Day 35: Tears in Church - Touched by the words of God

Woke up at 7.30a.m. Left the house, grabbed a bun and was on my way to attend first service at new creation church with Sam Loo. Reached the church just on time, same as last week he reserved a seat for me. First service in New creation consist of the general Auditorium, the overflow rooms, two cinema halls right beside the church and the a convention center hall* I think... We got the seat in one of the cinema. The place was the fifth row left side corner seat.

Notice that there was a girl seating directly 2 rows infront of me, also at the corner seat. She was sitting alone worshipping the lord... It got me thinking... Why would a young, cool looking girl be attending first service, sit in a corner and be alone? Something must be going on in her life...

Got through the wonderful service as usual. As Pastor Jospeh Prince preached his message, the hall was not like its normal self. There was quietness, without the usual laughter and amen. So the pastor shared decided to share with us a little bit more, something extra and out of the messaged. This extra bit meant a whole lot to me. It hit at a spot directly in my heart and I was moved to tears. Praise the lord! I am just going to share this message with all reading my Blog.

He did not show the passage but he was referring to this... "Then two robbers were crucified with Him, one on the right and another on the left. And those who passed by blasphemed Him, wagging their heads. ... Even the robbers who were crucified with Him reviled Him with the same thing." Matthew 27:38-39,44 and this... "Then one of the criminals who were hanged blasphemed Him, saying, "If You are the Christ, save Yourself and us." But the other, answering, rebuked him, saying, "Do you not even fear God, seeing you are under the same condemnation? And we indeed justly, for we receive the due reward of our deeds; but this Man has done nothing wrong." Then he said to Jesus, "Lord, remember me when You come into Your kingdom." And Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you, today you will be with Me in Paradise." Luke 23:39-43.

Why was I moved to tears by this you ask? Well it was what the pastor said. He says that there was a message that we should get out of this. The first robber was living in the past. He was condemned by his Guilt. The past is robbing him of the present. It was robbing him of the quality of life. It was robbing him of ALL THE GOOD, all the blessings, all the benefits, why? Because he was living in the past. He blames himself, he condemns himself in the process giving the devil to have the power and space to work with. The devil was originally unarmed by God on the cross but the robber was putting the weapon right back into the Devil's arm. He could have received Jesus right there and then but he did not. Why not? Because he had condemnation in his heart. His past actions played a part in influencing his desicion not to accpet Jesus and he did not understand that Jesus is the center of everything. I short, the first robber was living a life of If only... If only I have done this... If only I have done that...

It got me thinking about my breakup with Eugenia... It got me thinking of the If only... If only I do this... I will still have her by my side, attending this service with me... If only I do that, we would not have separated... This matter was heavy in my heart always. I then thought about how it was affecting my quality of life, how condemning myself covering me from all the benefits of the lord, of an improve quality of life, of quality friends and loving family. I realise that I was living in the past... Immediately, my thought was... I shall stop living in the past. I shall live in the future. Maybe we'll get back together some day. Maybe...

The pastor then followed up with the second robber. Yes, he say was the second Robber pure? No he was not. He was living in the future... Christianity is about living in the NOW. He says that the the second robber was living in the future... To him, it is the same, his life is all about what if... What if I do this.... What if I do that.... It got me thinking... What if I do this... maybe we'll still be together... The only difference between this two robbers is... That one received him. One rejected him. Thats is the only Sin. The Sin of Rejection of Christ.

The he says... What we should do is to live in the now. Receive him now, and be cleared of condemnation. Who is he who Condemns! Says Paul in Heaven, hell and Earth. WHo is he who condemns, If you have Christ in you, who is he who condemns you! Who is he who gives you disease! Who is he who critizes you, who is he who beat you down with false accusation. No one. No one can come against the righteousness of God and the Righteousness of God's only Son and the bible says "As he is, so are you in this world" referring to Jesus Christ so if God is incorruptible, so are you.

Amen!

Day 34: How Gracious did that Grace appear, the Hour I first Believed

Woke up at noon today. Ate a good breakfast and sat infront of the computer. Slacked all the way till evening watching video about the correct technique to Shoot a Basketball. It was good entertainment and good information.

Went down at 6.pm to play basketball. Was earlier then usual. Played all the way till 10.30pm. Had a awesome time playing. How did my game get so consistent lately? Oh man... Keep this up and I might have a starting place if we can play in the Mini Salvation Army League.

Going to Church tomorrow. Have past the book "Destined to Reign" to my beloved brother a few days ago and I am hearten to see that he has been reading it. God bless him and may he get enlighten and be broken free of the chains of law and accept the Grace of Christ. May his life be filled with good things because he is in Christ. May he be made Totally righteous by God because of his new believed in right living. Right believing leads to right living. May God bless him and his Girlfriend Zhao Xin with a wonderful Romance. May they never forget that having such a wonderful relationship is not of their own doing. It is a gift from God. It's God's Grace.

All Praises to God. =)

Day 33: Good things happen when you are in Christ

Woke up at 7.20a.m. today, had a slight breakfast and left the house. Was not late of course. Called the remaining company on the list and asked Sebastian for a new one.

-_-' The new list ah... Wa dun wan to talk about it la!!!! So Kang Kor one!!!!!

Sebastian told me that the new list quota is 16 per hour for Data entry. Erm... Lets see what I clocked... 16 for 4 hours?

Sebastian took a half day leave, So when i encountered problems halfway through, I approached SheMali. We called her that because she had a fearsome reputation and people being mean called her a SheMale. Know what I mean?

But it turns out that she was really nice and Gracious. Halfway through I told her I was half dieing working on the list, she asked me why and I explained everything. Then She told me that things like that happen because the Competitors of Terrapinn may sometimes upload a extra Kang Kor list so as to waste our time at the research department chasing useless leads. She told me that she will take care of it and not to worry about the quota and just do what I am doing. God Bless her. Wont call her names anymore. :P

Came home, when out again to play Basketball. Have an awesome time playing, scored a couple of beauties, missed a couple but have a consistent game throughout.

All praise to God. =)

Day 32: Tomorrow is " I love you " Day... Or So I heard...

Woke up at 7.15a.m today, brushed my teeth, bathed, ate a bit of breakfast and left the house. Train was crowded but I still managed to get onto the train. As usual, I was not late.

Reached office rather early, Angela showed me my new seat, which was just opposite that of my first seat in the office. Gin was also placed in a different seat really near by so we joked around while we make our calls.

Ate Lor Mee today. It was wonderful. Going to have Duck noodle tomorrow. Woohoo!

Met my targets. For the first 4 hours of work, I hit 12 per hour (The average is 8). For the next four hour, I hit 8 per hour.

Went home, continued reading "Destined to Regin". I love this Book and will pass this to my brother the first person after Im done reading.

She messaged me today with a text message... Im just going to type out what it says... "Tomorrow is national i love you day. That you get this message means you are loved. Send this to 10 people in the next 15 minutes and tomorrow will be your best day ever. Tonight at midnight, your true love will realize that he or she loves you. Something will happen to you at 1 - 4 pm tomorrow. It could be anything get ready for the biggest shock of your life. If you break this chain, you will be cursed forever."

Well for one I have plenty to say to this message. For old times sake to her, I shall refrain from any foul language or message her directly less she takes it personally. Here's what I am going to say.

Tomorrow is national i love you day.
First off... "I don't think there is a National I love you day. This is dumb. You don't have to have a day to say I love you. You can say it anytime!"

That you get this message means you are loved.
Secondly... "What about those that did not get this message? They are not loved? The truth is they still are. All of us are loved by God. We are all loved since he made us righteous through Christ.

Send this to 10 people in the next 15 minutes and tomorrow will be your best day ever.
Thirdly... "Load of Bullsh}t."

Tonight at midnight, your true love will realize that he or she loves you.
Fourthly... "So what? If your true love LOVES you, it doesn't make a difference if you do not love him back. I love you deeply Eugenia. But that doesn't mean you'll come back. Why bother realizing who you love except for the Lord? The only Deep Unending love is in the Lord Jesus Christ who gives you back unlimited fold and I thank you for Helping me Find him.

Something will happen to you at 1 - 4 pm tomorrow. Fifth... "I'll tell you what is going to happen. You'll are going to receive calls from your customers, get more work and hassle from the office and run up and down the office taking orders and goods. Thats what is going to happen this time tomorrow."

It could be anything get ready for the biggest shock of your life.
Sixth... "Yes, not much brain is needed to write "It could be anything" if one is talking about the FUTURE!... But yes... Its always good to Get Ready.

If you break this chain, you will be cursed forever.
LAST... "Why Risk It? Accept the Lord Jesus Christ in your life now and be relieved of all cursed forever, The father who forgives all of your inquities, who heals all your disease, who redeems your life from destruction, who showers you with loving Kindness and Tender Mercy and whom satisfy your mouth with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagles!"

The devils wants you to think you are in power of yourself, that you are in control of your own life because if you do that, you move further away from God. You are made righteous by God through Jesus Christ and by Jesus name, remove these evil words of Cursed and let it be Replaced by The Grace for the bible says The law is given to David but Grace and Truth came by Jesus Christ. Grace CAME, not give. Grace is a thing. It is a person. It is a Savior, a messiah. And his name is Jesus, Jesus Chirst.

Day 31: Graduated.

Woke up at 10.30a.m today. It is graduation day so i have to report to the school by 11.45a.m.

Ate lunch and when to school. Spoke to Nadzim and his Mother as I stepped into school. The second person I saw was Carolyn, her mom and dad, Jaslyn and some other friends. Continued my walk and saw Buk. Said Hello and when to register at The Republic Cultural Center.

I saw my group of friends there, Zhao, Eric, Shawn, Sam Kuang and Sam Loo. It was nice to see them. Saw Alan too, one of my FYP friends. As I was talking to Alan, Bernie came up to the two of us and said Hi...

Registered my number along with the rest of the guys and when to queue up. The system is such that each of us have a number. When we go to the backstage, we queue up according to our number till everyone is in line. Then we move according to the sequence up to the stage to collecct our Diploma and take a photograph.

Had quite a good chat with the guy beside me, Alan and the girl to my right, Yahui. At the end of the show, took pictures with my brother, my mom and dad, Miss Hon Sook Mei, Zhao and Wenjie, Bernie, Alan, Hafiz and Carolyn as well as a few other person. It was nice talking to them, interacting with them. I missed all of em.

Went with my parents, brought them to the 3rd floor canteen to try the Taiwan Delights. We ordered 4 different meals and they had a taste of all of them. Then we took a walk at the sports halls and all around the different location in school and they had a good sightseeing.

Does not have the time to upload the photos for everyone to see. I will upload sometimes soon.

Came home and play basketball. We played with a group of different people today. I think they came from Jurong. There was this amazingly cute girl I was guarding and whom was guarding me throughout. Praise the Lord eh?!

Going to sleep now. Going to work tomorrow. All glory to God, My savior, My lord.

Day 30: My Chains are Gone

Woke up at 7.20a.m today. Had breakfast and off I am to work. Missed two trains today but by the Grace of God I arrived on work on time.

In my head I remember what I have read in "Destined to Reign". I give all my trust, my beliefs, everything and place them in God's hands. For if you do that, you will be under the waterfall of God and God will cleanse you and you shall shine brightly of his Righteousness and of his Grace.

I achieved my quotas Effortless and Easily.

Ate the most amazing Prawn noodle today. Next time, I shall try the lor mee from the same stall.

Went home, missed another two train but I am not in a rush anyway so no harm done. I also got more reading done on the train. Reading the book was just like attending one of Pastor's sermons. You can tell how excited he is to be preaching the words of Grace and I feel deeply inspired by his words. No longer will I be Condemned. I am made Righteous by God through Jesus.

Ate a nice and filling dinner, came online and relax. Tomorrow is graduation. Hope to see all my friends. I love em All.

Dear heavenly father, I thank you for the cross of Jesus. I thank you that today, because of Jesus' blood, I have been forgiven of all my sins, past, present and future. Today, You are merciful to my unrighteousness, and all my sins and lawless deeds, You will remember no more. You see me as completely Righteous, not because of what I have done but because of Jesus. I am greatly blessed, highly favoured and deeply love by you. Amen.

Day 29: Joy of Joys

Woke up at 7.20a.m. today by my mom. Turns out that I have slept slightly Late. Bathe and got dressed and out of the house at 7.50a.m. I was not late though, the train seems to be slightly less packed then I thought.

Reached office, went to Angela for a list. She gave me one with more then 180 companies in it. I have to search for the office details, typed them down and when everything is down, I have to call em up. Haha... AH well... Work ma!

Ate breakfast with my new friends. Gin, Song and Rafeal. They are funny guys and we had a good lunch. I'm going to try the prawn Noodle tomorrow. Hohoho...

Came back on the train reading the book "Destined to Reign" By Pastor Prince. It gave me revelation and strengten my faith.

Had dinner with my mother at the coffeeshop downstairs. I ate sweet sour Fish rice + Egg and my mom had Hor fun.

Funny thing was throughout the day, the worship songs were always in my head, particularly Amazing Grace (My chains are gone) and as my head keep playing the song over and over, I found myself singing along with it. As I sang, I remember the bountiful, plentiful treasures of God which we are all part of the inheritance and my heart filled with Joy. This feeling of Joy Im still experiencing as I type this message.

Going to read the book for a little while and go to Bed. May God bless everyone I know and may everyone be part of God's wonderful Inheritance.

"Blessed be the man to whom the lord shall not Impute Sins"

That is us, the people of the new covenant of Grace, whose sins have been washed off by the Blood of Jesus when he died on the cross. When God see us now, He see Jesus.

Halelujah!

Day 28: You were made Righteous by God through Christ

Woke up at 7.10a.m. today. Wanted to go to church and listen to the message of God and oh boy am I glad I went today. Had a small little breakfast with my father. I ate 5 of those small small char chao pao and had a cuppa of coffee while chatting a little with my father. It was good.

Went to take the LRT to Choa Chu Kang then the green line to City hall. Reached there at around 9a.m. The prayer was already in session and they were singing. Thank god I made it to this song called Amazing Grace (My chains are gone). It is a different rendition of Amazing Grace that sounds simply amazing.

Ok let's cut to the chase. I know you don't read long messages so here is my compilation of the sermon today in a simple 10 minutes read.

Pastor Joseph Prince today want to tell the Church about what God is doing right now as we speak in this world.The first phrase is this: II Peter 3:8 "With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day." - This is the year 2008. Two thousands years has past so to God, this is like his third day in charge at the office. And what happens on the third day? Read the next two verse.

Hosea 6:2 "After two days will he revive us: in the third day he will raise us up, and we shall live in his sight."Hosea 6:3 "Then shall we know, [if] we follow on to know the LORD: his going forth is prepared as the morning; and he shall come unto us as the rain, as the latter [and] former rain unto the earth."

On the third day he will raise us up and we shall live in his sight. Hosea verse three says that his going forth is prepared as the morning. Means he will come early on the third day and the year 2008 is the early part of the third day which means... He Is Coming To Raise Us Up Soon! Ok. But ask the question... How will he raise us up? The magic is in the next phrase.

Amos 9:11 "In that day will I raise up the tabernacle of David that is fallen, and close up the breaches thereof; and I will raise up his ruins, and I will build it as in the days of old"

Now what is the Tabernacle of David? Tabernacle means something like a Temple. So its the Temple of David, the guy slain the Goliath and became king. Tabernacle of David means the temple which David erected to glorify God. The Pastor then bring us to this... That there are Two different Tabernacle in the bible. 1: The Tabernacle of Moses, 2: The Tabernacle of David. The Tabernacle of Moses refers to The 10 Commandments, the laws of Christianity. The Tabernacle of David refers to the Grace of God. And the Law and Grace cannot work together. It can only work in one way for in the bible, look at the next verse...

John 1:17 "For the law was given by Moses, but grace and truth came by Jesus Christ."

And what is grace? Grace is a person. Grace is Jesus Christ. You notice that the law is given which signify some distance but Grace and truth came by Jesus. Grace and truth came as a Man and as a God. He came to earth as Jesus Christ. Grace IS Jesus Christ. And when God says he will raise up the Tabernacle of David that is Fallen he is saying he Will race up A new Covenant of Grace. Not the 10 Commandments but Grace. Why not the 10 Commandments? Read the next verse.

Hebrews 10:12 - 14 "But this man, after he had offered one Sacrifice for Sins forever, sat down at the right hand of God...... For by one offering, he has perfected forever those who are being Sanctified."

Jesus sat down at the right hand of God! Sitting down means the job is done. It is a Finished work! It is a gesture that all has past. Its is Grace. After reading this verse, consider that the Priest whom has always practice that to be worthy of God, you have to be cleansed and free of Sins. They can only stand in the presence of the lord and cannot rest. In the Tabernacle of Moses, there was no chairs, nothing with which to rest because the Tabernacle of Moses believe in the 10 Commandments, and unless you fulfill the ten commandments, you cannot be worthy of God but it is Wrong because the Bible tells us that when Jesus was nailed onto the cross, All the condemnation, all the disease, all the sickness and negativity and all the plagues and pain was all thrown unto him, who is Truly THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS FULFILLED THE 10 commandments, whom died bearing all our sins the past, present and future and such that we are all made righteous by god through the blood of Christ.

God accepts anyone into his arms. Anyone. People who Sin, people who are bad, he accepts and Love everyone for if The lord doesn't accept them and give Salvation and peace to them, who else have the power to?

This is the new covenant of Grace my friend. Do not live in the old covenant of the Law. Step into the Living, All you have to do is to Embrace God and reap his riches.

God Loves you.

Went shopping around for a little while in the Rock Auditorium New creation Bookstore. I bought a book titled "Destined to Reign" by Pastor Joseph Prince and read it. Its truly quite insprirational all glory to god.

I returned home, relax for a bit and when out to work out. We played badminton for two hours. My brother won 1 round and I won the other. Ate chicken rice after that. Came back home, caught a bit of TV and came back home.

We went to the nearby coffeeshop to watch the liverpool Man U game. Man U won 3-0. Yea... Its God plans though I'm a Liverpool Fan.

Going to sleep now, I hope that this will be a week of fulfillment and since we are made new in the eyes of God, we have renewed youths like the eagle. God bless all of us. God bless her. =)

Day 27: Hanging out with the Dudes!

Woke up at 1p.m. Purposely slept late cause I knew I had nothing to do if I wake up, might as well get more rest. Ate breakfast, came online and settled my province then went back to my room to cut newspaper. Got through one stack before I got bored.

Went online again, caught The Eye starring Jessica Alba on Movie6.net. It scored an "Okay" rating to me though Jessica Alba looks totally awesome. I felt that the Asian version was much more scary then the Hollywood English version. The plot was confusing at the start but it all unravels near the climax of the show.

After watching the show went out with the Dudes! Samuel Kwang, Samuel Loo, Shawn and Eric. We first had dinner at this place called Chicago Steak house. I ordered the Fish and chip which was surprising good and filling. Eric had the Belly good chicken which he gave positive reviews about. Sam Loo had Beer aromatic Fish and chip, Sam Kwang had some spaghetti chicken thing and Shawn had the grilled chicken breast which he mentioned were so hard its difficult to swallow. We had a Breaded soup and a seafood platter as sides. The amount went up to $92 dollars for 5 person and I paid $20 for it.

As we walked along Cine leisure, we saw Bernie and her boyfriend and a group of friends.

Movie cost $10. We decided to catch Rule number one which was an Asian paranormal cop flick starring Shawn Yue and Fiona Xie. I thought the movie started quite impressively and Fiona Xie as usual was Hot. Almost all the show best scenes came with her in it. :P It was fun watching the show with the other guys though we were sitting in the first row. They were fooling around as usual especially when the Ghost is about to show up. There was some pretty good scares too you know... those scenes where the Ghost will just jump out from nowhere and the music suddenly becomes a high pitched screaming or everything went completely silent for a moment?

After the show we went window shopping. I spotted the TV drama House. Feel like buying it when my pays come. I think I will get all three seasons amounting to a cost of $300. Hmm......

Came home at around 12.45a.m. Updated the blog. Have to wake up early, going to church again tomorrow.

From what I heard from her I think she is going to Malaysia this weekend with her Uncle Dennis, Uncle Eric, Aunty Suzanne and Aunty Joyce. They are driving up to KL to shop around and eat. I hope they have a save trip and lots of fun.

Thank you lord for a blessed day.

Day 26: ... I need Help

Woke up at Noon today. Nothing much, ate breakfast and come online. Relaxed the whole day, recuperating, getting my will and motivation back to face another gruelling week, came online, got my provinces taken care of and just lazed around all the way till evening.

Went downstairs to play basketball despite the sky looking a shade of greyish black. Confirmed will rain! But... well well well, there was no rain. We got to play all the way till 10p.m and all praise to the lord for that.

Basketball was just fun. I had a great time playing, making crucial shots and attacking the basket. I think my game has become more consistent lately and I hope we can form a team to play in the Salvation army league one day.

God bless.

"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." - Romans 12:12

Day 25: Some new friends?

Woke up at 6.55a.m today. Decided to see if going another 5 minutes earlier will help with the MRT congestion. Guess what... It didn't help. None at all! It was still jammed packed.

Reached office at 8.40a.m. Got my file and decided to start work early. Maybe I can hit my quota without a problem if I put in a little more effort. Guess what? It was a breeze! With the help of my good friend Zhong Kai yesterday, he helped me with some chinese terms which I learned quickly, I was able to brush aside all the China companies quickly. I finished 4 list of participants today.

Went to Angela and requested a new list. She gave me 3 instead. All of the people in the list were from India. I had to call them up. I guess it was better. In one of the list, ALL the companies except for one did not pick up the phone, which I think is pathetic. Ate lunch today with 3 other guys, One is called Rafeal, another is called Song. I forgot the name of the third one. They were all waiting to be enlisted, seemed pretty cool and it was nice to have some friend. There was a new temp staff sitting beside me today. She is our age and seemed to be struggling with calling others. I guess everyone started out like that. We didn't speak, talk or looked at each other.

However as I was going home, walking to the MRT, I spotted her on the phone waiting for someone. She smiled and waved at me so I guess she knows who I was. Maybe we'll go for lunch someday.

Reached home and had a good dinner with my family. Spoke to my brother about some interesting experience I have during my work. I hope to have a good Friday tomorrow.

"Money is like Sex, the more you have it, the Weaker it gets" - Steven Lim Chee Yong (My Dear Brother)

Day 24: $126 in the bag

Woke up at 7.00a.m. today. Decided to leave 5 mins earlier for work to see how the situation is like. Guess what? Nothing changed. Its still so packed!

But still, reached office earlier then 9.00a.m. and as usual there was no people in the office. Spent a good part of my day stuck doing a sheet full of chinese companies. When for lunch alone as usual and went home at 6.00p.m.

Ate dinner with Her today at Farrer park. It was a sweet dinner and we had a good time chatting with each other about our old days. She looks totally awesome. Worn the same jacket as the day we went out last sunday. Also had a brown skirt and a purple top underneath (I think). Talking and joking to Her remind me of the good old days we had with each other. I missed it. I missed her...

Day 23: First day at work

Woke up at 7.10a.m. today, bathe and had breakfast and left the house at 7.40a.m. The train was packed like a can of sardine. Made a mental note to myself to leave the house slightly earlier like at 7.30 to see how the situation is like.

Reach the office at around 8.45a.m. There was no one around so I sat in one of the meeting room waiting for Angela to breif me on where to sit and what to work on. Believe it or not, no one came into the office till 8.55a.m, work officially starts at 9.00p.m. So well she came in, gave me a list to work on, got a table for myself with a nice computer, a nice phone and a nice view of some Chio Bus so I was naturally contended. Made the first call within 5 mins.

It was a total fluke. I was so unprepared on what to tell the other person on the other line that I keep stammering and stuttering. Of course, that person did not reveal to me the names of the CEO, managing director, head of vaccine manufacturing or head of business development. No fools would! But after that call, I had a better idea of how to start my conversation and wrote it down on the paper.

For the rest of the call, it was a simple task of chanting what is on the paper that I wrote on, typing in the details of the people and adding comments at the back. I finished the excel sheet in by about 4.00p.m. By that time I was growing bolder and bolder in my conversation and manage to have some fun.

Lunch was at two slot, 12 to 1, or 1 to 2. I choose the one at 1 to 2. Have to eat lunch alone so it was pretty sad, I went to the hawker center opposite and dabao chai fun back to the office pantry, then sat at my desk and slacked till 2pm. before starting work again. The working condition does not support the making of friends. Seating all around me are executives person looking grouchy and slamming the phone, making angry remarks it is a little tense all around me.

Anyway got another list from this guy call Sebestian. This was easier to work with everything was there already all the contact and email and addresses, I have to verify them. Did not finish by 6p.m. which is my knock off time though and will continue the next day.

Today I made a lot of international calls. *Vomitted blood when I speak to people from some country... mainly India, Vietnam and France. The people in India I speak to simply transferred me the moment I said "Hello! My name is Chee Han" and they will reply "Oh give me a second sir" and I will be transferred to another person. There seems to be not much of Enlish speaking people in Vietnam because when I call them, there will be a language barrier because we both could not understand it other so the whole conversation will be like... "Huh? What did you say... ok... ya... Mr Anderson... What that is the address? No wait... Who is that person? Whats his name.... Huh?... Uh huh... No wait..." yea you know what I mean. And last but not least... The people I spoke to in France will usually direct me to someone from anther country. So it goes like this..."Hi, My name is Chee Han, can I speak to a Chief executive officier or managing director in your office?" and they would go like "Oh I'm sorry I don't speak English really well... I will direct you to this person in the Head office in London, she speaks very well and can understand you... her name is ____" -_-' France to London!

Anway... its $63 dollar earned for a hard day work. God bless me with a good day tomorrow.

Day 20, Day 21, Day 22: Mighty Weekend - As He is so are You in this world! - Continuation

There were some problems with the uploading of pictures. Look at the entry below: Sunday March 16 before continuing with this post to get a complete picture. =)

Anyway here are the pictures of the Sanddab or a fish that is similar in species. Spot the eyes? Next on the list is another huge crab... Turbo something, I forgot the name but gosh I would love to try this the next time I come back to the restaruant. The whole tank could only fit three of these. My last two pictures show the beautiful pure white Snow crab and abalone as it is before it is on the plate. :P

After dinner we took a walk at the nearby village and walkway. It was a nice sight. Nearby the Kampong there was a swampy mangrove and we took some nice pictures there. Everything was well preserved and definitly worth a trip to see and experience for yourself.

Then it was home sweet home, back on the bus...

Reached Gombak at exactly 8.00p.m. As usual, my crazy friends decided they did not have enough fun and went downstairs immediately to throw some hoops, urgeing me to go along... Peer pressured... Went down and within 10 mins, it rained. So I thought I can finally go home. But no, my crazy friends decided that no rain can stop their fun so they called another fellow basketballer who drives a van down and we took the van to the indoor court.

Indoor court has more then 20 players so we had to queue and as we already have 10 players ourselves, we have to take turns so did not end up playing much. Came home at 11 plus, got too tired, didn't write on my blog, just settled seom Utopia stuff and went to sleep at around 1a.m. Remember I'm going out with Her again the next day?

Woke up at 7.00a.m. Felt really tired and lethargic but hey! Im going out with HER today... So got up in a gifty, bathed and got dressed in a pair of jeans and black polo Ts and left the house. Left by 7.15a.m. and got there by 8.15a.m. She was slightly late. She wore a Black color sweater with white top underneath, light brown skirt and looks Radiant. When we reached New creation at 8.30a.m, we were told that the place have been filled though service only starts at 9.00a.m. Instead we have a choice of going to the overflow rooms or to the cinema where there is a live showing. We felt that it was quite special having a service in the cinema besides the auditorium and decided to give it a go. Cinema at Suntec is ok la... not bad.

We sat and I gave her the laptop cleaning kit I promised to buy her. At first she was quite hesitant to receive the gift but took it anyway (As I predicted)... Then before long, the service started and after some beautiful Song, Pastor Joseph Prince took to the stand to spread the message of God.

He encouraged the church to pray in tongues and gave many examples of passages from the Bible to back up his point. He says that praying in tongues helps build the temple of god, which is our body. It helps to repair, restore and build the body and it is much the same as praying before eating. To let God restore the nutrients that may be lost in the food. He told us that you cannot stop people from saying negatives or cursing and that cursing satisfy the flesh. He quoted some passages in the bible speaking of horses. The exact quote is this "Behold, we put bits in the horses' mouths, that they may obey us; and we turn about their whole body.." He says that the only way to stop cursing, stop saying negatives is to speak in the Tongue, to fill our mouth with The Good. He also says that once we fill our mouth with the good as come from the passage, "Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's" Our youths will be renewed like the eagles back to our adolescent age as was referenced to the hebrew word in the bible. The messaged was powerful and strong and all of us were blessed with a wonderful week.

After coming out of the service, she told me she was hungry and I told her to follow me. She thought I was bringing her to some place expensive and told me that I do not need to spend money on her anymore... She had no idea where I was going to bring her.

I brought her to the Suntec convention centre, 4th storey where there was a food and berverage fair there and it was the last day, hence there was plenty of good deals and freebies around for the stall holders to clear their stock. I learned of this place from my mom who bought dinner from there. I knew she would like the place and sure enough, she withdrew $150 from her bank to spend on this fair.

While walking around and chatting, she told me a little secret of hers, that she has fallen for this Guy called Maverick who is her classmate in School. She told me that Maverick likes her too and the feeling is mutual. She told me that after our break-up and after she has told her close girl friends about it, they starting pairing her with Maverick and the two soon hit off. She told me she would like to get something for him in the food fair and ask me what she should buy for him, Rou Gan or Bird's nest. I told her Rou Gan.

Yes... I admit I was heartbroken... I was sad, dejected but I decided not to let it get to me. I remembered pastor prince telling us that we are all a New Creation and not to spread negatives so I made a silent prayer to bless her and the new guy Maverick with a great love and a sweet one. My heart feel peace and a sense of calmness at the prayer.

Came back home to Bukit Panjang, my hideaway for the weekend, settled my utopia account and watch a movie about ancient china and the Shoulin Monastery with my father and went for dinner. When we came back, caught a Sharks tale on TV and some Taiwan zhong yi jie mou then came back home to sleep with the knowledge that I will be attending an interview the next day at 12.00p.m. at terrapin with Angela.

Woke up at 10.30a.m. today, bathe and dressed in a Long sleeve Eddie bauers shirt and jeans and left the house. Reached Harbourfront tower 1 18 floor at exactly 12.00p.m. noon, definitly on time. She briefed me on what to do the next day and I was quite clear. Basically just give a call to companies on the database, verify their contact information and ask for their Cheif executive officer, their managing director or their head of manufactoring detail and note them down. This was because terrapin is a company that organises international conference and they would like to send invites to company leaders to attend these conference. I was attached to the department of market research and my post was marketing researcher. Hmm... Sounds good!

After the meeting, came back home online to settle my utopia account, spoke to some of my friends online, worked on my blog and go to bed, right about now... Haha.

Bless everyone I know lord, abba, father... especially my brother, my father and mother and Eugenia and Maverick. You have a plan for all of us and I believe in you. Thank you for the mighty weekend and Thank you for securing me this job. All the praise goes to you. I will try my best in this job and lord give me a good rest tonight. In Jesus name... Amen.

Day 20, Day 21, Day 22: Mighty Weekend - As He is so are You in this world!

Woke up at 6.00a.m. in the morning for the Go-karting trip. Woke up, washed my faced, got dressed, prepared my things and left the house. Met Hong Siong, Hong Kian and Uncle Freddy for breakfast. We all went on the trip.

Waited at the CC for a while before boarding the bus, a while later, a Night Safari bus came into the CC and all the participant board it. I was quite surprised to see people of all ages there, there were some old aunties and some teenagers there. Some come as a group of friends while others came in families.

Travelled to Johor and with our new biometric passport, the whole procedure was very fast and efficient. Everyone got back onto the bus within 10mins. There we met a tour guide who frequents the Johor area. He told us the Itinery for the day and our first stop was breakfast. We stopped at this place where it is famous for its noodles. Its called Ah Koong Restaurant. I personally did not find the place fantastic, I thought everything was quite pricey and overrated.

As we got on the bus, I noticed some interesting advertisement pasted near the walls. From far it might look like any normal advertisement. However, on close inspection, they are all Advertisement set by Loan Sharks and gangs in Johor to entice people to borrow money from them to improve their business. If they did the same in Singapore, surely kena Fined and jailed!

After breakfast we then went to the Go-karting track. We then learned that the place was called Permas Jaya and there is a 1.3km long racing track there, the largest in Singapore. As we came off the track we saw a lot of stray dogs lazing around and the sound of Go-karts were quite defeaning. The track look majestic, nothing like the sort in Singapore. The track itself was quite big with many twist and turns. Our course has two hair-pin loops which the hardest and most tricky turn any driver can faced as we learned later. The two pictures that I added could hardly cover the whole track.

There were also a few gorgeous Go-karts around and I conviently took pictures with them. There was a Ferrari among the midst of the vechicles and this is quite special as compared to the other karts. It has gears, different tires and in a stream-lined shape to improve speed. The other go-karts look simply sleek and amazing as you can see. It felt good to be driving one. Lets just take a moment to admire those pictures... =)

As the first batch of guys took to the racing track, the rest of us went to the tower to watch to catch a bird eye view of the race. There were chairs there and being up like 2 storeys eyes give a clear view of the whole track. The actions were clear. Took some pictures with the dudes and here is the picture of my crazy jogging buddy Hong Siong.

Soon it was our turn at the go-kart. There was 2 session. The first ten minute was for us to get use to the track, its turn and the speed of the kart. It was for us to practice our track techniques and over-cutting other people and the second session was a timed session where we will compete against each other for the best time. Here is a picture of the results. I was Kart 67, Hong Kian was Kart 3 and the result to the left of Hong Kian was Uncle Freddy. Hong Siong's result was not in the list.

The race was exhilrating to say the least. The most problem I faced was at the hairpin loop as was likewise with the other guys. Racing is about breaking your limits and at the start, I went slower and slowly increase speed. However, it is not just about that. It is daring to do crazy things such as stepping on the pedals to go full speed and increasing the speed at impossible turns and near misses to the curb that makes it exciting. Making such turns at a high speed just throw your whole body to one side of the kart while it moved in the direction of your desire, the thrills was incredible. Also, I experience what it was like in the movie "Initial D" where drivers try to cut each other. The most difficult experience was trying to cut another driver while making a hairpin turn. The whole experience was awesome.

After the driving, we had a lunch of Fried rice, fried egg and Fried chicken wing, whilst it was clearly oily, the food was quite nice! The lunch place was at the course itself. After lunch, we decided to go shopping. The guide told us that the shopping destination was at a huge shopping mall called Jusco, which I learned is also a shopping place in many parts of the world including Bangkok! I could not find a camera angle to get the whole place so I took two pictures, I'll only show one. :P

The first thing we went was to the Arcade since we did not want to do any shopping. The things sold at Jusco was qutie expensive and I feel that I can find a better deal in Singapore. The arcade was not fun... We just spent our time there playing table soccer. We then decided to go for a drink. My throat was feeling uncomfortable since morning. My voice was hoarse, deep and my sputum was a dark green color though there was no pain. So I thought that as we were walking around, maybe we should find a place where there are some herbs I can eat which could make my throat better. We found a Chinese herbal restaruant and went in. I ordered two Gui Lin Gao which has the ingredient of turtle shell and a mixture of different herbs and my friend ate Black chicken soup which smelled really great. For those of you who do not know what is Gui Lin Gao, heres a picture of it. I also added pictures of the aftermath of our meal... Hee hee and the Front page of the menu where the name of the restaruant is clearly shown. The food is not bad at all and it is quite affordable. The Gui lin gao cost 5 ringgit and the Black chicken soup cost 30 ringgit.

After this little meal, we were off, back to the bus. This time, we are going for the much promising Seafood dinner. The place is by the beach, and we can see Senoko power station across the waters some distance away. It is located in a kampong village and there are two restaruants there that has the most exotic live seafood in huge aquarium. The place is famous for its crab and view at night, but too bad we had an early dinner. There were Fish head Fried Thai style, La la (Some kind of shellfish), Chilli crab, Butter prawn, Sambal Kang Kong, Egg Tofu (Which was marvellous), Lotus soup with Bak ku, White chicken, Some kind of vegetable, Fruits and free flow rice. Yum! Added a few picture of the location of the place.

Ok so now, I'm going to start raving about the seafood shown on display in their aquarium. They are caught live up from the aquarium and then cooked by the chefs in the kitchen. It was an absolute eye opener. The first picture is the Geoduck, also known as the King Clam. Compared those Geoducks to the size of the tank... Amazing. Next on show is the gigantic Fuji crab. It is only slightly smaller then the damn water tank. It is THAT huge! The next picture on show is the oysters, in their native forms and a whole tank if it was a magnificient sight indeed. The next picture shows Lobsters that are quite huge. There were a whole tank of them. Then there was this flat fish that looks very similar to the Sanddab. It is the first time I have seen this fish and I have never tasted it. Can you spot it's eye?

Day 19: All to look forward to

Woke up at 10.30a.m today. Came on and got the usual chores done, then came online to manage my utopia account. Everything seems pretty decent. Had a great breakfast then decided to go and settle my job thing by calling Angela.

She arranged for us to meet on Monday and brief us. Afterwards she told me she will try to let me start work immediately or I can start the next day. So job settled, now to move on to other things.

As I have a Go-kart trip on Sat, I decided to search for the receipt and started rummaging through my stuff. Found the receipt after a while.

I also decided to clear away one huge stack of newspaper. I ceived through the news, cutting out interesting medical articles and stored them carefully away. After going through that huge stack, I realise I have two piles of newspaper more to go through. But that is for another day of course...

Came online and as I was feeling bored, I decided to go watch a show on Movie6.net. Streamed Van wilder 2: The rise of Taj and it was great entertainment once again.

Went to Carolyn place in the evening to play Mahjong with her, Michelle and Zhong Kai. Won about 3 dollars playing 5 cents 10 cents. Then went to eat dinner at a nearby haunt having the most delicious Cheese prata there ever exist. The service there was terrible though and the dinner for 4 cost about $22.00. I paid $7.

Walked home from her house. The distance is roughly 3Km.

Cant wait for the Go-karting trip tomorrow. Cya!

Day 18: God sends me two lovely blessed Owls.

Woke up today at 9.15a.m by mom. She asked me if I wanted to go for a Hike at Bukit Timah Nature Reserve. I said no and went back to sleep.

As I turn around and pulled the blanket over my head, I asked myself why I said no to mom. Was it because I was lazy? Was it because I was too tired? What was it. Oh yea... My answer to my own question was... "Yes you are lazy. Get up."

So I raised my voice so that my voice could be heard all the way to the kitchen. "Mom wait for me!"

Got up, bathe and got dressed, grabbed a small sandwhich and out the door I am on the way to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve. We hike along Catchment path and when we paused to rest at one of the shelter, we spotted two Owls, perched on one of the branch, side by side almost touching, not moving as if they were sleeping soundly. It was a sweet sight. Now, it was not easy to spot those owls, they are a rare sight in the forest and few have ever spotted them. This is the first time I spotted them since I started hiking here 10 years ago. Thats right, I first stepped into the forest when I was like 10 years old.

As we moved through the forest, we met some of mom hiking buddies whom we always met at the Nature reserve, we ended up hiking together. Just then, it began to rain and we started searching for a shelter to keep us from getting drenched. As we were on the main track and the nearest shelter is in the forest, we ventured off path again and ended up at the shelter where we have seen the owls.

They were still there. Two of them, side by side almost touching and unmoving. The rain was pouring down on and yet, they did not move an inch. They were there on the branches and we were at the shelter, looking and admiring the sight. Soon, the rain stopped and the Sun came out again and we decided to move on.

Met some Monkeys along the way.

Come to think of it, the two Owls did gave me quite a bit of inspiration. Did God send these two blessed Owls to me to remind me that be it rain or shine, be there however much problems ahead or how much riches lies before me, to never run away from my partner and to stick with her through all the troubles, unmoving, rock steady, to be a pillar of strength and comfort to her just like God did to me? Eugenia Darling I'll stick with you through any endless downpour and any obstacles you faced and I'll be there to support you when times are rough or when no body believe you be I a lover or a friend. I'll always love you.

Came back in the afternoon, expected a call from Angela but she didn't call back. I think I would have to ring her tomorrow to arrange a meeting. Caught the movie Atonement in the evening. It was a really nice sad show with a great ending, beautiful costume, sets and wonderful acting. It totally deserves the Awards in the Academy awards. Keira Knightley Rocks.

Day 17: Feels like Yesterday

Woke up at 11a.m. today. Bath, had lunch and sat in front of the computer once more. Came online to Utopia. My province is coming along nicely.

Today feel like yesterday. I have nothing to do, hence decide to catch some movie online. Caught a cantonese horror show called Fugato or something like that, then caught the Inside man which was a pretty good show and at night, I finished the movie the Phantom of the opera.

Angela from work did not call up for a followup, I think I will call her again tomorrow.

What a boring day.

Day 16: Hidden messages

Woke up at 10.40a.m. today. Ate a delicious breakfast of Hokkien Mee and came online to manage my new Utopia account. Left the house at 11.10p.m. to get to harbour front tower 1 level 18 for the briefing to my new job.

Its been 16 days since we broke. I missed you Eugenia, I still do. Do you miss me? Do you
Alas, I miscalculated the time. I got there at 12.20p.m. and Angela, the person who was suppose to brief us told me that I came too late. The briefing requires at least 45mins hence she told me to come again another time this week. I made a wasted trip down.

remember the times we used to go out, have fun, relax and me send you home after that? Why
Came back home, got online and feeling bored, decided to watch some movie. Ended up watching Basic Instinct 2: Risk addiction which I personally feel is a good psychological movie despite what usual critics think. I also watch the teenage move, dirty deeds which is good entertaining. Got me all the way till evening.

are you working yourself so hard? You'll always be in my heart. I love you. May God bless you.
Asked her if she wants to go watch Step up 2 with me, she told me that she was really busy and that she even have to work on Saturdays now. God bless her and help her to do well in her work and studies.

Day 15: Can you feel the Love tonight?

Woke up today at 11.20a.m. Came online to check my mail and work on my new Utopia Account. Left the house at 12p.m. for lunch and the interview for the position of events coordinator at Aljunied, Yong Da building.

Thank god I was early, there was a couple more people there. The receptionist handed me a form and a clipboard and ask me to complete it, hand it to her and wait for the interview. I did as was told and handed the form over to here and sat waiting for my turn. There were some people there filling the forms too and I realized to my horror that there was a couple more questions at the back of the application form and I have forgotten to fill up that huge chunk! Then at the impeccable timing, I was called to the interview room.

Well a lady in her thirties greeted me. She then went on to brief and ask me questions based on the form. I found that she speaks quite fast, giving me the impression of a well-rehearsed speech and must be well trained in sales since she appeared rather bold and fearless. She twist her words saying that "firstly to be an events coordinator you must learn about events. Hence we will be sending you to different roadshows or other type of function to learn there first. Then we will move you to smaller events like Fun fairs, career fairs and the likes and finally if your capable to manage bigger, more prestigious events."

To the common blur people out there that have not done door-to-door sales before, I would like to say that it is just a load of Busht. Do not believe that please... They are just gonna make you help out at roadshows and IT fairs as runners and give you a crazy minimum pay till you leave. Got big event still call small fry manage meh? Sha de...

She said... "First two months you will be paid $1200 to $1400" which to a person that became the youngest team leader ever in a outdoor sales company means you will be paid $1200, nothing more. "Then after the first two months you will be paid at a $1500 or more depending on performance." which means that you can go ahead and dream because Im going to NS how to work more then 2 months... She knows it but she's just trying to distract my thoughts and paint a nice picture. She asked me to go down for an orientation tomorrow at 8.45a.m. tomorrow and one of the leaders will bring me around. That is exactly what happen when I went for my out-door sales. I tagged along with a leader, Getty.

Well well... Nothing much, hence after the interview, I made my way down to the salvation army. There was no drum set in sight hence I approached the office. Major Ruth Pascoe was not around but in the office was a girl in her early twenties that doesn't look local and doesn't look bad. I asked her about the drum set, she made a call and then lead me to the fellowship hall where she opened a locked room and the both of us brought out the drums sets. We had a nice conversation where she told me she plays the guitar and I told her that she can drop by later when she have the time. Spend the rest of my time playing the drum and practicing my moves till 7.00p.m. at the salvation army. Decided to leave then.

However, as I was walking past the indoor basketball court, I noticed two guys playing inside, two tall, huge foreign guys. I went in and chatted with them, asking them about the cost of booking the court for a game of basketball. Turns out that one of the guy was the person who runs the facility and whom played professional basketball once. He told me of a basketball league which he intend to set up, some sort of a summer competition. There will be Kids from the american school and other forgeiners, there will be kids coming from Korea and local kids playing in the league. I told him that I may have a team too. He welcomed me to join in and I told him that I will consider. In actual fact, I was thinking of the guys playing basketball downstairs... not some professional teams.

Came back home and had a good chat with ZhongKai and Yong Lee. Just then I received a call from a tele-communication company asking me to come down for an 1 hour briefing tomorrow at harbour front. Apparently Zhong Kai has recommended me to this job and they decided that they want to hire me. Well I'll take that i guess and skip the events coordinator job. At least I get to sleep late one more day. As I was talking to Zhong Kai and Yong Lee both of whom works at the company before, I asked them about the job detail and from what they say, the job seemed pretty decent.

Came home, spoke to my mother who came back from Genting and we spoke about her experience there. There are still many good things that she have not tried and I will introduce them to her the next time. I wonder how things will go tomorrow.

Praise the Lord.

Day 13, Day 14: Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

On Saturday I woke up at 1.30a.m. Had burn the night playing card games with my brother's friend till early morning. I slept in my father's water bed because he is not home and that was the most amazing experience ever. It was nothing like my own water bed. His was very comfortable and I did not wake up once the entire night. I woked up feeling utterly refreshed.

After I woke up and had my Brunch, I thought of what I can do for this weekend. I checked through my mail and found out that that was job opening at Changi General Hospital through a contact from school so I wrote in a cover letter attached with a Resume and sent it to them. There was still no replies. Feeling so bored, I decided to watch a movie via streaming on Movie6.net. I watched Hostel 2. It was good entertainment. Burnt 2 hours.

Came online and spoke to some friends, had dinner and rotted in front of the TV till I slept.

On Sunday I woke up at 1p.m. Came online and set up a new utopia account. Was in a really good organized and experienced KD. Maybe I can kill of Darius from my previous KD. Ah well lets wait till near the end of the age before I do it. =) Slacked in front of the TV for a while and off I was to go and play badminton once again with my father and brother. Had another good workout. This time, my father was with us and we had a great time.

Had a good dinner too. We ate especially well today because we wanted to celebrate my fathers 55th birthday. Brother and me gave my father a treat and the cost was quite affordable. Had salad you tiao, Kou lok You, Tie ban Tou fu, Sambal xiao kai lan and wu xiang. I had milk tea. =)

Came home and caught the movie Kung Fu dunk. Thought that the show was quite fake but the story line was quite ok. I think it only scored a 5.5 out of a ten for me. Going to go for an interview tomorrow. Catch you later!

Praise the lord.

Day 12: Forget it. Look Forward.

Woke up at noon today, had a light lunch, went downstairs to buy the papers and came up to look through the classified. Send a couple of resumes out to different companies, called the rest and arranged for an interview. There will be one on Monday, with the position of events coordinator. Had some experience in this field so I may be able to do well.

Stayed online, nothing much throughout the day. Gave a call to Major Ruth Pascoe at the salvation army and god bless this kind old lady for giving me the opportunity to use the Drum set anytime I want free-of-charge. Bless her and thank you God for giving me the chance to fulfill my goal. I will go down to the interview on Monday and then proceed on for a little Drum session in the evening.

Mom went to Genting highlands for the next three days. I hope that she will enjoy her time there as she has worked hard to keep the family healthy and did a magnificent job doing the household chores. She does not smoke, does not gamble and have everything good.

Came back to Bukit Panjang for a night out with my brother and his friends. Going to spend some time playing Magic the gathering. =)

Day 11: Days out with the Dudes

Woke up at 11.30a.m today. Came online and had breakfast. Do my usual stuff and went out to school. Had to pay for our graduation robe.

Reach the school late, met up with Shawn, Zhao and Eric. They were at burger King having lunch. Companied them. Made our way to school to get our Graduation robe. It felt good to be walking back in school again. Paid for our Graduation robe, $25 with pink sash. Went for lunch, had mushroom chicken at Taiwan delight.

Went to the IT show at Suntec city with Shawn and Eric. There were so many things there and so many different variety of digital equipment it left me baffled. I bought a laptop cleaning kit because I promised Her that I will buy it for her before we broke. Other then that was tempted to buy an MP3 but felt that I do not really need it hence skipped it. Walked around the area for a few hours. Had an interesting experience with this cute girl at one of the stall. I asked her... "Sorry do you have anything with which to clean a laptop?" She replied, "Erm... Vacuum cleaner?" -_-'!

Had dinner with the other guys at the food court in Marina Square.

Came back home after that. While I was at the computer, my mom came to me telling me she will be going to Genting Highlands for a 4 day trip. She passed me $50 malaysian riggit and $50 Singapore dollars and told me to take care of myself for this 4 days. God bless! I cannot believe she gave me money for the love of god! Haha... it was really interesting.

Well there is really nothing much I can spend the money on. I guess I'll just use it to have more drums lesson. =)

41 more day to learn Thai and 85 more days to learn Drums. I can do it!

*Dear heavenly father thank you for a wonderful time today. Father I still love Eugenia. I missed everything about her. The lazy weekends we spend just loving every minute with each other, the little time we spend with each other during busy weekends cramped with exams and work. I missed holding her in my arms, us fooling around doing nothing and I missed the times where she would wake me up in the early morning and give me massages. I missed talking to her, sweet presence beside me, giving me great words of advice and calmness. Everything felt so right being with her. Yet, she cant see these words I typed to her because she will feel further repelled to me if she does. All she wants to do now is to enjoy her Singlehood and father I hope that you will bless her with all that she desires and make her happy. Father clear my path. Father I pray to you that if we are not meant to be together, give me the Strength to move onwards. Father give me the power to drop My True Love, My First Love.

Day 10: God is the Best Assurance

Woke up at 12.00p.m today. Meet up with Carolyn, Jaslyn, Michelle and another girl to hang out in the afternoon playing Mahjong. Came online for a little bit first.

When I came online, She spoke to him. Told me that She can't make it for the Go-kart trip to JB on the 15th of March. Well... I told her its alright, we can always make it at another date. We spoke about her studies and the pressure she was facing and I could understand what a great burden it was on her shoulders, having extra modules to take, having to work and paying her University school fees all by herself. Having to do housework and still have to spend time with her friends, She really does have a lot of problems which I could do nothing about.

I then asked her if she wants to go to Church this Sunday. She said her already had plans with her friends. Once again I got rejected. =( However, on the bright side, she said she really wants to go to Church so how about we go Next Sunday instead, first service. Oh man... You can't imagine the happiness I felt then.

Oh yea I also get to walk our dog next sunday too.

Had a good time with Carolyn and company. Had a relaxing Wednesday.

Came back home and submitted my form to go for the Go-karting trip. Hope I have a good safe time there.

Need to go to school tomorrow to pay for my graduation robe. Hope to work out tomorrow morning too. After the buying of my graduation robe I'll go look for work again.

Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you for answering my prayers. Thank you also for sending me great friends to give me joy, comfort and company. My day was smooth today and I pray to you lord that you will continue to make the days of everyone I know smooth and without problems. Let your glory shine on them and make them righteous. Drive all doubts and negative thoughts from their minds and give them motivation and Assurance. Dear lord please bless Eugenia. She is weary and need the support of friends and family but MOST importantly, she needs you my lord. Bless her with everything good and may you give her rest and rejuvenated vigor so she may face her everyday challenges. Give her happiness. Thank you father. In Jesus name, AMEN.

42 more days to learn Thai and 86 more days to learn Drums. I can do it!

Day 9: The Inside Turmoil

Woke up at 11p.m today. Bathe, came online, going to the Immigration checkpoint authority and have a possible lunch with her. Messaged her the night before and this is what she replied back to me. "Good morning... I don't know if I'll be eating or not, cos I need to buy fruits ard my area. See how. And usually you always come late. So don't know if can eat with you or not? See how lo. K!"

I replied. "Haha. Same as you ma. I always come late and you always give excuses. I mean, how lame is buying fruits man?

She didnt reply after that.

Came online for a little while, then left the house at 1.50p.m to go to the Immigration checkpoint authority to collect my passport. Reach the place at 3.15p.m, collect my waiting pass and waited till 5.30p.m before my collection is done. Ridiculous. Well guess who I met? I met my Sister! Carolyn with her dad. She was waiting to get her passport done too. Its funny to be meeting her there. As it was already reaching 5 and I still wasnt done yet, what do I do? I messaged her again. This time asking her for dinner. I smsed her. "Doing anything after work?"

She replied. "Ya... Got plans to meet friends"

I answered. "Straight after work? Im still at the ICA and have not had lunch yet."

She said. "Oh... Why not.?

I answered. "Still waiting. Came at 3.15 and its not my turn yet. So what say you? Fish soup?"

She replied. "Cannot. I meeting them straight after work. Cos having dinner with them then go school."

She turned me down for 2 lunch and a dinner.

Thats alright.

Ended up coming back home for dinner. Tom Pang Carolyn's dad car, had a free ride home. I can't help asking myself. "Why do I bother, why do I bother to even ask her out for lunch at all? Why do I even try to win her back? Dude. She made it clear when she says she does not love you anymore. She said she wants to just be your friend. But hey, you know thats Bullshit. She doesn't want to be friends with you. She just wants you to piss off and stop bothering her. She is happy where she is now. No... She won't cry for you. She wont give a shit about you. Yea. Go die and she won't give a fuck about it. She hates you.

All these anger, confusion, furastration... I got to start working out again...

God where are you...

Day 8: Brand New Week

Had the plan of wake up at 10.30a.m today. Had the plan of meeting Her for lunch then going over to the immigration checkpoint authority to check on the progression of the making of my passport. Had also planned to meet up with William for a drumming session at 4.pm.

Instead, my handphone went flat and I overslept by half an hour. Woke up at 11a.m. Having sent her a SMS the previous night asking her for lunch the next day since the Immigration checkpoint authority was nearby her work place, I have not seen her reply. Furthermore, my handphone was flat hence I needed to inject some life into it. No choice, I woke up immediately, cleaned up, got dressed and left the house for Bukit Gombak to reach my charger.

As I was charging the phone, I came online and saw her. She told me that she cannot make it for lunch at 1p.m. She can only eat at 12.0op.m and at the time of the private message, it was already 11.45a.m hence there will be no lunch with her. I said I was alright with that and we can always have lunch another day. She also spoke to me about a problem she faced during work with her bosses. Strangely, listening to her confide in me makes me feel very comforted. There's probably something wrong with my head. Since there was no lunch, I left the house at 1.30p.m to the Immigration Checkpoint authority.

Praise the lord I was told by the officer there that the collection of the passort from those that applied on the 28th of Jan is tomorrow, the 3rd of March. That means I have to go down to the place again tomorrow to collect my passport. Maybe this time I'll get to have lunch with Her.

Went to the salvation army to meet up with William for the drumming lesson. When we reach there we realise that the place have been cleared up because they are going to have an examination for foreign students hence there was no drums sets for the public to play. We ended up paying $14 at Alvaron studio nearby for an hour of drumming lesson. Instead, we got to play for 1 and a half hour because the studio guy lost track of time. William taught me the basics of playing the drums. He told me the different components, mainly the hi hat, the 3 toms, high medium low, the snare, the base drum and the two crash. He taught me the basics beat which I quickly pick up because I used to have some lessons from another friend. He also taught me a few simple tricks I can use during breaks to make things sounds nicer. It was a wonderful experience albeit a costly one.

Came home, had dinner and read the papers. Chilled out with Steven and went on a stroll with him after dinner. I think I'm going to rest early. Tomorrow morning, I am going to work out at Bukit Timah Nature Reserves in the morning, go to have lunch with Her, visit the Immigration checkpoint authority and if all goes well, get to have another drumming lesson with William. Lets see how things go.

"A happy man is just a sad man with a smile" - Steven Lim Chee Yong

Day 7: I'm too Free

Woke up at 10.30a.m today. Had some errands I have to run for my dad. Had some breakfast and got the errand done quickly.

Went to the room, hoping to watch some of the movies stored away in my hard-disk. Found out that there were some problems with the sound system on my laptop and if I want to hear any sound at all, I have to plug in the headphones which I have forgotten to bring. Ah well... lets just spend my day play Football manager and chill.

Went to play badminton with my brother in the evening from 4 to 5pm. Dad could not make it because he had his brothers and sisters over at our place and he needs to entertain them. At first I was rather pissed. I had been meaning to spend some time with him and my brother and thought we could make use of this weekend to exercise and grow closer and he tells me he had to entertain his brothers and sisters at the last moment when the plan has been made? Thats ridiculous.

Then again, it is exactly this kind of attitude which cause the separation between me and her and I have made a promise to myself that I will never repeat this kind of lousy attitude and tried to look at things from my dad's point of view. I can see that he really wants to spend some time with us too, just that he can't leave his own brothers and sisters idling and doing nothing. Well there are still other time for father and son bonding so... it;s really no big deal.

Had a great dinner today though the portion barely filled my stomach. The dishes were great however and the butter prawns was good. We came home and caught a portion of the Chronicles of Riddick and Underworld.

Going to check on my passport tomorrow. I'll also get the papers and apply for a job related to my field in the next two weeks. If I do not get a job in my field for the next two weeks, i will go for a job that is totally unrelated and that is easy to find. In the evening, I will meet William for a drum lesson. Tata!

Day 6: Lonely Boring Saturday

Decided to stay in bed late. Woke up at 1.30p.m. Had a good breakfast and came online to learn Thai again. Spoke to people in the forum to try to improve my Thai. Whenever we spoke and I found that there is something I do not know, I will ask. And learn.

Contemplated going down to work out. However, I feel that there's no point working my body to exhaustion. Let my body take the rest it needs and work harder next week. Online all the way till the evening. Decided to make use of my time and flip through the newspaper I collected since last year. I wanted to extract all the medicine news from last year and use these articles as learning tools to increase my knowledge. Doing this will bring me closer to The Goals. Did that all the way till 10p.m, had a dinner of chicken rice.

Bathe and came to Bukit Panjang, my hideaway for the weekend. Theres nothing much here today. Still trying to get accustom to not having her around for company during the weekend. Things will get better. =) Gotta keep myself away from EMO songs!

Look forward to playing badminton with the rest of the family Tomorrow!

Dear Heavenly Father. Please bless me and give me the strength I need to carry on each and everyday of my life. Help me to achieve my goals and give rest and peace to everyone I know. You died on the cross for us so our sins may be forgiven so let everything I do from henceforth illuminate in your name and glory and may all praises to me be reflected ALL unto you my lord. Father bless Eugenia. She was an Angel that you sent to me that walked and touched me for 3 years of my life and lord please bless her with everything joyful, positive and happy. Bless her friends with whom she shared new found bonds with and give her a safe trip home tonight. Thank you for the wonderful day. In jesus name, Amen.