessed correctly when it came down to two person, Shawn and Me.

Then went ahead and barbecued. I ate and ate and ate. Also did much of the first part of cooking. Then was the cleaning up. The most memorable part was when four of us, Shawn, Serene Yeo, Me and Samuel Kuang formed an assembly line. I soaped the plates and cups, Serene Yeo Rinse them, Shawn dried them with a bathing Towel... -_-' and Kuang placed them back together. Giot it done in no time.

Then it was time to pack up and leave. Serene Tay and Ya Hui left first followed by Zhao, Hui Ling, Serene Yeo, Eric and group. Andrea left in the afternoon while the 3 malay girls left the night before. Me, Sam Loo and Shawn tooks Kuang's dad car to Buona Vista Mrt. His dad was really Gracious. Bless him.

When we reached the station, Shawn hopped onto his dad's car and me and Loo went to take the MRT. Met Serene Tay, who was just going back on the way as she was walking out of the station, we were walking in.

Came home at midnight, bathe and slept.

Today was a wee tad boring. I still had to continue doing the boring kang Kor list. But then I got to call up a few people too. In all I called up people from Malaysia, Singapore, Thailand, Hong Kong, Japan, Korea, Germany, China, Netherlands, Norway, Indonesia, France, Spain, India and Pakistan all in one day. I am glad to say that the 5 countries I love to speak to most is... Norway, Indonesia, Malaysia, China and Thailand!

Thailand girls are so gracious when they speak! They are petite and polite and their Kaa is so Cute!

Initially my impression of people in China was quite bad. But once you are able to communicate with them in Chinese, I find that they are generally patient and helpful people. Indonesian people are very helpful too! Their patient is admirable. I keep asking them to repeat and they gladly did so.

Malaysia People are the best la. I find that as compared to fellow Singaporeans, Malaysian are more laid back and relax. I can often talk like myself with them. When they speak on the phone they also got all the Singlish la lo lor leh hor like that. Not like Singaporeans... All try to slang Ang Moh and so impatient and rude!! *Ashame to say myself Singapore Lang la...

Then there was this one girl by the name of Sandra from Norway. I was simply stunned when I heared her voice. It was so Sweet! I called her at around 4 to 5 in the evening but in Norway it was just starting of work and around 10 a.m. When she picked up the phone, her first greeting in Good morning was so incredibly lively that for a moment I thought It was Morning here in Singapore! She was also very patient and funny and we both had a good talk. Honestly we just chat about our office for a good 15 to 20 minutes! It was jsut an incredible experience talking with her.

Ah well all good things have to come to an end. Had a good day work today, came home and relaxed. Im going to bed now. See ya! =)

All praise to God. May God bless Eugenia, her Boyfriend Maverick, all my chalet friends, my brother and Zhao Xin, my father, mother and Daddy, Aunty Irene and Joshua, My most lovable cute forever happy Scratch, Sandra and Me last of all. May he forgive us of all our sin, deliver us from all disease and injury, protect us from all destruction, shower us with loving Kindness and tender mercies and to fill our mouth with good things so that All our Youth will be renewed like the eagles! Amen!

Day 35: Tears in Church - Touched by the words of God

2008-03-30T07:17:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 7.30a.m. Left the house, grabbed a bun and was on my way to attend first service at new creation church with Sam Loo. Reached the church just on time, same as last week he reserved a seat for me. First service in New creation consist of the general Auditorium, the overflow rooms, two cinema halls right beside the church and the a convention center hall* I think... We got the seat in one of the cinema. The place was the fifth row left side corner seat.

Notice that there was a girl seating directly 2 rows infront of me, also at the corner seat. She was sitting alone worshipping the lord... It got me thinking... Why would a young, cool looking girl be attending first service, sit in a corner and be alone? Something must be going on in her life...

Got through the wonderful service as usual. As Pastor Jospeh Prince preached his message, the hall was not like its normal self. There was quietness, without the usual laughter and amen. So the pastor shared decided to share with us a little bit more, something extra and out of the messaged. This extra bit meant a whole lot to me. It hit at a spot directly in my heart and I was moved to tears. Praise the lord! I am just going to share this message with all reading my Blog.

He did not show the passage but he was referring to this... "Then two robbers were crucified with Him, one on the right and another on the left. And those who passed by blasphemed Him, wagging their heads. ... Even the robbers who were crucified with Him reviled Him with the same thing." Matthew 27:38-39,44 and this... "Then one of the criminals who were hanged blasphemed Him, saying, "If You are the Christ, save Yourself and us." But the other, answering, rebuked him, saying, "Do you not even fear God, seeing you are under the same condemnation? And we indeed justly, for we receive the due reward of our deeds; but this Man has done nothing wrong." Then he said to Jesus, "Lord, remember me when You come into Your kingdom." And Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you, today you will be with Me in Paradise." Luke 23:39-43.

Why was I moved to tears by this you ask? Well it was what the pastor said. He says that there was a message that we should get out of this. The first robber was living in the past. He was condemned by his Guilt. The past is robbing him of the present. It was robbing him of the quality of life. It was robbing him of ALL THE GOOD, all the blessings, all the benefits, why? Because he was living in the past. He blames himself, he condemns himself in the process giving the devil to have the power and space to work with. The devil was originally unarmed by God on the cross but the robber was putting the weapon right back into the Devil's arm. He could have received Jesus right there and then but he did not. Why not? Because he had condemnation in his heart. His past actions played a part in influencing his desicion not to accpet Jesus and he did not understand that Jesus is the center of everything. I short, the first robber was living a life of If only... If only I have done this... If only I have done that...

It got me thinking about my breakup with Eugenia... It got me thinking of the If only... If only I do this... I will still have her by my side, attending this service with me... If only I do that, we would not have separated... This matter was heavy in my heart always. I then thought about how it was affecting my quality of life, how condemning myself covering me from all the benefits of the lord, of an improve quality of life, of quality friends and loving family. I realise that I was living in the past... Immediately, my thought was... I shall stop living in the past. I shall live in the future. Maybe we'll get back together some day. Maybe...

The pastor then followed up with the second robber. Yes, he say was the second Robber pure? No he was not. He was living in the future... Christianity is about living in the NOW. He says that the the second robber was living in the future... To him, it is the same, his life is all about what if... What if I do this.... What if I do that.... It got me thinking... What if I do this... maybe we'll still be together... The only difference between this two robbers is... That one received him. One rejected him. Thats is the only Sin. The Sin of Rejection of Christ.

The he says... What we should do is to live in the now. Receive him now, and be cleared of condemnation. Who is he who Condemns! Says Paul in Heaven, hell and Earth. WHo is he who condemns, If you have Christ in you, who is he who condemns you! Who is he who gives you disease! Who is he who critizes you, who is he who beat you down with false accusation. No one. No one can come against the righteousness of God and the Righteousness of God's only Son and the bible says "As he is, so are you in this world" referring to Jesus Christ so if God is incorruptible, so are you.

Amen!

Day 34: How Gracious did that Grace appear, the Hour I first Believed

2008-03-29T08:13:00.000-07:00

Woke up at noon today. Ate a good breakfast and sat infront of the computer. Slacked all the way till evening watching video about the correct technique to Shoot a Basketball. It was good entertainment and good information.

Went down at 6.pm to play basketball. Was earlier then usual. Played all the way till 10.30pm. Had a awesome time playing. How did my game get so consistent lately? Oh man... Keep this up and I might have a starting place if we can play in the Mini Salvation Army League.

Going to Church tomorrow. Have past the book "Destined to Reign" to my beloved brother a few days ago and I am hearten to see that he has been reading it. God bless him and may he get enlighten and be broken free of the chains of law and accept the Grace of Christ. May his life be filled with good things because he is in Christ. May he be made Totally righteous by God because of his new believed in right living. Right believing leads to right living. May God bless him and his Girlfriend Zhao Xin with a wonderful Romance. May they never forget that having such a wonderful relationship is not of their own doing. It is a gift from God. It's God's Grace.

All Praises to God. =)

Day 33: Good things happen when you are in Christ

2008-03-28T09:06:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 7.20a.m. today, had a slight breakfast and left the house. Was not late of course. Called the remaining company on the list and asked Sebastian for a new one.

-_-' The new list ah... Wa dun wan to talk about it la!!!! So Kang Kor one!!!!!

Sebastian told me that the new list quota is 16 per hour for Data entry. Erm... Lets see what I clocked... 16 for 4 hours?

Sebastian took a half day leave, So when i encountered problems halfway through, I approached SheMali. We called her that because she had a fearsome reputation and people being mean called her a SheMale. Know what I mean?

But it turns out that she was really nice and Gracious. Halfway through I told her I was half dieing working on the list, she asked me why and I explained everything. Then She told me that things like that happen because the Competitors of Terrapinn may sometimes upload a extra Kang Kor list so as to waste our time at the research department chasing useless leads. She told me that she will take care of it and not to worry about the quota and just do what I am doing. God Bless her. Wont call her names anymore. :P

Came home, when out again to play Basketball. Have an awesome time playing, scored a couple of beauties, missed a couple but have a consistent game throughout.

All praise to God. =)

Day 32: Tomorrow is " I love you " Day... Or So I heard...

2008-03-27T05:56:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 7.15a.m today, brushed my teeth, bathed, ate a bit of breakfast and left the house. Train was crowded but I still managed to get onto the train. As usual, I was not late.

Reached office rather early, Angela showed me my new seat, which was just opposite that of my first seat in the office. Gin was also placed in a different seat really near by so we joked around while we make our calls.

Ate Lor Mee today. It was wonderful. Going to have Duck noodle tomorrow. Woohoo!

Met my targets. For the first 4 hours of work, I hit 12 per hour (The average is 8). For the next four hour, I hit 8 per hour.

Went home, continued reading "Destined to Regin". I love this Book and will pass this to my brother the first person after Im done reading.

She messaged me today with a text message... Im just going to type out what it says... "Tomorrow is national i love you day. That you get this message means you are loved. Send this to 10 people in the next 15 minutes and tomorrow will be your best day ever. Tonight at midnight, your true love will realize that he or she loves you. Something will happen to you at 1 - 4 pm tomorrow. It could be anything get ready for the biggest shock of your life. If you break this chain, you will be cursed forever."

Well for one I have plenty to say to this message. For old times sake to her, I shall refrain from any foul language or message her directly less she takes it personally. Here's what I am going to say.

Tomorrow is national i love you day.
First off... "I don't think there is a National I love you day. This is dumb. You don't have to have a day to say I love you. You can say it anytime!"

That you get this message means you are loved.
Secondly... "What about those that did not get this message? They are not loved? The truth is they still are. All of us are loved by God. We are all loved since he made us righteous through Christ.

Send this to 10 people in the next 15 minutes and tomorrow will be your best day ever.
Thirdly... "Load of Bullsh}t."

Tonight at midnight, your true love will realize that he or she loves you.
Fourthly... "So what? If your true love LOVES you, it doesn't make a difference if you do not love him back. I love you deeply Eugenia. But that doesn't mean you'll come back. Why bother realizing who you love except for the Lord? The only Deep Unending love is in the Lord Jesus Christ who gives you back unlimited fold and I thank you for Helping me Find him.

Something will happen to you at 1 - 4 pm tomorrow. Fifth... "I'll tell you what is going to happen. You'll are going to receive calls from your customers, get more work and hassle from the office and run up and down the office taking orders and goods. Thats what is going to happen this time tomorrow."

It could be anything get ready for the biggest shock of your life.
Sixth... "Yes, not much brain is needed to write "It could be anything" if one is talking about the FUTURE!... But yes... Its always good to Get Ready.

If you break this chain, you will be cursed forever.
LAST... "Why Risk It? Accept the Lord Jesus Christ in your life now and be relieved of all cursed forever, The father who forgives all of your inquities, who heals all your disease, who redeems your life from destruction, who showers you with loving Kindness and Tender Mercy and whom satisfy your mouth with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagles!"

The devils wants you to think you are in power of yourself, that you are in control of your own life because if you do that, you move further away from God. You are made righteous by God through Jesus Christ and by Jesus name, remove these evil words of Cursed and let it be Replaced by The Grace for the bible says The law is given to David but Grace and Truth came by Jesus Christ. Grace CAME, not give. Grace is a thing. It is a person. It is a Savior, a messiah. And his name is Jesus, Jesus Chirst.

Day 31: Graduated.

2008-03-26T07:40:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 10.30a.m today. It is graduation day so i have to report to the school by 11.45a.m.

Ate lunch and when to school. Spoke to Nadzim and his Mother as I stepped into school. The second person I saw was Carolyn, her mom and dad, Jaslyn and some other friends. Continued my walk and saw Buk. Said Hello and when to register at The Republic Cultural Center.

I saw my group of friends there, Zhao, Eric, Shawn, Sam Kuang and Sam Loo. It was nice to see them. Saw Alan too, one of my FYP friends. As I was talking to Alan, Bernie came up to the two of us and said Hi...

Registered my number along with the rest of the guys and when to queue up. The system is such that each of us have a number. When we go to the backstage, we queue up according to our number till everyone is in line. Then we move according to the sequence up to the stage to collecct our Diploma and take a photograph.

Had quite a good chat with the guy beside me, Alan and the girl to my right, Yahui. At the end of the show, took pictures with my brother, my mom and dad, Miss Hon Sook Mei, Zhao and Wenjie, Bernie, Alan, Hafiz and Carolyn as well as a few other person. It was nice talking to them, interacting with them. I missed all of em.

Went with my parents, brought them to the 3rd floor canteen to try the Taiwan Delights. We ordered 4 different meals and they had a taste of all of them. Then we took a walk at the sports halls and all around the different location in school and they had a good sightseeing.

Does not have the time to upload the photos for everyone to see. I will upload sometimes soon.

Came home and play basketball. We played with a group of different people today. I think they came from Jurong. There was this amazingly cute girl I was guarding and whom was guarding me throughout. Praise the Lord eh?!

Going to sleep now. Going to work tomorrow. All glory to God, My savior, My lord.

Day 30: My Chains are Gone

2008-03-25T07:55:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 7.20a.m today. Had breakfast and off I am to work. Missed two trains today but by the Grace of God I arrived on work on time.

In my head I remember what I have read in "Destined to Reign". I give all my trust, my beliefs, everything and place them in God's hands. For if you do that, you will be under the waterfall of God and God will cleanse you and you shall shine brightly of his Righteousness and of his Grace.

I achieved my quotas Effortless and Easily.

Ate the most amazing Prawn noodle today. Next time, I shall try the lor mee from the same stall.

Went home, missed another two train but I am not in a rush anyway so no harm done. I also got more reading done on the train. Reading the book was just like attending one of Pastor's sermons. You can tell how excited he is to be preaching the words of Grace and I feel deeply inspired by his words. No longer will I be Condemned. I am made Righteous by God through Jesus.

Ate a nice and filling dinner, came online and relax. Tomorrow is graduation. Hope to see all my friends. I love em All.

Dear heavenly father, I thank you for the cross of Jesus. I thank you that today, because of Jesus' blood, I have been forgiven of all my sins, past, present and future. Today, You are merciful to my unrighteousness, and all my sins and lawless deeds, You will remember no more. You see me as completely Righteous, not because of what I have done but because of Jesus. I am greatly blessed, highly favoured and deeply love by you. Amen.

Day 29: Joy of Joys

2008-03-24T06:40:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 7.20a.m. today by my mom. Turns out that I have slept slightly Late. Bathe and got dressed and out of the house at 7.50a.m. I was not late though, the train seems to be slightly less packed then I thought.

Reached office, went to Angela for a list. She gave me one with more then 180 companies in it. I have to search for the office details, typed them down and when everything is down, I have to call em up. Haha... AH well... Work ma!

Ate breakfast with my new friends. Gin, Song and Rafeal. They are funny guys and we had a good lunch. I'm going to try the prawn Noodle tomorrow. Hohoho...

Came back on the train reading the book "Destined to Reign" By Pastor Prince. It gave me revelation and strengten my faith.

Had dinner with my mother at the coffeeshop downstairs. I ate sweet sour Fish rice + Egg and my mom had Hor fun.

Funny thing was throughout the day, the worship songs were always in my head, particularly Amazing Grace (My chains are gone) and as my head keep playing the song over and over, I found myself singing along with it. As I sang, I remember the bountiful, plentiful treasures of God which we are all part of the inheritance and my heart filled with Joy. This feeling of Joy Im still experiencing as I type this message.

Going to read the book for a little while and go to Bed. May God bless everyone I know and may everyone be part of God's wonderful Inheritance.

"Blessed be the man to whom the lord shall not Impute Sins"

That is us, the people of the new covenant of Grace, whose sins have been washed off by the Blood of Jesus when he died on the cross. When God see us now, He see Jesus.

Halelujah!

Day 28: You were made Righteous by God through Christ

2008-03-23T08:32:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 7.10a.m. today. Wanted to go to church and listen to the message of God and oh boy am I glad I went today. Had a small little breakfast with my father. I ate 5 of those small small char chao pao and had a cuppa of coffee while chatting a little with my father. It was good.

Went to take the LRT to Choa Chu Kang then the green line to City hall. Reached there at around 9a.m. The prayer was already in session and they were singing. Thank god I made it to this song called Amazing Grace (My chains are gone). It is a different rendition of Amazing Grace that sounds simply amazing.

Ok let's cut to the chase. I know you don't read long messages so here is my compilation of the sermon today in a simple 10 minutes read.

Pastor Joseph Prince today want to tell the Church about what God is doing right now as we speak in this world.The first phrase is this: II Peter 3:8 "With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day." - This is the year 2008. Two thousands years has past so to God, this is like his third day in charge at the office. And what happens on the third day? Read the next two verse.

Hosea 6:2 "After two days will he revive us: in the third day he will raise us up, and we shall live in his sight."Hosea 6:3 "Then shall we know, [if] we follow on to know the LORD: his going forth is prepared as the morning; and he shall come unto us as the rain, as the latter [and] former rain unto the earth."

On the third day he will raise us up and we shall live in his sight. Hosea verse three says that his going forth is prepared as the morning. Means he will come early on the third day and the year 2008 is the early part of the third day which means... He Is Coming To Raise Us Up Soon! Ok. But ask the question... How will he raise us up? The magic is in the next phrase.

Amos 9:11 "In that day will I raise up the tabernacle of David that is fallen, and close up the breaches thereof; and I will raise up his ruins, and I will build it as in the days of old"

Now what is the Tabernacle of David? Tabernacle means something like a Temple. So its the Temple of David, the guy slain the Goliath and became king. Tabernacle of David means the temple which David erected to glorify God. The Pastor then bring us to this... That there are Two different Tabernacle in the bible. 1: The Tabernacle of Moses, 2: The Tabernacle of David. The Tabernacle of Moses refers to The 10 Commandments, the laws of Christianity. The Tabernacle of David refers to the Grace of God. And the Law and Grace cannot work together. It can only work in one way for in the bible, look at the next verse...

John 1:17 "For the law was given by Moses, but grace and truth came by Jesus Christ."

And what is grace? Grace is a person. Grace is Jesus Christ. You notice that the law is given which signify some distance but Grace and truth came by Jesus. Grace and truth came as a Man and as a God. He came to earth as Jesus Christ. Grace IS Jesus Christ. And when God says he will raise up the Tabernacle of David that is Fallen he is saying he Will race up A new Covenant of Grace. Not the 10 Commandments but Grace. Why not the 10 Commandments? Read the next verse.

Hebrews 10:12 - 14 "But this man, after he had offered one Sacrifice for Sins forever, sat down at the right hand of God...... For by one offering, he has perfected forever those who are being Sanctified."

Jesus sat down at the right hand of God! Sitting down means the job is done. It is a Finished work! It is a gesture that all has past. Its is Grace. After reading this verse, consider that the Priest whom has always practice that to be worthy of God, you have to be cleansed and free of Sins. They can only stand in the presence of the lord and cannot rest. In the Tabernacle of Moses, there was no chairs, nothing with which to rest because the Tabernacle of Moses believe in the 10 Commandments, and unless you fulfill the ten commandments, you cannot be worthy of God but it is Wrong because the Bible tells us that when Jesus was nailed onto the cross, All the condemnation, all the disease, all the sickness and negativity and all the plagues and pain was all thrown unto him, who is Truly THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS FULFILLED THE 10 commandments, whom died bearing all our sins the past, present and future and such that we are all made righteous by god through the blood of Christ.

God accepts anyone into his arms. Anyone. People who Sin, people who are bad, he accepts and Love everyone for if The lord doesn't accept them and give Salvation and peace to them, who else have the power to?

This is the new covenant of Grace my friend. Do not live in the old covenant of the Law. Step into the Living, All you have to do is to Embrace God and reap his riches.

God Loves you.

Went shopping around for a little while in the Rock Auditorium New creation Bookstore. I bought a book titled "Destined to Reign" by Pastor Joseph Prince and read it. Its truly quite insprirational all glory to god.

I returned home, relax for a bit and when out to work out. We played badminton for two hours. My brother won 1 round and I won the other. Ate chicken rice after that. Came back home, caught a bit of TV and came back home.

We went to the nearby coffeeshop to watch the liverpool Man U game. Man U won 3-0. Yea... Its God plans though I'm a Liverpool Fan.

Going to sleep now, I hope that this will be a week of fulfillment and since we are made new in the eyes of God, we have renewed youths like the eagle. God bless all of us. God bless her. =)

Day 27: Hanging out with the Dudes!

2008-03-22T09:50:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 1p.m. Purposely slept late cause I knew I had nothing to do if I wake up, might as well get more rest. Ate breakfast, came online and settled my province then went back to my room to cut newspaper. Got through one stack before I got bored.

Went online again, caught The Eye starring Jessica Alba on Movie6.net. It scored an "Okay" rating to me though Jessica Alba looks totally awesome. I felt that the Asian version was much more scary then the Hollywood English version. The plot was confusing at the start but it all unravels near the climax of the show.

After watching the show went out with the Dudes! Samuel Kwang, Samuel Loo, Shawn and Eric. We first had dinner at this place called Chicago Steak house. I ordered the Fish and chip which was surprising good and filling. Eric had the Belly good chicken which he gave positive reviews about. Sam Loo had Beer aromatic Fish and chip, Sam Kwang had some spaghetti chicken thing and Shawn had the grilled chicken breast which he mentioned were so hard its difficult to swallow. We had a Breaded soup and a seafood platter as sides. The amount went up to $92 dollars for 5 person and I paid $20 for it.

As we walked along Cine leisure, we saw Bernie and her boyfriend and a group of friends.

Movie cost $10. We decided to catch Rule number one which was an Asian paranormal cop flick starring Shawn Yue and Fiona Xie. I thought the movie started quite impressively and Fiona Xie as usual was Hot. Almost all the show best scenes came with her in it. :P It was fun watching the show with the other guys though we were sitting in the first row. They were fooling around as usual especially when the Ghost is about to show up. There was some pretty good scares too you know... those scenes where the Ghost will just jump out from nowhere and the music suddenly becomes a high pitched screaming or everything went completely silent for a moment?

After the show we went window shopping. I spotted the TV drama House. Feel like buying it when my pays come. I think I will get all three seasons amounting to a cost of $300. Hmm......

Came home at around 12.45a.m. Updated the blog. Have to wake up early, going to church again tomorrow.

From what I heard from her I think she is going to Malaysia this weekend with her Uncle Dennis, Uncle Eric, Aunty Suzanne and Aunty Joyce. They are driving up to KL to shop around and eat. I hope they have a save trip and lots of fun.

Thank you lord for a blessed day.

Day 26: ... I need Help

2008-03-21T09:03:00.000-07:00

Woke up at Noon today. Nothing much, ate breakfast and come online. Relaxed the whole day, recuperating, getting my will and motivation back to face another gruelling week, came online, got my provinces taken care of and just lazed around all the way till evening.

Went downstairs to play basketball despite the sky looking a shade of greyish black. Confirmed will rain! But... well well well, there was no rain. We got to play all the way till 10p.m and all praise to the lord for that.

Basketball was just fun. I had a great time playing, making crucial shots and attacking the basket. I think my game has become more consistent lately and I hope we can form a team to play in the Salvation army league one day.

God bless.

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." - Romans 12:12

Day 25: Some new friends?

2008-03-20T05:53:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 6.55a.m today. Decided to see if going another 5 minutes earlier will help with the MRT congestion. Guess what... It didn't help. None at all! It was still jammed packed.

Reached office at 8.40a.m. Got my file and decided to start work early. Maybe I can hit my quota without a problem if I put in a little more effort. Guess what? It was a breeze! With the help of my good friend Zhong Kai yesterday, he helped me with some chinese terms which I learned quickly, I was able to brush aside all the China companies quickly. I finished 4 list of participants today.

Went to Angela and requested a new list. She gave me 3 instead. All of the people in the list were from India. I had to call them up. I guess it was better. In one of the list, ALL the companies except for one did not pick up the phone, which I think is pathetic. Ate lunch today with 3 other guys, One is called Rafeal, another is called Song. I forgot the name of the third one. They were all waiting to be enlisted, seemed pretty cool and it was nice to have some friend. There was a new temp staff sitting beside me today. She is our age and seemed to be struggling with calling others. I guess everyone started out like that. We didn't speak, talk or looked at each other.

However as I was going home, walking to the MRT, I spotted her on the phone waiting for someone. She smiled and waved at me so I guess she knows who I was. Maybe we'll go for lunch someday.

Reached home and had a good dinner with my family. Spoke to my brother about some interesting experience I have during my work. I hope to have a good Friday tomorrow.

"Money is like Sex, the more you have it, the Weaker it gets" - Steven Lim Chee Yong (My Dear Brother)

Day 24: $126 in the bag

2008-03-19T07:10:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 7.00a.m. today. Decided to leave 5 mins earlier for work to see how the situation is like. Guess what? Nothing changed. Its still so packed!

But still, reached office earlier then 9.00a.m. and as usual there was no people in the office. Spent a good part of my day stuck doing a sheet full of chinese companies. When for lunch alone as usual and went home at 6.00p.m.

Ate dinner with Her today at Farrer park. It was a sweet dinner and we had a good time chatting with each other about our old days. She looks totally awesome. Worn the same jacket as the day we went out last sunday. Also had a brown skirt and a purple top underneath (I think). Talking and joking to Her remind me of the good old days we had with each other. I missed it. I missed her...

Day 23: First day at work

2008-03-18T06:46:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 7.10a.m. today, bathe and had breakfast and left the house at 7.40a.m. The train was packed like a can of sardine. Made a mental note to myself to leave the house slightly earlier like at 7.30 to see how the situation is like.

Reach the office at around 8.45a.m. There was no one around so I sat in one of the meeting room waiting for Angela to breif me on where to sit and what to work on. Believe it or not, no one came into the office till 8.55a.m, work officially starts at 9.00p.m. So well she came in, gave me a list to work on, got a table for myself with a nice computer, a nice phone and a nice view of some Chio Bus so I was naturally contended. Made the first call within 5 mins.

It was a total fluke. I was so unprepared on what to tell the other person on the other line that I keep stammering and stuttering. Of course, that person did not reveal to me the names of the CEO, managing director, head of vaccine manufacturing or head of business development. No fools would! But after that call, I had a better idea of how to start my conversation and wrote it down on the paper.

For the rest of the call, it was a simple task of chanting what is on the paper that I wrote on, typing in the details of the people and adding comments at the back. I finished the excel sheet in by about 4.00p.m. By that time I was growing bolder and bolder in my conversation and manage to have some fun.

Lunch was at two slot, 12 to 1, or 1 to 2. I choose the one at 1 to 2. Have to eat lunch alone so it was pretty sad, I went to the hawker center opposite and dabao chai fun back to the office pantry, then sat at my desk and slacked till 2pm. before starting work again. The working condition does not support the making of friends. Seating all around me are executives person looking grouchy and slamming the phone, making angry remarks it is a little tense all around me.

Anyway got another list from this guy call Sebestian. This was easier to work with everything was there already all the contact and email and addresses, I have to verify them. Did not finish by 6p.m. which is my knock off time though and will continue the next day.

Today I made a lot of international calls. *Vomitted blood when I speak to people from some country... mainly India, Vietnam and France. The people in India I speak to simply transferred me the moment I said "Hello! My name is Chee Han" and they will reply "Oh give me a second sir" and I will be transferred to another person. There seems to be not much of Enlish speaking people in Vietnam because when I call them, there will be a language barrier because we both could not understand it other so the whole conversation will be like... "Huh? What did you say... ok... ya... Mr Anderson... What that is the address? No wait... Who is that person? Whats his name.... Huh?... Uh huh... No wait..." yea you know what I mean. And last but not least... The people I spoke to in France will usually direct me to someone from anther country. So it goes like this..."Hi, My name is Chee Han, can I speak to a Chief executive officier or managing director in your office?" and they would go like "Oh I'm sorry I don't speak English really well... I will direct you to this person in the Head office in London, she speaks very well and can understand you... her name is ____" -_-' France to London!

Anway... its $63 dollar earned for a hard day work. God bless me with a good day tomorrow.

Day 20, Day 21, Day 22: Mighty Weekend - As He is so are You in this world! - Continuation

2008-03-17T06:46:00.001-07:00

There were some problems with the uploading of pictures. Look at the entry below: Sunday March 16 before continuing with this post to get a complete picture. =)

Anyway here are the pictures of the Sanddab or a fish that is similar in species. Spot the eyes? Next on the list is another huge crab... Turbo something, I forgot the name but gosh I would love to try this the next time I come back to the restaruant. The whole tank could only fit three of these. My last two pictures show the beautiful pure white Snow crab and abalone as it is before it is on the plate. :P

After dinner we took a walk at the nearby village and walkway. It was a nice sight. Nearby the Kampong there was a swampy mangrove and we took some nice pictures there. Everything was well preserved and definitly worth a trip to see and experience for yourself.

Then it was home sweet home, back on the bus...

Reached Gombak at exactly 8.00p.m. As usual, my crazy friends decided they did not have enough fun and went downstairs immediately to throw some hoops, urgeing me to go along... Peer pressured... Went down and within 10 mins, it rained. So I thought I can finally go home. But no, my crazy friends decided that no rain can stop their fun so they called another fellow basketballer who drives a van down and we took the van to the indoor court.

Indoor court has more then 20 players so we had to queue and as we already have 10 players ourselves, we have to take turns so did not end up playing much. Came home at 11 plus, got too tired, didn't write on my blog, just settled seom Utopia stuff and went to sleep at around 1a.m. Remember I'm going out with Her again the next day?

Woke up at 7.00a.m. Felt really tired and lethargic but hey! Im going out with HER today... So got up in a gifty, bathed and got dressed in a pair of jeans and black polo Ts and left the house. Left by 7.15a.m. and got there by 8.15a.m. She was slightly late. She wore a Black color sweater with white top underneath, light brown skirt and looks Radiant. When we reached New creation at 8.30a.m, we were told that the place have been filled though service only starts at 9.00a.m. Instead we have a choice of going to the overflow rooms or to the cinema where there is a live showing. We felt that it was quite special having a service in the cinema besides the auditorium and decided to give it a go. Cinema at Suntec is ok la... not bad.

We sat and I gave her the laptop cleaning kit I promised to buy her. At first she was quite hesitant to receive the gift but took it anyway (As I predicted)... Then before long, the service started and after some beautiful Song, Pastor Joseph Prince took to the stand to spread the message of God.

He encouraged the church to pray in tongues and gave many examples of passages from the Bible to back up his point. He says that praying in tongues helps build the temple of god, which is our body. It helps to repair, restore and build the body and it is much the same as praying before eating. To let God restore the nutrients that may be lost in the food. He told us that you cannot stop people from saying negatives or cursing and that cursing satisfy the flesh. He quoted some passages in the bible speaking of horses. The exact quote is this "Behold, we put bits in the horses' mouths, that they may obey us; and we turn about their whole body.." He says that the only way to stop cursing, stop saying negatives is to speak in the Tongue, to fill our mouth with The Good. He also says that once we fill our mouth with the good as come from the passage, "Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's" Our youths will be renewed like the eagles back to our adolescent age as was referenced to the hebrew word in the bible. The messaged was powerful and strong and all of us were blessed with a wonderful week.

After coming out of the service, she told me she was hungry and I told her to follow me. She thought I was bringing her to some place expensive and told me that I do not need to spend money on her anymore... She had no idea where I was going to bring her.

I brought her to the Suntec convention centre, 4th storey where there was a food and berverage fair there and it was the last day, hence there was plenty of good deals and freebies around for the stall holders to clear their stock. I learned of this place from my mom who bought dinner from there. I knew she would like the place and sure enough, she withdrew $150 from her bank to spend on this fair.

While walking around and chatting, she told me a little secret of hers, that she has fallen for this Guy called Maverick who is her classmate in School. She told me that Maverick likes her too and the feeling is mutual. She told me that after our break-up and after she has told her close girl friends about it, they starting pairing her with Maverick and the two soon hit off. She told me she would like to get something for him in the food fair and ask me what she should buy for him, Rou Gan or Bird's nest. I told her Rou Gan.

Yes... I admit I was heartbroken... I was sad, dejected but I decided not to let it get to me. I remembered pastor prince telling us that we are all a New Creation and not to spread negatives so I made a silent prayer to bless her and the new guy Maverick with a great love and a sweet one. My heart feel peace and a sense of calmness at the prayer.

Came back home to Bukit Panjang, my hideaway for the weekend, settled my utopia account and watch a movie about ancient china and the Shoulin Monastery with my father and went for dinner. When we came back, caught a Sharks tale on TV and some Taiwan zhong yi jie mou then came back home to sleep with the knowledge that I will be attending an interview the next day at 12.00p.m. at terrapin with Angela.

Woke up at 10.30a.m. today, bathe and dressed in a Long sleeve Eddie bauers shirt and jeans and left the house. Reached Harbourfront tower 1 18 floor at exactly 12.00p.m. noon, definitly on time. She briefed me on what to do the next day and I was quite clear. Basically just give a call to companies on the database, verify their contact information and ask for their Cheif executive officer, their managing director or their head of manufactoring detail and note them down. This was because terrapin is a company that organises international conference and they would like to send invites to company leaders to attend these conference. I was attached to the department of market research and my post was marketing researcher. Hmm... Sounds good!

After the meeting, came back home online to settle my utopia account, spoke to some of my friends online, worked on my blog and go to bed, right about now... Haha.

Bless everyone I know lord, abba, father... especially my brother, my father and mother and Eugenia and Maverick. You have a plan for all of us and I believe in you. Thank you for the mighty weekend and Thank you for securing me this job. All the praise goes to you. I will try my best in this job and lord give me a good rest tonight. In Jesus name... Amen.

Day 20, Day 21, Day 22: Mighty Weekend - As He is so are You in this world!

2008-03-16T08:05:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 6.00a.m. in the morning for the Go-karting trip. Woke up, washed my faced, got dressed, prepared my things and left the house. Met Hong Siong, Hong Kian and Uncle Freddy for breakfast. We all went on the trip.

Waited at the CC for a while before boarding the bus, a while later, a Night Safari bus came into the CC and all the participant board it. I was quite surprised to see people of all ages there, there were some old aunties and some teenagers there. Some come as a group of friends while others came in families.

Travelled to Johor and with our new biometric passport, the whole procedure was very fast and efficient. Everyone got back onto the bus within 10mins. There we met a tour guide who frequents the Johor area. He told us the Itinery for the day and our first stop was breakfast. We stopped at this place where it is famous for its noodles. Its called Ah Koong Restaurant. I personally did not find the place fantastic, I thought everything was quite pricey and overrated.

As we got on the bus, I noticed some interesting advertisement pasted near the walls. From far it might look like any normal advertisement. However, on close inspection, they are all Advertisement set by Loan Sharks and gangs in Johor to entice people to borrow money from them to improve their business. If they did the same in Singapore, surely kena Fined and jailed!

After breakfast we then went to the Go-karting track. We then learned that the place was called Permas Jaya and there is a 1.3km long racing track there, the largest in Singapore. As we came off the track we saw a lot of stray dogs lazing around and the sound of Go-karts were quite defeaning. The track look majestic, nothing like the sort in Singapore. The track itself was quite big with many twist and turns. Our course has two hair-pin loops which the hardest and most tricky turn any driver can faced as we learned later. The two pictures that I added could hardly cover the whole track.

There were also a few gorgeous Go-karts around and I conviently took pictures with them. There was a Ferrari among the midst of the vechicles and this is quite special as compared to the other karts. It has gears, different tires and in a stream-lined shape to improve speed. The other go-karts look simply sleek and amazing as you can see. It felt good to be driving one. Lets just take a moment to admire those pictures... =)

As the first batch of guys took to the racing track, the rest of us went to the tower to watch to catch a bird eye view of the race. There were chairs there and being up like 2 storeys eyes give a clear view of the whole track. The actions were clear. Took some pictures with the dudes and here is the picture of my crazy jogging buddy Hong Siong.

Soon it was our turn at the go-kart. There was 2 session. The first ten minute was for us to get use to the track, its turn and the speed of the kart. It was for us to practice our track techniques and over-cutting other people and the second session was a timed session where we will compete against each other for the best time. Here is a picture of the results. I was Kart 67, Hong Kian was Kart 3 and the result to the left of Hong Kian was Uncle Freddy. Hong Siong's result was not in the list.

The race was exhilrating to say the least. The most problem I faced was at the hairpin loop as was likewise with the other guys. Racing is about breaking your limits and at the start, I went slower and slowly increase speed. However, it is not just about that. It is daring to do crazy things such as stepping on the pedals to go full speed and increasing the speed at impossible turns and near misses to the curb that makes it exciting. Making such turns at a high speed just throw your whole body to one side of the kart while it moved in the direction of your desire, the thrills was incredible. Also, I experience what it was like in the movie "Initial D" where drivers try to cut each other. The most difficult experience was trying to cut another driver while making a hairpin turn. The whole experience was awesome.

After the driving, we had a lunch of Fried rice, fried egg and Fried chicken wing, whilst it was clearly oily, the food was quite nice! The lunch place was at the course itself. After lunch, we decided to go shopping. The guide told us that the shopping destination was at a huge shopping mall called Jusco, which I learned is also a shopping place in many parts of the world including Bangkok! I could not find a camera angle to get the whole place so I took two pictures, I'll only show one. :P

The first thing we went was to the Arcade since we did not want to do any shopping. The things sold at Jusco was qutie expensive and I feel that I can find a better deal in Singapore. The arcade was not fun... We just spent our time there playing table soccer. We then decided to go for a drink. My throat was feeling uncomfortable since morning. My voice was hoarse, deep and my sputum was a dark green color though there was no pain. So I thought that as we were walking around, maybe we should find a place where there are some herbs I can eat which could make my throat better. We found a Chinese herbal restaruant and went in. I ordered two Gui Lin Gao which has the ingredient of turtle shell and a mixture of different herbs and my friend ate Black chicken soup which smelled really great. For those of you who do not know what is Gui Lin Gao, heres a picture of it. I also added pictures of the aftermath of our meal... Hee hee and the Front page of the menu where the name of the restaruant is clearly shown. The food is not bad at all and it is quite affordable. The Gui lin gao cost 5 ringgit and the Black chicken soup cost 30 ringgit.

After this little meal, we were off, back to the bus. This time, we are going for the much promising Seafood dinner. The place is by the beach, and we can see Senoko power station across the waters some distance away. It is located in a kampong village and there are two restaruants there that has the most exotic live seafood in huge aquarium. The place is famous for its crab and view at night, but too bad we had an early dinner. There were Fish head Fried Thai style, La la (Some kind of shellfish), Chilli crab, Butter prawn, Sambal Kang Kong, Egg Tofu (Which was marvellous), Lotus soup with Bak ku, White chicken, Some kind of vegetable, Fruits and free flow rice. Yum! Added a few picture of the location of the place.

Ok so now, I'm going to start raving about the seafood shown on display in their aquarium. They are caught live up from the aquarium and then cooked by the chefs in the kitchen. It was an absolute eye opener. The first picture is the Geoduck, also known as the King Clam. Compared those Geoducks to the size of the tank... Amazing. Next on show is the gigantic Fuji crab. It is only slightly smaller then the damn water tank. It is THAT huge! The next picture on show is the oysters, in their native forms and a whole tank if it was a magnificient sight indeed. The next picture shows Lobsters that are quite huge. There were a whole tank of them. Then there was this flat fish that looks very similar to the Sanddab. It is the first time I have seen this fish and I have never tasted it. Can you spot it's eye?

Day 19: All to look forward to

2008-03-14T10:32:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 10.30a.m today. Came on and got the usual chores done, then came online to manage my utopia account. Everything seems pretty decent. Had a great breakfast then decided to go and settle my job thing by calling Angela.

She arranged for us to meet on Monday and brief us. Afterwards she told me she will try to let me start work immediately or I can start the next day. So job settled, now to move on to other things.

As I have a Go-kart trip on Sat, I decided to search for the receipt and started rummaging through my stuff. Found the receipt after a while.

I also decided to clear away one huge stack of newspaper. I ceived through the news, cutting out interesting medical articles and stored them carefully away. After going through that huge stack, I realise I have two piles of newspaper more to go through. But that is for another day of course...

Came online and as I was feeling bored, I decided to go watch a show on Movie6.net. Streamed Van wilder 2: The rise of Taj and it was great entertainment once again.

Went to Carolyn place in the evening to play Mahjong with her, Michelle and Zhong Kai. Won about 3 dollars playing 5 cents 10 cents. Then went to eat dinner at a nearby haunt having the most delicious Cheese prata there ever exist. The service there was terrible though and the dinner for 4 cost about $22.00. I paid $7.

Walked home from her house. The distance is roughly 3Km.

Cant wait for the Go-karting trip tomorrow. Cya!

Day 18: God sends me two lovely blessed Owls.

2008-03-13T06:13:00.000-07:00

Woke up today at 9.15a.m by mom. She asked me if I wanted to go for a Hike at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve. I said no and went back to sleep.

As I turn around and pulled the blanket over my head, I asked myself why I said no to mom. Was it because I was lazy? Was it because I was too tired? What was it. Oh yea... My answer to my own question was... "Yes you are lazy. Get up."

So I raised my voice so that my voice could be heard all the way to the kitchen. "Mom wait for me!"

Got up, bathe and got dressed, grabbed a small sandwhich and out the door I am on the way to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve. We hike along Catchment path and when we paused to rest at one of the shelter, we spotted two Owls, perched on one of the branch, side by side almost touching, not moving as if they were sleeping soundly. It was a sweet sight. Now, it was not easy to spot those owls, they are a rare sight in the forest and few have ever spotted them. This is the first time I spotted them since I started hiking here 10 years ago. Thats right, I first stepped into the forest when I was like 10 years old.

As we moved through the forest, we met some of mom hiking buddies whom we always met at the Nature reserve, we ended up hiking together. Just then, it began to rain and we started searching for a shelter to keep us from getting drenched. As we were on the main track and the nearest shelter is in the forest, we ventured off path again and ended up at the shelter where we have seen the owls.

They were still there. Two of them, side by side almost touching and unmoving. The rain was pouring down on and yet, they did not move an inch. They were there on the branches and we were at the shelter, looking and admiring the sight. Soon, the rain stopped and the Sun came out again and we decided to move on.

Met some Monkeys along the way.

Come to think of it, the two Owls did gave me quite a bit of inspiration. Did God send these two blessed Owls to me to remind me that be it rain or shine, be there however much problems ahead or how much riches lies before me, to never run away from my partner and to stick with her through all the troubles, unmoving, rock steady, to be a pillar of strength and comfort to her just like God did to me? Eugenia Darling I'll stick with you through any endless downpour and any obstacles you faced and I'll be there to support you when times are rough or when no body believe you be I a lover or a friend. I'll always love you.

Came back in the afternoon, expected a call from Angela but she didn't call back. I think I would have to ring her tomorrow to arrange a meeting. Caught the movie Atonement in the evening. It was a really nice sad show with a great ending, beautiful costume, sets and wonderful acting. It totally deserves the Awards in the Academy awards. Keira Knightley Rocks.

Day 17: Feels like Yesterday

2008-03-12T07:25:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 11a.m. today. Bath, had lunch and sat in front of the computer once more. Came online to Utopia. My province is coming along nicely.

Today feel like yesterday. I have nothing to do, hence decide to catch some movie online. Caught a cantonese horror show called Fugato or something like that, then caught the Inside man which was a pretty good show and at night, I finished the movie the Phantom of the opera.

Angela from work did not call up for a followup, I think I will call her again tomorrow.

What a boring day.

Day 16: Hidden messages

2008-03-11T06:30:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 10.40a.m. today. Ate a delicious breakfast of Hokkien Mee and came online to manage my new Utopia account. Left the house at 11.10p.m. to get to harbour front tower 1 level 18 for the briefing to my new job.

Its been 16 days since we broke. I missed you Eugenia, I still do. Do you miss me? Do you
Alas, I miscalculated the time. I got there at 12.20p.m. and Angela, the person who was suppose to brief us told me that I came too late. The briefing requires at least 45mins hence she told me to come again another time this week. I made a wasted trip down.

remember the times we used to go out, have fun, relax and me send you home after that? Why
Came back home, got online and feeling bored, decided to watch some movie. Ended up watching Basic Instinct 2: Risk addiction which I personally feel is a good psychological movie despite what usual critics think. I also watch the teenage move, dirty deeds which is good entertaining. Got me all the way till evening.

are you working yourself so hard? You'll always be in my heart. I love you. May God bless you.
Asked her if she wants to go watch Step up 2 with me, she told me that she was really busy and that she even have to work on Saturdays now. God bless her and help her to do well in her work and studies.

Day 15: Can you feel the Love tonight?

2008-03-10T06:22:00.000-07:00

Woke up today at 11.20a.m. Came online to check my mail and work on my new Utopia Account. Left the house at 12p.m. for lunch and the interview for the position of events coordinator at Aljunied, Yong Da building.

Thank god I was early, there was a couple more people there. The receptionist handed me a form and a clipboard and ask me to complete it, hand it to her and wait for the interview. I did as was told and handed the form over to here and sat waiting for my turn. There were some people there filling the forms too and I realized to my horror that there was a couple more questions at the back of the application form and I have forgotten to fill up that huge chunk! Then at the impeccable timing, I was called to the interview room.

Well a lady in her thirties greeted me. She then went on to brief and ask me questions based on the form. I found that she speaks quite fast, giving me the impression of a well-rehearsed speech and must be well trained in sales since she appeared rather bold and fearless. She twist her words saying that "firstly to be an events coordinator you must learn about events. Hence we will be sending you to different roadshows or other type of function to learn there first. Then we will move you to smaller events like Fun fairs, career fairs and the likes and finally if your capable to manage bigger, more prestigious events."

To the common blur people out there that have not done door-to-door sales before, I would like to say that it is just a load of Busht. Do not believe that please... They are just gonna make you help out at roadshows and IT fairs as runners and give you a crazy minimum pay till you leave. Got big event still call small fry manage meh? Sha de...

She said... "First two months you will be paid $1200 to $1400" which to a person that became the youngest team leader ever in a outdoor sales company means you will be paid $1200, nothing more. "Then after the first two months you will be paid at a $1500 or more depending on performance." which means that you can go ahead and dream because Im going to NS how to work more then 2 months... She knows it but she's just trying to distract my thoughts and paint a nice picture. She asked me to go down for an orientation tomorrow at 8.45a.m. tomorrow and one of the leaders will bring me around. That is exactly what happen when I went for my out-door sales. I tagged along with a leader, Getty.

Well well... Nothing much, hence after the interview, I made my way down to the salvation army. There was no drum set in sight hence I approached the office. Major Ruth Pascoe was not around but in the office was a girl in her early twenties that doesn't look local and doesn't look bad. I asked her about the drum set, she made a call and then lead me to the fellowship hall where she opened a locked room and the both of us brought out the drums sets. We had a nice conversation where she told me she plays the guitar and I told her that she can drop by later when she have the time. Spend the rest of my time playing the drum and practicing my moves till 7.00p.m. at the salvation army. Decided to leave then.

However, as I was walking past the indoor basketball court, I noticed two guys playing inside, two tall, huge foreign guys. I went in and chatted with them, asking them about the cost of booking the court for a game of basketball. Turns out that one of the guy was the person who runs the facility and whom played professional basketball once. He told me of a basketball league which he intend to set up, some sort of a summer competition. There will be Kids from the american school and other forgeiners, there will be kids coming from Korea and local kids playing in the league. I told him that I may have a team too. He welcomed me to join in and I told him that I will consider. In actual fact, I was thinking of the guys playing basketball downstairs... not some professional teams.

Came back home and had a good chat with ZhongKai and Yong Lee. Just then I received a call from a tele-communication company asking me to come down for an 1 hour briefing tomorrow at harbour front. Apparently Zhong Kai has recommended me to this job and they decided that they want to hire me. Well I'll take that i guess and skip the events coordinator job. At least I get to sleep late one more day. As I was talking to Zhong Kai and Yong Lee both of whom works at the company before, I asked them about the job detail and from what they say, the job seemed pretty decent.

Came home, spoke to my mother who came back from Genting and we spoke about her experience there. There are still many good things that she have not tried and I will introduce them to her the next time. I wonder how things will go tomorrow.

Praise the Lord.

Day 13, Day 14: Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

2008-03-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

On Saturday I woke up at 1.30a.m. Had burn the night playing card games with my brother's friend till early morning. I slept in my father's water bed because he is not home and that was the most amazing experience ever. It was nothing like my own water bed. His was very comfortable and I did not wake up once the entire night. I woked up feeling utterly refreshed.

After I woke up and had my Brunch, I thought of what I can do for this weekend. I checked through my mail and found out that that was job opening at Changi General Hospital through a contact from school so I wrote in a cover letter attached with a Resume and sent it to them. There was still no replies. Feeling so bored, I decided to watch a movie via streaming on Movie6.net. I watched Hostel 2. It was good entertainment. Burnt 2 hours.

Came online and spoke to some friends, had dinner and rotted in front of the TV till I slept.

On Sunday I woke up at 1p.m. Came online and set up a new utopia account. Was in a really good organized and experienced KD. Maybe I can kill of Darius from my previous KD. Ah well lets wait till near the end of the age before I do it. =) Slacked in front of the TV for a while and off I was to go and play badminton once again with my father and brother. Had another good workout. This time, my father was with us and we had a great time.

Had a good dinner too. We ate especially well today because we wanted to celebrate my fathers 55th birthday. Brother and me gave my father a treat and the cost was quite affordable. Had salad you tiao, Kou lok You, Tie ban Tou fu, Sambal xiao kai lan and wu xiang. I had milk tea. =)

Came home and caught the movie Kung Fu dunk. Thought that the show was quite fake but the story line was quite ok. I think it only scored a 5.5 out of a ten for me. Going to go for an interview tomorrow. Catch you later!

Praise the lord.

Day 12: Forget it. Look Forward.

2008-03-07T13:03:00.000-08:00

Woke up at noon today, had a light lunch, went downstairs to buy the papers and came up to look through the classified. Send a couple of resumes out to different companies, called the rest and arranged for an interview. There will be one on Monday, with the position of events coordinator. Had some experience in this field so I may be able to do well.

Stayed online, nothing much throughout the day. Gave a call to Major Ruth Pascoe at the salvation army and god bless this kind old lady for giving me the opportunity to use the Drum set anytime I want free-of-charge. Bless her and thank you God for giving me the chance to fulfill my goal. I will go down to the interview on Monday and then proceed on for a little Drum session in the evening.

Mom went to Genting highlands for the next three days. I hope that she will enjoy her time there as she has worked hard to keep the family healthy and did a magnificent job doing the household chores. She does not smoke, does not gamble and have everything good.

Came back to Bukit Panjang for a night out with my brother and his friends. Going to spend some time playing Magic the gathering. =)

Day 11: Days out with the Dudes

2008-03-06T05:47:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 11.30a.m today. Came online and had breakfast. Do my usual stuff and went out to school. Had to pay for our graduation robe.

Reach the school late, met up with Shawn, Zhao and Eric. They were at burger King having lunch. Companied them. Made our way to school to get our Graduation robe. It felt good to be walking back in school again. Paid for our Graduation robe, $25 with pink sash. Went for lunch, had mushroom chicken at Taiwan delight.

Went to the IT show at Suntec city with Shawn and Eric. There were so many things there and so many different variety of digital equipment it left me baffled. I bought a laptop cleaning kit because I promised Her that I will buy it for her before we broke. Other then that was tempted to buy an MP3 but felt that I do not really need it hence skipped it. Walked around the area for a few hours. Had an interesting experience with this cute girl at one of the stall. I asked her... "Sorry do you have anything with which to clean a laptop?" She replied, "Erm... Vacuum cleaner?" -_-'!

Had dinner with the other guys at the food court in Marina Square.

Came back home after that. While I was at the computer, my mom came to me telling me she will be going to Genting Highlands for a 4 day trip. She passed me $50 malaysian riggit and $50 Singapore dollars and told me to take care of myself for this 4 days. God bless! I cannot believe she gave me money for the love of god! Haha... it was really interesting.

Well there is really nothing much I can spend the money on. I guess I'll just use it to have more drums lesson. =)

41 more day to learn Thai and 85 more days to learn Drums. I can do it!

*Dear heavenly father thank you for a wonderful time today. Father I still love Eugenia. I missed everything about her. The lazy weekends we spend just loving every minute with each other, the little time we spend with each other during busy weekends cramped with exams and work. I missed holding her in my arms, us fooling around doing nothing and I missed the times where she would wake me up in the early morning and give me massages. I missed talking to her, sweet presence beside me, giving me great words of advice and calmness. Everything felt so right being with her. Yet, she cant see these words I typed to her because she will feel further repelled to me if she does. All she wants to do now is to enjoy her Singlehood and father I hope that you will bless her with all that she desires and make her happy. Father clear my path. Father I pray to you that if we are not meant to be together, give me the Strength to move onwards. Father give me the power to drop My True Love, My First Love.

Day 10: God is the Best Assurance

2008-03-05T05:43:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 12.00p.m today. Meet up with Carolyn, Jaslyn, Michelle and another girl to hang out in the afternoon playing Mahjong. Came online for a little bit first.

When I came online, She spoke to him. Told me that She can't make it for the Go-kart trip to JB on the 15th of March. Well... I told her its alright, we can always make it at another date. We spoke about her studies and the pressure she was facing and I could understand what a great burden it was on her shoulders, having extra modules to take, having to work and paying her University school fees all by herself. Having to do housework and still have to spend time with her friends, She really does have a lot of problems which I could do nothing about.

I then asked her if she wants to go to Church this Sunday. She said her already had plans with her friends. Once again I got rejected. =( However, on the bright side, she said she really wants to go to Church so how about we go Next Sunday instead, first service. Oh man... You can't imagine the happiness I felt then.

Oh yea I also get to walk our dog next sunday too.

Had a good time with Carolyn and company. Had a relaxing Wednesday.

Came back home and submitted my form to go for the Go-karting trip. Hope I have a good safe time there.

Need to go to school tomorrow to pay for my graduation robe. Hope to work out tomorrow morning too. After the buying of my graduation robe I'll go look for work again.

Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you for answering my prayers. Thank you also for sending me great friends to give me joy, comfort and company. My day was smooth today and I pray to you lord that you will continue to make the days of everyone I know smooth and without problems. Let your glory shine on them and make them righteous. Drive all doubts and negative thoughts from their minds and give them motivation and Assurance. Dear lord please bless Eugenia. She is weary and need the support of friends and family but MOST importantly, she needs you my lord. Bless her with everything good and may you give her rest and rejuvenated vigor so she may face her everyday challenges. Give her happiness. Thank you father. In Jesus name, AMEN.

42 more days to learn Thai and 86 more days to learn Drums. I can do it!

Day 9: The Inside Turmoil

2008-03-04T05:00:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 11p.m today. Bathe, came online, going to the Immigration checkpoint authority and have a possible lunch with her. Messaged her the night before and this is what she replied back to me. "Good morning... I don't know if I'll be eating or not, cos I need to buy fruits ard my area. See how. And usually you always come late. So don't know if can eat with you or not? See how lo. K!"

I replied. "Haha. Same as you ma. I always come late and you always give excuses. I mean, how lame is buying fruits man?

She didnt reply after that.

Came online for a little while, then left the house at 1.50p.m to go to the Immigration checkpoint authority to collect my passport. Reach the place at 3.15p.m, collect my waiting pass and waited till 5.30p.m before my collection is done. Ridiculous. Well guess who I met? I met my Sister! Carolyn with her dad. She was waiting to get her passport done too. Its funny to be meeting her there. As it was already reaching 5 and I still wasnt done yet, what do I do? I messaged her again. This time asking her for dinner. I smsed her. "Doing anything after work?"

She replied. "Ya... Got plans to meet friends"

I answered. "Straight after work? Im still at the ICA and have not had lunch yet."

She said. "Oh... Why not.?

I answered. "Still waiting. Came at 3.15 and its not my turn yet. So what say you? Fish soup?"

She replied. "Cannot. I meeting them straight after work. Cos having dinner with them then go school."

She turned me down for 2 lunch and a dinner.

Thats alright.

Ended up coming back home for dinner. Tom Pang Carolyn's dad car, had a free ride home. I can't help asking myself. "Why do I bother, why do I bother to even ask her out for lunch at all? Why do I even try to win her back? Dude. She made it clear when she says she does not love you anymore. She said she wants to just be your friend. But hey, you know thats Bullshit. She doesn't want to be friends with you. She just wants you to piss off and stop bothering her. She is happy where she is now. No... She won't cry for you. She wont give a shit about you. Yea. Go die and she won't give a fuck about it. She hates you.

All these anger, confusion, furastration... I got to start working out again...

God where are you...

Day 8: Brand New Week

2008-03-03T05:54:00.000-08:00

Had the plan of wake up at 10.30a.m today. Had the plan of meeting Her for lunch then going over to the immigration checkpoint authority to check on the progression of the making of my passport. Had also planned to meet up with William for a drumming session at 4.pm.

Instead, my handphone went flat and I overslept by half an hour. Woke up at 11a.m. Having sent her a SMS the previous night asking her for lunch the next day since the Immigration checkpoint authority was nearby her work place, I have not seen her reply. Furthermore, my handphone was flat hence I needed to inject some life into it. No choice, I woke up immediately, cleaned up, got dressed and left the house for Bukit Gombak to reach my charger.

As I was charging the phone, I came online and saw her. She told me that she cannot make it for lunch at 1p.m. She can only eat at 12.0op.m and at the time of the private message, it was already 11.45a.m hence there will be no lunch with her. I said I was alright with that and we can always have lunch another day. She also spoke to me about a problem she faced during work with her bosses. Strangely, listening to her confide in me makes me feel very comforted. There's probably something wrong with my head. Since there was no lunch, I left the house at 1.30p.m to the Immigration Checkpoint authority.

Praise the lord I was told by the officer there that the collection of the passort from those that applied on the 28th of Jan is tomorrow, the 3rd of March. That means I have to go down to the place again tomorrow to collect my passport. Maybe this time I'll get to have lunch with Her.

Went to the salvation army to meet up with William for the drumming lesson. When we reach there we realise that the place have been cleared up because they are going to have an examination for foreign students hence there was no drums sets for the public to play. We ended up paying $14 at Alvaron studio nearby for an hour of drumming lesson. Instead, we got to play for 1 and a half hour because the studio guy lost track of time. William taught me the basics of playing the drums. He told me the different components, mainly the hi hat, the 3 toms, high medium low, the snare, the base drum and the two crash. He taught me the basics beat which I quickly pick up because I used to have some lessons from another friend. He also taught me a few simple tricks I can use during breaks to make things sounds nicer. It was a wonderful experience albeit a costly one.

Came home, had dinner and read the papers. Chilled out with Steven and went on a stroll with him after dinner. I think I'm going to rest early. Tomorrow morning, I am going to work out at Bukit Timah Nature Reserves in the morning, go to have lunch with Her, visit the Immigration checkpoint authority and if all goes well, get to have another drumming lesson with William. Lets see how things go.

"A happy man is just a sad man with a smile" - Steven Lim Chee Yong

Day 7: I'm too Free

2008-03-02T09:56:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 10.30a.m today. Had some errands I have to run for my dad. Had some breakfast and got the errand done quickly.

Went to the room, hoping to watch some of the movies stored away in my hard-disk. Found out that there were some problems with the sound system on my laptop and if I want to hear any sound at all, I have to plug in the headphones which I have forgotten to bring. Ah well... lets just spend my day play Football manager and chill.

Went to play badminton with my brother in the evening from 4 to 5pm. Dad could not make it because he had his brothers and sisters over at our place and he needs to entertain them. At first I was rather pissed. I had been meaning to spend some time with him and my brother and thought we could make use of this weekend to exercise and grow closer and he tells me he had to entertain his brothers and sisters at the last moment when the plan has been made? Thats ridiculous.

Then again, it is exactly this kind of attitude which cause the separation between me and her and I have made a promise to myself that I will never repeat this kind of lousy attitude and tried to look at things from my dad's point of view. I can see that he really wants to spend some time with us too, just that he can't leave his own brothers and sisters idling and doing nothing. Well there are still other time for father and son bonding so... it;s really no big deal.

Had a great dinner today though the portion barely filled my stomach. The dishes were great however and the butter prawns was good. We came home and caught a portion of the Chronicles of Riddick and Underworld.

Going to check on my passport tomorrow. I'll also get the papers and apply for a job related to my field in the next two weeks. If I do not get a job in my field for the next two weeks, i will go for a job that is totally unrelated and that is easy to find. In the evening, I will meet William for a drum lesson. Tata!

Day 6: Lonely Boring Saturday

2008-03-01T07:54:00.000-08:00

Decided to stay in bed late. Woke up at 1.30p.m. Had a good breakfast and came online to learn Thai again. Spoke to people in the forum to try to improve my Thai. Whenever we spoke and I found that there is something I do not know, I will ask. And learn.

Contemplated going down to work out. However, I feel that there's no point working my body to exhaustion. Let my body take the rest it needs and work harder next week. Online all the way till the evening. Decided to make use of my time and flip through the newspaper I collected since last year. I wanted to extract all the medicine news from last year and use these articles as learning tools to increase my knowledge. Doing this will bring me closer to The Goals. Did that all the way till 10p.m, had a dinner of chicken rice.

Bathe and came to Bukit Panjang, my hideaway for the weekend. Theres nothing much here today. Still trying to get accustom to not having her around for company during the weekend. Things will get better. =) Gotta keep myself away from EMO songs!

Look forward to playing badminton with the rest of the family Tomorrow!

Dear Heavenly Father. Please bless me and give me the strength I need to carry on each and everyday of my life. Help me to achieve my goals and give rest and peace to everyone I know. You died on the cross for us so our sins may be forgiven so let everything I do from henceforth illuminate in your name and glory and may all praises to me be reflected ALL unto you my lord. Father bless Eugenia. She was an Angel that you sent to me that walked and touched me for 3 years of my life and lord please bless her with everything joyful, positive and happy. Bless her friends with whom she shared new found bonds with and give her a safe trip home tonight. Thank you for the wonderful day. In jesus name, Amen.

Day 5: Keeping Myself Busy

2008-02-29T00:25:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 7.15 a.m today. Asked Hong Siong if he wanted to go have a run and he agreed to. We met at 7.30 a.m. We made our way to Bukit Timah Nature Reserves once again. However, this time, things were a little different.

We ran there.

Yes, no kidding, we ran to the Nature Reserves. The morning breeze felt cool, a little chilly but its a comfortable temperature with which to began the run. He took the lead and I followed his pace stopping once to rest at a bus shelter along the way. By the time the two of us reach the Reserves, my legs were burning and I was sweating like a dog. Thats alright though... good morning exercise!

Hong Siong is a crazy guy. He attempted to run up the steep slope and failed miserably. Ended walking up the rest of the way. Full marks for effort though. We then decided to take one of the forest path for additional exercise and I led the way because I was familiar with the forest tracks. Tracking with him is a different experience as is tracking with my mom or my brother. We moved through the paths really quickly. We were hoping to glance at some exotic wildlife but all we saw were monkeys. There wasn't much animals out to greet us, all sleeping probably. Only the really enthusiastic or the heartbroken wakes up this early to exercise... Correction: Only the really enthusiastic or the heartbroken or the heartbroken's pals wakes up this early to exercise. Hee hee.

Another thing about Hong Siong is that he talks a lot. As we are tracking along the path, we spoke about many things and everything! He told me about the ancient history of China and how they waged war on 8 different countries and ended up losing badly, having their royal palace burnt as a result. We spoke about Redang island in Malaysia and all that the place have to offer. From his description it seems like a really nice place to visit and I'll be sure to go there in a few more months. We spoke about the recent fugitive/terrorist/JI member that escaped from the internal security department in Singapore and is now hiding in Bukit Timah.

I reckon if there is one place to hide in Bukit Timah, it is going to be the Nature Reserve. Hence we try to keep as silent as we can from that moment on. Ah!!

We spoke about many other things including videos of executions, of terrorist slowly sharpening his butter knife using the head of an innocent person and the trauma it had on him as he watched the video when he was really young. We spoke about what a good basketballer should posses and how by doing certain routines, we can dramatically improve our game. Well it was nice to really chat/talk about something other then how me and WGLP broke up for once. =)

Had lunch at Bukit Timah Market and Food center, took bus 985 back home. *We cant run no more...

After bathing, came online like I usually do and got on with my Thai language speaking lesson. After today, there is going to be 47 more days left with which to learn Thai. I think Im settling in at a good pace now. Spoke with Oil today again and he was really helpful. He taught me all I needed to know and I learn a few new words today. One of them is buea --> Bored. Yea that is going to really apply for me.

Well went downstairs to workout at 6.45p.m. Today's game was ok. I think I have matured in my game and has become more consistent now. Fatigue set in at around 9.30p.m and I rested till 10p.m. I am going to give myself a break on Saturday. I am going to work out on Sunday to play badminton with my family. Cant wait to spend quality time with them. On Monday morning I will meet William for a work-out at Bukit Timah Nature Reserves at 8a.m. Then I will make my way down the the ICA to settle some passport issues. On Tuesday I will meet William again at 11pm. He is going to teach me some basic of drumming. Ah...

47 more days to learn Thai, 91 more days to learn Drums. Oh yea Bring It On!

After what I've been through. This song became really special so Im sharing it with yall!
How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking Every breath with you oohhhh
You're the only one Who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me, is against the odds
And that's what I've got to faceeeee

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So Take a look at me now
Cause there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is All I can do
And that's what I've got to face.

Take a good look at me now
'Cause l'll still be standing (standing here)
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take (chance I got to take, got to takeeee)

Yeahhhhh
Take A look at me now(Take A Look at me nowwwww)

Day 4: Inspiration from a Friend

2008-02-28T06:39:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 8.30 a.m today feeling super lethargic. Mom wanted me to company her to Bukit Timah Nature Reserves and I was too tired to answer and ended up sleeping again. I think she was quite pissed.

Woke up at 9.00 a.m and nobody was home. Immediately gave a call to my mom to ask where she was. She told me she was in the van, halfway to the Nature Reserve and I told her to count me in on the trip. She made a U-turn back for me. I broke my record for the time it took to get out of bed and downstairs of my flat. It all happened in 300 seconds and between this time, I made my bed, brush my teeth and washed my faced, finished two bread and a cup of soy milk, got dress, wore my shoes and locked the door. -_-'

Today's trip was quite interesting. For the first time, we managed to spot a Mountain Turtle. The kind that lived on land all its life. The color of the shell is so perfectly camouflaged together with the fallen leaves that it is impossible to spot if it was not crossing the road. I have never seen a more beautiful turtle (Yea I know I sound like a loser). Oh and we also spotted a monitor lizard right beside the road. Its not the first time we spotted a monitor lizard at Bukit Timah, but it is the first time we see the lizard hunting for food in its natural habitat. It was climbing onto this fallen log, digging into it probably to find some yummy cockroaches and sticking its head into the log completely oblivion to the fact that there are 2 gawking adults right beside it. Ah Nature!

After the hike we went to have Lunch at the Bukit Timah market and food center. I had an interesting encounter with a Thai lady at the Thai stall. I wanted to order the traditional Phat Thai and at the same time wanted to practice my Thai speaking. I asked her if she speaks thai and she said Chan pood pasa Thai kaa which was really cute! I love the way girls speaks in Thai! Its such a petite language. So I told her Phom yak lean pood pasa thai and she smiled. When the order was done, I asked her "Tao rai" --> How much, and she broke into another huge smile. "See rhean" was her answer. That meant $4. I paid for it and told her "khob khun khrup" which meant Thank you. Oh yea the food was good. The next time round, I'm going to order the glass noodle salad "young moon sen".

After the food, bathing and all I went online again. Time to continue learning how to speak thai. This is my third day learning the language and things are going really well I must say. I can start and hold a conversation as well as answer question now. After today, there is 48 more days to go. Jia you! Spoke to Daniel today, asked him if he wants to chill and shoot some hoops. He said to meet at 6.30 p.m.

Alas! It was raining. We didnt have much to do so we went to a resting shelter below the block. We spoke about school and his younger sister. To be honest Im worried about the sister. She seemed like a really nice person and yet from what I heard from Daniel, she seems to be giving a lot of trouble to her parents (My Gan Ma!). I hope she gets better.

Of course, I also wanted to speak to Daniel about my recent break-up. He is the best pal in the whole world to me. I asked him how he dealt with the break-up he experienced 2 years ago with this totally awesome, match made in heaven girlfriend. He told me he has never got over her and that he just started asking her out again yesterday. -_-' I got plenty of inspiration and thoughts from my conversation with him. His advice for me is to let the relationship go for now. He says that as long as I feel that she is the girl and that I know what I want and that if I find that I still cant get over her because she is the best girl that I have ever known, Date her again in a while. She needs some time alone for herselves and the very least I should do is that. I felt thats good advice. I prayed yesterday that God gives me the courage to carry on and God send me an angel today. =)

He also told me he has learned to bike and has a phantom of his own. I asked him to bring me to the salvation Army in Hillview because I remembered that there is a drum set there for free for the public to play and I wanted to pick up drumming. He did. We then went to play pool and I lost to him 5-1 in a race to 5 game. He has picked up his games by ten notches and Im simply no match for him. We then went to buy drumsticks and I got a pair for $13 dollar.

I am going to give myself 3 months --> 92 days to learn drumming. On top of the 48 days left to pick up thai. And I am going to find a job as well as to train up my body to reach my big goals. The Goal actually. Have to keep myself busy right?

Thats it. Wait for my updates tomorrow. =)

Day 3: I'll soldier on! Mai mee pan Ha!

2008-02-27T06:29:00.000-08:00

Woke up at noon today. Decided to work out at 6.30 and asked mom to prepare dinner at 4.30p.m to 5p.m. Probably going to play Basketball with the other guys downstairs and come home at 10p.m. What do I do in my meantime? Work towards The Goals of course!

Decided to get my Cirriculum Vitae done and improved. It is now updated with the results from my past six semesters and under the achievement section, I added "made it to the Academic Roll of Honours for AY07/08 semester 2". This will be sent to any prospective employer. I hope to start earning some money and carry on my plans for the future.

As I worked towards these goals, I remember another small target I set myself yesterday. That is to master speaking in Thai in 51 days. From tomorrow onwards, I will only be left with 49. I believe I can achieve my targets. Yesterday I could not even hold a conversation in Thai with those people I met in the chatroom, I think it got better today. Lets see weather I can recap what I have learnt...

Khrup/Kaa --> Polite word for guys/girls.
Sawadee --> Greetings
Ter pen yang rai bang? --> How are you?
Khun sa bai dee rue? --> How are you?
Phom sa bai dee Khrup. --> Im good.
Khob khun Khrup --> Thank you.
Phom ma chrag patae Singapore Khrup --> Im from Singapore
Khun ma jak nai? --> Where are you from?
Khun cheu arai? --> Whats your name?
Phome cheu Chee Han Khrup --> My name is Chee Han
Khun kam lung tam arai yhu? --> What are you doing now?
Ter kin khao lur yang? --> Have you eaten?
Phom kin laew --> I have eaten.
Phom Kid mai ork --> I have no idea.
Phom pai dern len --> Im going for a walk.
Mai mee pan ha --> No problem.
Mee pan ha arai? --> What is your problem?
Hed pon --> Reason
Jai yen yen --> Relax
Mai ben rai --> Your welcome
Khun pood pasa ang grit dai mai? --> Do you speak english?
Kor tod --> Could mean: Excuse me or Sorry.
Hong naam --> Toilet
Yu ti nai --> Where?
Yu ti nee --> Here.
Khun suei mak Khrup --> Your very beautiful
Ter suei Jing Jing --> Your very beautiful
Khun lorr mak Kaa --> Your very handsome
Khun Narak mak Khrup --> Your very cute
Khun tam ngan arai? --> What is your job?
Kroo --> Teacher
Khun ar you tao rai Khrup? --> How old are you?
Ar sai --> Live
Khun pen sot reu-plau --> Are you single?
Sot --> Single
Khun me faen reu yang? --> Do you have a girlfriend?
Khun yak pai tiaw gab phom mai? --> Would you like to go out with me?
Pen faen gab phom mai? --> Would you be my girlfriend?
Kuen nee --> Tonight
Khun wang mai Khrup? --> Are you free?
Kuen nee jer-gan dai mai? --> Can I see you tonight?
Sexy --> Sek-see
Tao rai --> How much?
Ja jer-gan dee mong dee --> What time would you like to meet?
nHuay --> Tired
Young mai set --> Have to go on working a little
Tang ngan --> Marry
Tam ngan --> Work
Yang --> Yet
Non --> Sleep
Lub --> Sleep
Fun dee --> Dreams
waan --> Sweet
Lub fun dee --> Sweet dreams
Ra tee sa wad --> Good night
Klang wan --> Day
Klang kuen --> Night
Kuen nee --> Tonight
Wan nee --> Today
Ja --> Going to or will
Krung Thep --> Bangkok
Ja pai yang? --> Shall we go yet?
Wan jan --> Monday
Wan ang karn --> Tuesday
Wan put --> Wednesday
Wan pa rue hat --> Thursday
Wan suk --> Friday
Wan sao --> Saturday
Wan ar tit--> Sunday
Soon --> 0
Neng --> 1
Song --> 2
Sam --> 3
See --> 4
Ha --> 5
Hock --> 6
Jet --> 7
Phat --> 8
Kao --> 9
Sip --> 10
Sip ed --> 11
Sip song --> 12
Yee sip --> 20
Yee sip ed --> 21
Yee sip song --> 22
Yee sip sam --> 23
Sam sip ed --> 31
See sip ed --> 41
Ha sip ed --> 51
Neng roi --> 100
Song roi --> 200
Neng pan --> 1000
Jep --> Hurt
Chob --> Like
Duang ta --> Eye balls
Phom chob duang ta kong khun --> I like your eyes
Set laew --> Finish or done
La gon --> Goodbye
Mak mak --> So much
Pam yak lean pood pasa thai --> I want to learn to speak thai
Wang wa khun mai yang? --> I hope you are not too busy.
Mai --> No
Not --> Mai chai
Bang --> Ending word for (yang rai) --> How?
Phom kit theung ter --> I missed you

Hmmm.... my compilation so far. If I master all these I should be able to have a decent chat with a stranger. Besides learning thai and finishing up my Cirriculum vitae, I also wanted to work out in the evening so I had a 4.30p.m dinner. Tonight work-out was one of the best I ever had so far. I cant be stopped. Whenever I wanted the ball in the basket, the ball gets in the basket. It felt good to play well. The experience of having shots go in one after another was unbelievable. The weight and responsibility of getting points for the team rested on my shoulders and the responsibilities felt good.

Came back home, had a little snack of fish soup, typed this Blog entry. I think Im done for the day. God please bless me. Give me the courage to carry on with life.

Day 2: Life moves On

2008-02-26T02:57:00.000-08:00

I awoke at 9 a.m today to the gentel cold breeze of the Morning. I told myself I am going to work out and accompanied my mother to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve to have a hike along it's forest paths so we (the whole family) can have some exercise. We dragged my brother along too! Kudos! Armed with both water bottles and towels, we took her van to the destination. It was a huge place and we purposely choose a long track. We experienced up-slopes of up to 250 continous steps and steepy, dangerous down-slopes. It was a good workout. The air in the forest was brisk and refreshing, it filled our lungs with all the goodness and renewed vigor.

Occasionally as we walked along the path, we came across clearings that overlooked the whole of Bukit Timah Nature Reserves and the civilisation beyond and it was a breathtaking sight that filled my heart with awe. This sorts of natural views gave me the courage to let go and move on with the relationship I have with WGLP.

Now, its was not an easy walk but when it was over, the experience was well worthit. Tired but it doesn't matter. It was fulfilling. You know how you get the feeling that after you have done a certain feat, you realise that the possibilities to go on to achieve greater things are achievable? That was how I felt. After the hike we proceed over to the Bukit Timah Market where there are rows and rows of endless foodstalls and varieties for us to choose. We bought 3 plates of Wanton mee, 3 plates of Dou hua and shared a plate of white Chai tou Kway. When we reached home, it was already 12.30 p.m.

After bathing, I came online. This was when I saw that WGLP MSN nickname had a (Ter Kit Theung Chan mai?) in it. Ter = You, Kit Theung = Miss, Chan = me, mai is usually used as a ending word for a question. I replied her "Yes, Phom Kit Theung Ter" meaning Yes, I miss you. I think because of that, She changed nickname... *Im such a loser! Her nickname in MSN changed to "Jer pai Krung Thep, Jer pai Kab chan mai?". Ja/Jer = going to, pai = go, Krung Thep = Bangkok, Kab = with, Chan = me, mai... well it is already written on top. Meaning she is going to Bangkok, anyone wants to go with her? I replied yes, I would love to. Then she said it is unconfirmed yet as everyone was busy. We didnt speak again after that.

Well you can imagine I was very free at that time. Still there are things to settle and The Goals to meet so I might as well spend my time well. I decided to research my way to a good Resume and Cirriculum Vitae as I needed to get a job to pass my time. In the meantime, I decided to also find a Thai friend with which to pick up the Thai language and I found a forum with a chatroom and many pleasant Thai citizens and expat with whom to chat with. This is the link.
http://english-thai-dictionary.com/index.php?PHPSESSID=e913710558c18a0dbfb66ec338bcbf22&action=pfchat

Through the grace of god, I met a person who goes by the name of Oil. Immediately, Oil became my Shi Fu in my quest to yak lean pood pasa Thai. yak = want to, lean = learn, pood = speak, pasa thai = Thai language. We spoke online through MSN and I struggled to maintain a conversation in Thai. Oil was very patient and whenever I could not continue a conversation, I will ask what would the next sentence be spoken like in thai and give a english word. These happen during the entire conversation and still, Oil would translate it for me. If I keep this up, I think I will be able to speak really good given a few weeks. I am glad I have a friend like Oil. I can't help but think back to WGLP. She have this friend whom she has told me knew in her previous school who also goes by the name of Oil. I seriously wonder if it is the same person, because the Oil I knew is in Thailand and she is in Krung Thep. Maybe WGLP want to contact Oil and confirm this? Hmmm....

Anyway... Last week (the day she wanted to separate), I joined my family for dinner, we decided to exercise the next week. Hence we went to the community center and decided to book the badminton hall for a Badminton session. I think its a good thing to once again be able to spend quality time with family doing things like playing Badminton instead of locking myself in my room and enjoying the air-conditioning all the time. The session will be on this Sunday from 4 p.m to 5 p.m.

I guess there was a message from God to me all these while. When you have lost something, you see the problems in all the others. I saw the problem in my whole life. I have finally got the hidden messages.

"Do your best and God will do the rest" - Wu Gui Lao po

Day 1: Faced with Reality

2008-02-24T22:07:00.000-08:00

The breakup was yesterday but the impact never came till the clock stroked 12a.m. I sat at my sorry a$$ at computer desk in the living room, hard disk plugged into the CPU, scrolling through pictures after pictures of WGLP and me. I cant help but reminisce about the times we had spent with each other, good and bad for the past 3 years together. The idyllic tune of the song "Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)" by Craig David was playing in the background. Listening to the words of the songs, following the lyrics, my heart began to disintegrate and scatter like sand to wind. I have never heard a song so perfectly describing the separation that I have just experienced.

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me Kompletely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Granted. I knew you wanted to spend more time with your friends. I knew you had a stressful week with your final exams and I knew you have been busy with your work. I was selfish and uncompromising and that was wrong.

Comeing back to Bukit Panjang after my brother spoke some sense to me and clear my mind, Babygirl I knew what a terrible mistake I made.

Had dinner with her tonight. We didnt speak much it seems like there was nothing for us to say to each other anymore. But does she know that the silence we had was sweet silence? I don't care weather we are talking or not. As long as I can still see her, I'm happy.

"The quickest way to receive love is to give; The fastest way to lose love is if you hold it too tightly; And the best way to keep love is to give it wings. " - Anonymous